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JUST TO LET YOU KNOW when I skipped the 6 months (IN the chapter from 6 days to 6 months)
Emmett had his b-day so did Jasper and Rosalie XD
His lips were moving fast on mine he shut and locked his door.
Flashback
"Its upstairs" Phil screamed but I barley heard him I nodded my head and we went upstairs I went in his room and he closed the door behind us and I gave him a questioning look.
"Where's her gift? I bet you got her a bracelet or-" I was cut off by Phil kissing me and I pushed him off of me
"What the hell?" I screamed angrily
"Come on babe lets have some fun" He said while wiggling his eyebrows
"NO!" I had said forcefully
End Flashback
He started to kiss my neck he was too rough he reminded me just like Phil and I hated every second of this he moved me to the bed and I started to un do the buttons of his shirt.
"You don't know how long I've been waiting to get in your pants" Embry told me his voice husky and he practically ripped off my shirt but it caught on my cast and started to kiss down my body. I was panicking uncontrollably.
"What happened?" Embry asked eying my bruises.
"Nothing" I said my voice was shaking my arms were around his back so that he couldn't see my cut scars I was trying to be Numb and repress all of my memories but it wasn't working.
"Stop Stop Stop!" I said frantically he was about to un do my pants I thought about how Phil had never had stopped when I said No.
"Come on babe don't you want the drugs?" He asked
"Are you crying?" Embry asked and I didn't realize that I was crying until he pointed that out so there I was blubbering like a baby.
"I should go" I mumbled and put my shirt back on. I was now crying harder I realized that I can never be close to someone even if I tried all because, of Phil.
"Come on I think having sex with me is going to be better than going through detox." He said he's right I'm starting to feel woozy I haven't had my drugs in such a long time maybe a day ago was the last time I had drugs.
"Bye" I mumbled and walked out of his room Emily Sam and the rest of the guys were in the living room.
"Bella are you ok?" Emily asked probably noticing my tears I didn't say anything I just left because, if I would have opened my mouth I would have burst into tears. I got in my truck calmed myself down. I looked around frantically for drugs in my car but had no luck.
"Damn it" I Said and hit my steering wheel. I drove home and of course my radio was blasting a metal song that had almost no lyrics the lyrics that it did have were screamed not sung, and had a tremendous amount of guitar and drum solos. I sat in my truck for about an hour before I went inside trying to get myself to stop crying and it felt like it was a million degrees and I was fidgeting a little yup I was starting to feel the effects of not having drugs. I walked in and saw everyone including Renee and Phil was at the table laughing. I walked past the table to get up the stairs but as soon as I walked past the table Renee got up.
"Oh my God Bella are you ok?" She asked and put her hand to my forehead
"Your burning up." She exclaimed
"Are you fucking ok because I don't think you are if you are marrying him." I spat
"Bella I will not tolerate this kind of language." Renee gasped I looked through the mail on the counter no letter from Jacob I sighed
"Well I will not tolerate you marrying him." I said adjetated I walked to the kitchen and Renee followed me I stuck my head in the freezer but I still didn't feel any cooler I pulled my head out of the freezer and shut it.
"Bella this dinner was going great but you just had to be the center of attention and make a scene like you always do." Renee stated everyone was dead silent they could probably hear us
"I know your life is bad but you made it this way you decided to sleep with him even though he had a girlfriend and you had a boyfriend." Renee said and everyone was still watching and listening to us.
"Ok I don't get it everyone shuns me for sleeping with Phil but they are laughing and having a good time with Phil who did the same thing as me, he cheated. Are you saying that girls can be slutty and guys can't. Because none of you guys seem to have a problem with Phil." I said loudly
"You are just a freakin attention seeking whore and I'm tired of this" I felt like someone stabbed me when she called me a whore I started walking up the stairs.
"Wait Bella I didn't mean to say that." Renee said
"Yes you did" I muttered loud enough for her to hear I got up the stairs and ran to the bathroom and started puking my guts out another side effect of not having drugs.
"Bella are you ok?" Jane asked
"Can I come in?" She asked
"Sure" I said and she walked in
"I must have the stomach flu or something I don't think you'll want to catch what I have." I sighed
"Bella how stupid do you think I am? You're sweating, probably have a fever clammy hands, adjetative: get mad easily, and you are puking. As soon as you walked in me and Edward knew that you are going through drug withdrawal." Jane said sounding like a doctor
"How long have you been using them?" She asked but I puked and she held my hair back
"I don't do drugs." I lied
"Bella" she said in a tsk tsk tone
"4-5 pills a day for a little bit more than a year" I admitted it actually felt good to tell someone about my drug addiction.
"Ouch this is going to be a bitch but you'll get through it I'm glad that you have decided to stop." Jane stated
10 withdrawal hours later
"Temperature hasn't gone down 103.7" Jane told me and put a washcloth on my forehead I didn't get how I could have such a high fever I was shivering uncontrollably bottom line is that I feel like shit.
