Okay... that was pretty much an epic fail. I got 9 reviews lol. Oh well. I couldn't wait any longer. I'm almost done the last chapter so I decided to just update. Having Mary beg me helped too xD This is dedicated to everyone who reviewed the last chapter, which is babykjf101, muzicoftheheart, duckvader23, peaceandsmile, mydaydream, BandS4ever, Music4Live-JB, soccerchickforever, and shewhoshallwrite. Though the last two didn't even read the story haha. But I also want to thank all of you for reading this so far :) I love you all! (though I'd love you more if you reviewed lol)
Disclaimer:
Things I own: all the Harry Potter books, all the Twilight books and sand from Aruba.
Things I do not own: Camp Rock. What a pity.
Shane's POV
It's time. Nate, Jason and I step onto the stage, starting the Final Jam. I quickly look behind myself to see Caitlyn and Mitchie backstage, watching us. Good, I know Mitchie's listening for sure.
"Here's our newest song called Sorry. It's about when you really love someone but then you make a mistake and you don't know how else to apologize other than singing a song," I tell the crowd, giving Mitchie a quick glance. She rolls her eyes before muttering something to Caitlyn. I sigh as the music starts playing and Nate gets ready to sing.
"Broken hearts and last goodbyes
Restless nights but lullabies
Help to make this pain go away
I realize I let you down
Told you that I'd be around
Building up the strength just to say" Nate finishes the first verses and I start singing the chorus, giving frequent glances to the back of the stage.
"I'm sorry for breaking all the promises
I wasn't around to keep
If only this time is the last time
I will ever beg you to stay
But you're already on your way
Filled with sorry, filled with pain
Knowing that I am to blame
For leaving your heart out in the rain
And I know you're gonna walk away
Leave me with a price to pay
Before you go I wanted to say, yeah
That I'm sorry for breaking all the promises
I wasn't around to keep
If only this time is the last time
I will ever beg you to stay
But you're already on your way" I finish the chorus for the second time and Nate starts singing the bridge, the most emotional part of the song. Because it's the part that came directly from my heart.
"I can't make it alive on my own
But if you have to go
Then please girl
Just leave me alone
'Cause I don't want to see
You and me
Going our separate ways
Begging you to stay
If it isn't too late" As I start singing the last chorus, I completely turn around and face Mitchie, tears falling slowly down my face. She has to know this is for her. She has to know that I'm sorry.
"I'm sorry for breaking all the promises
That I wasn't around to keep
If only this time is the last time
I will ever beg you to stay
But you're already on your way
But you're already on your way." Closing my eyes, I breathe heavily when the song ends. Singing the song affected me a lot more than I thought it was.
I look back to Mitchie again as Brown comes onto the stage. "Great job, boys. That's how you do it. And now, Mitchie Torres will sing an original."
Mitchie looks at me for a second but quickly looks away, and that's when I notice it. She actually cried while I sang. I smile a bit. Crying means caring, so she still cares about me.
Let's hope she still cares when she finds out my secret.
Mitchie's POV
When Shane finished his song, I couldn't help but to cry. It was so emotional, so… true. I could tell he was really sorry. But I'm not sure if sorry is gonna cut it…
I mean, he's hurt me so many times. Last year by ignoring me, this year by keeping secrets. Who knows if I can trust him again. Maybe my song will show him exactly how I feel. Exactly what he does to me.
The music begins and I start with my head down until it's time for me to sing. Here goes nothing.
"I feel a separation coming on
'Cause I know you want to be moving on
I wish it would snow tonight" I remember Christmas eve, when Shane surprised me and came home while it was snowing.
"You pull me in, avoid a fight" I think of earlier, when we first arrived at camp, and Shane kept trying to kiss me while I was trying to figure out what the strange noises were.
" 'Cause I feel a separation coming on
Just prove that there is nothing left to try
'Cause the truth, I'd rather we just both deny
You kiss me with those open eyes" I admit, I made this part up, but it really fit the theme of the song.
"It says so much, it's no surprise
To you, but I've got something left inside
Don't surrender, surrender, surrender
Please remember, remember December
We were so in love back then
Now you're listening to what they say
Don't go that way
Remember, remember December
Please remember
Don't surrender" I look back at Shane, who's openly crying with his head in his hands. I frown and turn back to sing again.
