Capricious

by Thoughtless7

What people need to see is that it's all beautiful. All the ises and is nots are of equal beauty and grace and even everything in between everything from the cherry blossoms to the noose burns to the splash of red on the wall and oh, the red.

5. Chapter 5: Matoi

Capricious

Chapter 5: Tsunetsuki Matoi

I do indeed understand him. It is like understanding the ocean. Do not expect it to be constant. Capricious. Ebbing and flowing. He is wonderful wonderful wonderful I love him love him love him.

Love is like the ocean too. Boundless. Ebbing. Flowing. But mine is not fickle. Never. Because I love him love him love him.

He sits. His tide is out. Very much so. I'd never seen him as such. But I want to see all of him because I love him love him love hi

"Tsunetsuki-san."

Dizzy. Almost faint at the call of my name. Bliss. "Sensei?"

He looks up. Introspective eyes. Normally they do not look so far off. Normally they ground faster. He should know to come down now. It was worrying. "Your presence is a bit disconcerting."

Words I've heard before. Nothing but noise, lack, words are. Not like love. Of which is boundless as the ocean.

He laughs. "Then. Love. It is what you prize?"

"Of course. It should be the prize of all mankind."

"I am jealous."

"Then make it your prize."

"But it is not."

"Make it is, than."

"But I can't."

"So that's what's bothering you. Your lack. Words are lack. Look to what you want. Most likely it is love. So fulfilling. I love you."

"But that's you."

"But we are unified in our love!"

"You understand nothing."

Dizzy. Almost feel pain. Like a smack to the face. My cheeks are wet.

"Tsunetsuki-san, don't..."

"It's okay...even if you say that...words are noise...I still love you...I always will..."

"And if I'm gone?"

"We were going to die together, weren't we?"

"If I die before you?"

"I will have to follow you."

"Tsunetsuki-san, don't be so stupid, so ignorant, you will get more love--"

and his lips were awkward and wrapped around a sentence while mine tried to wrap around his after a forward lunge and he stalled, not pushing away but I should go before I'm forced to go so instead his chest is warm on my face and his back is strong against my hands.

"We were going to die together, weren't we...?"

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A/N: And next chapter is the halfway, turning point. xD Happy Mother's Daaaay~