"You should probably take off your sweatshirt that would help." Jane stated no way am I doing that then she would see that I still cut. I threw up then Jane suggested that she'll step out and that I take a 15 minute cold shower. As soon as I got done I got on clean clothes. I walked out of the bathroom a little woozy and Jane helped me to my bed room I plopped on my bed and groaned.
"Here's a trashcan in case you know have to puke and call me if you need me." Jane said
"Yes Nurse Jane." I said mockingly
"Doctor" She corrected me and I half laughed and she left I took out my journal and wrote
Dear Diary,
Drug withdrawal is a bitch. None of this would be happening if I just stopped being a pansy sucked it up and slept with Embry. I tried I really did but my emotions got in the way as soon as his lips crashed to mine I panicked and every bad memory of Phil raping me came into my mind all at once and it sucks how I can't even be close to someone like that even if I tried.
From, A Bella that needs to learn how to suck it up
2 days later
The symptoms are starting to slow down but I still feel terrible.
"BELLA" Jane said with so much enthusiasm that she reminded me of Alice
"Oh its you." I sneered jokingly and she glared at me then smiled
"Hey Me you and Steve shopping today." Jane said
"Nooooooooooooo" I emphasized
"Please Edward's birthday is coming up and I still have to get something for him." Jane said and as soon as she said his name my mood changed instead of being ok I now was in a terrible mood.
"So are you in?" Steve asked
"Nope" I said seriously
"Please Please Please Please." She begged
"You can't just hide under a rock until Jacob comes back." Jane said
"Watch me" I said covering myself with the blanket and Jane practically dragged me out of the house I was whispering profanities the whole ride to the mall. I noticed that Steve didn't look thrilled either.
"Steve I know that you didn't want to go but we need a guy to carry our bags." Jane said We got to the store and Jane was pulling me into so many stores I got a black zip up hoodie that was on sale for $5 and I lost track of what Jane had bought since she had bought so much stuff.
"Steve why don't you go to the electronics store and meet us at the food court in an hour or so." Jane suggested and Steve looked like a little kid on Christmas morning and left.
"Huh what was that about?" I asked
"Well I wanted to buy something special for Steve." Jane said and we walked into Victoria's secret and I gave her a questioning look.
"I want our first time together to be special" She said just above a whisper
"Hmm should I get the classic black lace bra or the fire truck red one?" Jane asked me
"I'm not sure I don't really know much about this stuff how about you choose a set that is his favorite color?" I suggested
"Genius! I'll get dark red!" Jane practically yelled and ran over to the red set and purchased it.
"Well we have half an hour left lets squeeze in a couple more stores before we eat." Jane said and I groaned we went to some store and Jane forced me to try on a pair of super skinny light blue jeans.
"I'm not coming out!" I yelled through the dressing room door
"Bella come on I've been dying to see you in jeans that are not black!" Jane said and I rolled my eyes Then the door opened because, of her credit card picking the lock.
"Wow there's really nothing a credit card can't do." Jane laughed as she said that
"Bella you look-" Jane started terrible disgusting ugly that no one will ever want a used person like me
"Hot" a guys voice said and I could feel the blush spreading on my cheeks
"I'm James" He said He had short light brown almost caramel colored hair with light blue eyes he was good looking but nothing in comparison to Edward
"I'm-- not interested" I said and went back into the changing room and changed and he was talking to Jane.
"Hey here's my number." James said I took the number in my hand and threw it into the nearest trash can Jane looked shocked
"Don't worry I got it" Jane said pulling the number out of the trash and I gave her a disgusted look
"Jane I did not want his number before so why do you expect me to take it now when it's covered in smoothie?" I asked
"Ouch I'm wounded" James stated
"So what's your number?" James asked
"9 1 1" I stated
"Ha ha you're hilarious." Jane said
"Hey don't we need to meet Steve at the food court?" I asked
"I'm sure he can wait" Jane insisted looking between me and James and my stomach growled I'm sure that Jane will not let me go to the food court and eat until I give him my number. I felt defeated I was not ready for any kind of relationship even if it was friendship Jane doesn't know how hard it is for me to open up to people especially guys
I unwillingly wrote my number on his hand in black sharpie
"So I guess there is some guy code saying not to call a girl for 2 days?" I asked
"Actually it's three so don't expect a call until three days later" He joked and I flashed him a smile We walked our separate ways
"I hope you know that I hate you" I said with venom in my voice
"Love you to!" Jane said I know what she is trying to do she is trying to help me to get over Edward but it's not going to work. We ate lunch and Steve's eyes practically popped out of his head when he saw the Victoria's Secret's bag, we got home later.
"You guys go on in I'm going to check the mail." I yelled and they went inside while I looked for a letter from Jacob. I sighed there was no letter from Jacob but there was a letter from the army.
Dear Isabella Swan we are sorry to inform you that…
Sorry that this chapter was a little blah major writers block grrr…
DA DA DAAAA dramatic music what do you think the letter says? How'd you like James? And review!
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