Thanks for all of the reviews and you guys were right the pun in the last chapter was intended XD. Well I hope you guys enjoy this chapter!
Previously…It took me a little bit but I walked to the top of the highest cliff I looked down at the water and without a second thought I knew what I had to do I flung myself off the cliff
I screamed it wasn't a terrified scream it was an excited scream, a rush of adrenaline scream. I hit the icy cold water and surfaced the cold water was stinging me it felt like pins and needles. Why didn't this work? I asked myself then looked up at the cliff it was a long way from the top this should have knocked me out then- I thought and I huge wave crashed into me forcing water into my lungs. My instinct kicked in and I tried to swim to the top my lungs felt like they were going to burst before I could get to the top another wave crashed into me whipping my body around. This was the end I felt myself smile then a wave crashed into me yet again and I hit my head against the cliff the last thing I thought before I blacked out was I love you Edward.
"Did she hurt her back when she fell?" I heard someone ask
"I don't know" Someone frantically said
"Breathe Bella" Someone said while pounding on my chest I spit out water sat up and started coughing black dots blurred my vision as I opened my eyes.
"What the hell were you thinking?" Jake said worried apparently Sam was swimming and saw me fall he saved me and then Jacob got worried when I didn't answer his call while he was driving and drove past here and saw Sam dragging me out of the water.
"Jake" I said my voice hoarse I didn't even recognize it my throat burned
"Did you hurt anything when you fell?" He asked
"She didn't fall she ju…" Sam was about to say but I cut him off
"No just my throat" I croaked
"Here let me take you home" Jake offered
"No Jake go see your Dad I'll get home." I insisted
"Ow" I said and put my hand to the back of my head I pulled my hand away and there was blood that was the last thing before I blacked out once again.
Beep beep beep beep beep the steady sound of the heart monitor made crap I was in a hospital I had to get 5 stitches on the back of my head and I had a concussion. I told them not to call anyone and say that I was here so there was no one here except for Jacob, Sam, and Carlisle(my doctor).
"Jakee goo goo see your dadd ok?" I slurred a little the medicine that they gave me for the stitches was making me loopy
"Bella I'm fine right here" he spoke god he was so stubborn
"Carlisle" I said in a sing song voice
"Yes" He was right by my side in a few seconds huh I guess a head injury is bad.
"Can I not have guests?" I asked and motioned to them I wanted Jake to go see his dad not stay here and watch me
"Uh Sure" He said not wanting to be rude
"I'm sorry but you guys have to go." Jake put up a verbal fight but in the end he left I saw Sam talking to Carlisle before he left meanwhile I was tugging at the IV cord I wanted to get out of here.
"Can I leave?" I asked Carlisle while fiddling with my blanket I looked out one of the windows and saw Edward and Jane they must be here for a college thing Jane's eyes met mine and she must of asked Edward if that was me because, he looked at me to I quickly covered up my whole body with a blanket.
"Can I go?" I re-asked
"Bella you're going to have to stay here for a little bit then get transferred to another type of hospital." He said and I gave him a confused look.
"Bella it's obvious that you are not happy and the place that you are going will help you with that." He said was he talking about what I think he's talking about?
"So you're sending me to a crazy hospital?" I exclaimed
"No it's a place just for people dealing with depression." He stated
"I'm not depressed I fell off It wasn't a suicide attempt if that's what you are thinking." I lied
"Oh and neither was that time that you overdosed on pills or what about all those cuts on your arms. I want to help you Bella." Carlisle's worried eyes borred into mine. WHAT HE KNEW, he knew about my cutting, fuck! I looked at my arms and it looked like he cleaned some of the infected cuts up and my arms were bandaged
"I don't have to go. You can't make me" The drugs were losing their effect
"Yes I can. You'll thank me for this later." He said ending the argument He removed my IV and a nurse in the other room helped me get dressed.
"Here you have to fill this out before you go Carlisle said handing me a form that said at the top Depression evaluation test I sighed and decided to cooperate so he doesn't suspect that I will run away as soon as I get my car I'm driving to the nearest airport.
Are you happy all of the time?
No I'm human no one's sunshine and rainbows all of the time
Are you depressed?
No I'm not but my stupid fucking doctor thinks I am
What caused you to attempt suicide?
I didn't it was a mix up and no one believes me
What caused you to harm yourself?
I left that question blank
Did anything happen to you to make you depressed
I was going to put down life but instead I left it blank
Has anyone played a part as to why you are depressed?
Again I was going to put down Phil and my ex friends but I just scribbled that question out and I kept scribbling with as much force as I could.
"What are you doing?" Carlisle said horrified
"Oh um sorry here you go" I said my voice was still very hoarse from the ocean water and I handed the form to him
"A nurse will drive you home to make sure you don't try to escape. We've seen it happen before." Carlisle stated and I sighed crap there was no getting out of this situation was there. We got to my house and she stayed in the car. I hoped that nobody was there. I walked upstairs grabbed 2 suitcases and put everything in there including my journal. When I got downstairs everyone was there.
"Bella" Emmett called and I sighed I went to the living room just to get this over with
"Just saying that you have 5 days to leave."
"Don't worry I'm leaving now I'll pay you back later" I croaked and rubbed my throat it was burning right now.
Rosalie cheered "The slut is leaving yay!" and when she said that, that was my breaking point.
"What the fuck? I screwed up I get it and you're just being immature about this pinning everyone against me. Seriously, you have tried to make my life a living hell since I moved here and congratulations you succeeded how does that make you feel good? This is low that you have to put other people down just so that you can feel better about yourself. Now I'm just going to leave now but have a party because the "slut" is leaving or something I don't care what you say about me or do anymore." I said as loud as my voice would let me(AN: Right on Bella! This is my favorite part of the chapter!) everyone was quiet and shocked at my outburst I grabbed my suitcases and hopped back into my car the nurse and I arrived at the place where they helped depressed people.
So what did you think about this chapter or Bella's speech to Rosalie before she left!
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