The Song to this Chapter is - Goodbye by Miley Cyrus

Chapter 6 - The Talk!

BPOV

"….what I said it was…"

"STOP" I shouted I couldn't hear what he was going to say not again I knew even as a vampire he wouldn't love me I'm still just plain Jane ugly and worthless.

"But Bella you need to hear what I was about two …" why is he doing this to me,

"Edward, why are you doing this to me?" I looked into his eyes but all I could see was sorrow and hurt and….and I think I saw love, no Bella he was just about to say he still didn't love like the last time.

"What? Why am I doing what to you Bella trying to tell you that I lo-" I cut him off again I didn't need to hear it again it was painful enough the first time and I couldn't go through this not again, I won't make it this time even if I have to walk though fire to end this pain by ending my life, my ever living soul.

"No Edward, why do you like hurting me? Was it not enough all those years ago? Did you not get the reaction you wanted? Is that way you're doing it again?" I had so many questions to ask but I knew if he told me the answer I might not be able to handle it.

"Bella the last thing I want to do is hurt you" he said in a whisper,

"Then why are you here? Because when you lift last time I stayed there in the woods crying and couldn't even walk that how she got me EDWARD" I shouted his name to let out all this anger I was feeling and as he went to say something else I put my hand up to stop him I couldn't take it no more he had to no and then maybe just maybe he might leave me be, if I don't kill myself.

"Edward I don't see why you're here, yes I love you and maybe more since I became a vampire but you lift me there and you keep coming into my head every day and I can't get away from you but you lift Edward, you lift!. You said you didn't love me so why are you here in my room talking to me I'm in enough pain as it is so why are you here about to tell me you don't lov-" I was cut off by the most loving feeling ever … wait …. WHAT?... I didn't have the strength to pull myself away from him, lips felt so nice against mine and soft, but all too soon he pulled away…what am I saying….he's just going to leave me after and this will be harder than ever for me to get over, within seconds I was on the other side of the room as far as possible sitting in the corner dry sobbing with my head on my knees when he spoke…

"Im so sorry Bella, I didn't mean to do th-" I knew it, why me, why was it always me he did this to or was there others girls to…

"HOW COULD YOU DO THAT?" I was more than angry now and I swear I saw him jump at my outburst…"WHY DO YOU HAVE TO MAKE THIS HARDER ON ME IF YOUR GOING TO GO THEN LEAVE EDWARD BECAUSE…because I can't take the pain of you being here and not being mine" I was so angry with him but I couldn't found it in me to shout the last part at him even if he did deserve it.

"Bella if you would just listen to me" I heard him say as he got up of the bed and walked slowly over to me, I didn't cut him off from speaking this time so he on "Bella I am so in love with you that you wouldn't believe me if I told you how much I love you, I can't even put it into words how hard it was that I had to leave you but you must understand I did that for you" huh? He loved me,

Then I looked up to see him right in front of me staring into my eyes and that's when I saw it, love in his eyes not a little bit of it like I thought I had seen before but whole full on love, pure in his golden eyes and that's all I need to see. That all I needed to know that he loved me, I pushed him back so he was laying back on the floor me on top of him kissing his lips.

The amount of lust and love I could feel coming of him was unbelievable but we had to stop before we got too carried away.

"I love you so much Isabella Marie Swan" he told me as I pulled away and put my head on his chest and listened to his breathing as his heart didn't beat to make a sound, I looked up to see him grinning at me that favorite cocked smile I always loved as I said,

"I love you to, but Edward this isn't going to be easy I know you truly love me, trust me im empathic remember? But the fact is you still lift me broken and even though my family may have helped me back together I was not truly complete…" I stopped to let him take this all in before I went on "…and with you here knowing that you love me does make me whole but not fully because I have to learn to trust you, I do trust you but you hurt me once and I won't be able to go through that again because no one will be able to help me this time and I don't know what would happen if I opened up right away to be hurt again. Do you understand?" as I looked in his eyes all I could see was sorrow and understand meant along with a few other emotions.

"Bella I will never hurt you again I lift because I wanted you to have a chance at a human life so you could have more things then I could give you, I wanted you to grow up and have children, get married to a human even when I hated the thought of another man touching any part of you and wishing I would be the father of your children but it looks like I lift you to become a vampire just after your 18th birthday and much sooner than I would have liked for you to become one of us if you had to" he said watching me the whole time and just as I was about to say something our phones rang.

I groaned and put my head on his shoulder before getting up to let him up to answer his, I looked down to see Faith was calling me and held it up to show Edward while he showed me his Alice. The look on his face was priceless as we both knew what was coming and then I answer my phone.

"Hello"

"Bellaaaaaa"

"What did you want Faith, not to be rude but I was doing something" I said wanting nothing more than to talk to Edward again he wasn't mine well not yet anyway.

"Oh hun we all know what you were really up to Alice told us" 'great' I thought.

"Ok well can we hurry this up please" I asked as nice as I could as I felt Edward's arm go around my belly and pull me back into his chest and smiled at the feeling.

"Well I called just to say that the Cullen's are coming back to ours and we are a couple of minutes away so you know, and I bet you like what just happened it is so cute Bella I see it rig-" I closed my phone if they was almost here I wasn't staying on the phone and wasting time.

"Bella" Edward said as he pull me close to him if that was possible "well you be my girlfriend until I make you my wife" oh my god he just and huh? Oh my god Bella talk it's just Edward…yeah but he just said he wanted me to be his girlfriend then to become his wife,

"Edward you know I love you so why would you even ask something like that, of course I will be you girlfriend" I said in a rush.

"Good because I wouldn't have it any other way" was all that was said before I was turned around and pulled in for a very heated kiss but I wasn't complaining that was until I heard two annoying little pixies jumping up and down as I turned around to see Emmett, Jasper, Carlisle, Rosalie, Esme, Alice, Faith, Amy, Shane and Taylor all standing in my bed room with the biggest smiles on their face you would think it was Christmas all over again for a 5 year old.

"Aww" they all said together but I even saw Rosalie smiling.

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