A/N: This was kinda hard to write, I was trying to picture how it would work out and stuff. XD I hope it turned out alright. Be sure to check out my 81st story, Wait For Me! It's a one-shot.

Also, sorry for OOCness of Gin...I'm trying my best here but he's bound to be slightly OOC anyway, right?

And since this whole chapter is a flashback, there's no italics for it except in thought.

Angel of Darkness

Chapter 5: Flashback (Dark Hearts)

It was a cold, dark night outside. Ran had spent the entire day training. It had been quite a few weeks since she had joined the Organization, figuring she'd get better information on what happened to her long lost childhood friend, Kudou Shinichi, who seemed to have disappeared from Earth altogether, and little Edogawa Conan was his replacement.

She was still in shock when she'd learned the truth. She remembered Gin telling her about this miracle pill. It couldn't be detected in any autopsy, so it was perfect in the way they won't get discovered by anyone. Gin had also explained that it had had a ... slightly different effect to the rats they tested it on. When she learned of this strange, yet nearly impossible side effect, she started putting two and two together.

Of course, Edogawa Conan and Haibara Ai were too smart for normal elementary school students, although both claimed they were just that. Then, she counted the times that both Shinichi and Conan appeared at the same place at once. She figured that could have been just someone in disguise. Although they were a very good actor. Though she believed the Shinichi that had taken her to that expensive restaurant [1] was the real deal.

His leaving her all the time. That important case. Perhaps it was possible for it to actually be a case, but they never took this long for Shinichi to solve.

Slowly, she was beginning to accept the fact, that Conan and Shinichi were one in the same. The thought actually brought a smile to her face, because it meant Shinichi had never really left her. He'd been by her side the entire time, protecting her.

"Shinichi..." she whispered, her gaze turned towards the window of her room. 'Don't worry. The organization will never know the truth, no one will be in danger and I can help you find information on getting an antidote from here.' These were her thoughts as she stared out at the ever darkening sky.

"Pinot."

Ran froze, and slowly turned towards who'd said her codename. Gin. She had immediately recognized him from that murder on the roller coaster, but said nothing. He'd get suspicious and ask where Shinichi was, because they were no doubt who'd been following.

"Gin."

"You must be tired from another hard day's work of training, yet you are not asleep," Gin said, leaning against the wall close to her bed. She hated to admit it, but she spent a lot of time with Gin now. While she was starting to see a different side to him, she knew he was nothing more than a murderer, and the one behind the disappearance of her Shinichi.

She blinked.

Wait...since when was Shinichi hers?

'Baka...he always was. And I his.'

She hadn't answered Gin, instead staring out the window. He could only guess what she was thinking about. Despite being quite an important member to the Organization now, she'd never forget.

About him.

Him.

That person.

Kudou Shinichi.

The first human test subject of APTX-4869.

When she'd met Gin at Shinichi's place that night a few weeks ago, he remembered her demanding to know where her friend was and 'I know you have something to do with it!' He chuckled slightly. Such a firey little girl.

Now she was quite the fine killer.

But her heart would always belong to Shinichi.

"Gin?"

"Hm?"

"Was there some reason you wanted to see me? Or are you just here to stare?"

He'd only now just realized he'd been staring at her this whole time. With a small sigh, he sat on the edge of her bed.

"You've become quite strong. Pinot," Gin began, and Ran raised an eyebrow.

"My...is that a compliment from Gin I hear?"

"You've learned how to handle and use a gun, and with your already leared karate skills, you've become an important member to the organization." Ran had completely turned to face him by that point. "However...that person is still suspicious."

Ran laughed. "Do they think that if I see him again I'll just jump into his arms? Hmm?"

"They've heard about the way you act...it's no question that even though your heart is now darkening, you still might."

"...Souka."

"Though you have proven your loyalty to us by becoming a murderer," Gin smirked as her eyes drifted downwards to the ground.

'Gomen naisai...Shinichi...'

"You must kill someone else to truly prove yourself."

''Eh?" She looked up at him, blinking several times. "Who?"

"Do you know of the small boy they call Edogawa Conan?" Her face went white. "He's become quite famous from hanging around your father at cases. I hear people think he's smarter than Mouri himself." Obviously they didn't know the connection between him and Shinichi yet. Well, not Gin and that person, anyway. "They want you to kill him."

Ran tensed, her hands tightening into small fists. "What's wrong, Pinot?" Gin asked, noticing. "Your heart is surrounded by darkness, and yet you cannot kill him?"

'Shinichi...'

"H-Hai," she said, her voice a bit shaky. "I can kill him."

Gin smirked. "Good. But not now." She blinked. "He's just a child, is he not? Let him live for a while longer...until he turns seventeen."

'Why would he want me to wait until Conan looks so much more like...like him again for me to kill him?'

Because he knew she couldn't do it.

That person knew too.

It didn't matter how many people she killed over the course of her life.

She couldn't possibly kill Shinichi.

'What would you do if the murderer was someone you knew? Like Agasa-hakase?'

'Someone I knew? I'd try to do everything I could to proove their innocence.'

'Gomen naisai...'

She blinked back tears that threatened to fall, and when she opened her eyes once more she realized just how close Gin was to her.

"G-Gin?"

'That person said her getting involed with someone else might make her forget about Kudo,' thought Gin, inwardly smirking. 'What a wonderfully thought out plan to break both her heart and Kudo's while making sure she stays with the Organization...if Kudo's even still alive, that is.'

Ran was surprised when Gin pressed his lips against hers in a rough kiss. She fell onto the bed, with him on top of her. Despite him stealing her first kiss, she would not allow him to take her innocence.

A lone tear fell from her cheek, landing on the pillow her head was resting on. 'Shinichi...yurushite kudasai.'

...She returned the kiss...

A/N: That was um...really dark? Do you guys like it or hate it? . It took two hours to write, so I hope you do. I saw some errors in time and stuff that I made and I corrected them, if you happened to notice anymore please notify me in a review and I shall fix them. Also, is anyone interested in being a beta reader for this story? E-mail me using my miko_princess_ because I check it the most...I asked for someone to do Faded but no one answered...D:

Also, thanks to Akai Hoshi Neko for the translation on Forgive Me, which is what yurushite kudusai means, and Angel of Darkness. ^^