"You said you wouldn't let them change your mind" Flashback to December: "I love you and I won't let them change my mind. Not my manager, not your parents, and definitely not my fans…"
"'Cause when we're together, fire melts the ice" A direct quote from Shane: "Just remember, even if my fans don't like our relationship, we'll make it. 'Cause when we're together, fire melts the ice."
"Our hearts are both on overdrive
Come with me, let's run tonight
Don't let these memories get left behind
Don't surrender, surrender, surrender
Please remember, remember December
We were so in love back then
Now you're listening to what they say
Don't go that way
Remember, remember December
Please remember
I remember us together
With a promise of forever" He promised us forever: "I promise you we'll be together forever."
"We can do this, fight the pressure
Please remember December
Don't surrender, surrender, surrender
Please remember, remember December
We were so in love back then
Now you're listening to what they say
Don't go that way
Remember, remember December
Please remember
Don't surrender" I almost cry at the end, but I hold it together as the crowd claps and cheers for me. As great as that feels, I'd rather have Shane here with me now.
Before I can get off stage, though, Shane suddenly runs on. I'm so shocked that I can't move and Shane quickly stands in front of me, taking me in his arms.
"Mitchie, I know I said we'd be together forever, but things have changed and-" he sputters out rapidly.
"Shane, not right now, not in front of everyone," I murmur, looking around at the audience. They must think him coming on stage with me is an annual event.
"Yes, in front of everyone. I have to tell you right now," he begs, his eyes full of desperation.
I slowly nod and he sighs, taking a step back and looking at the crowd. "Mitchie, the thing I haven't been telling you… I have leukemia."
Suddenly, the world stops.
"N-no…" I say faintly, not even noticing the waterfall of tears cascading down my face.
"I know," he says sadly, gently brushing the tears away. "I'm sorry I couldn't tell you before, but I was scared. I only have six months to live and I wanted to distance myself from you so that it wouldn't hurt as much, but… I can see it only makes it hurt more. I sorry," he whispers and briefly kisses me.
I hold on to him tightly, both because I'm afraid I'm going to fall and afraid he's gonna leave.
"Let's go back stage," he whispers into my ear and I nod, not able to speak. I can hear the murmur of the crowd as we leave, but I don't care. Nothing else matters more than spending more time with Shane, because I don't know how much longer I'll get.
Shane's POV
The next 24 hours were brutal. Word got out about my illness and the media swamped Camp Rock as everyone was trying to leave the next morning. I stayed in my cabin with Mitchie. She didn't want to leave my side, not now knowing that we didn't have much time together.
"I'm gonna miss you," she mumbles as we lay together in my bed.
I grimace and continue intertwining our fingers. "I'll miss you too."
"How can you talk about this like you're just going on tour or something?" she sighs, looking up into my eyes.
"Because it's the only way I can think about it without freaking out," I shrug. "If I think about how I'm going to be permanently gone from living… I think I'd go crazy." I harshly swallow as I think about it.
I'm gonna die. I'm never coming back.
It's scary.
"Oh… I'm sorry for bringing it up." Mitchie sits up and stretches, her back cracking as she brings her arms over her head.
"It's fine," I say absently, looking out the window and through the curtain at the flashes going off. They can't see us but they still try.
"Come on, Shane, we have to go," Mitchie calls to me. I nod and get up, putting my arms around her as we walk to the door.
"I'm gonna talk to you every day, okay? And visit every week," I murmur into her hair.
She gives me a weak smile. "I'll call you 5 times a day and dream about you every night. How's that?"
"Perfect," I smile.
Before I open the door, I stop and turn to her. "No matter what happens, no matter how soon I leave, know that I love you with my whole heart and soul."
Mitchie's eyes start tearing and a smile overtakes her face. "And no matter where you are or however my life pans out, you should know that I love you more than anything in the world."
I smile, kissing her forehead and opening the door. "Here goes nothing."
Sigh. That's pretty much the end... haha. Except for the epilogue, which I'm working on now. You'll see what happens... if Shane lives or dies ;) It's all in my hands...
When I wrote Don't Forget, I specifically wrote it so I could fill it in during the scene where Mitchie was singing Remember December. Smart, huh? That was pretty much the climax of the story, now you just gotta see the ending next chapter. I can't believe this story is almost done :') It's funny, I did two things I hate doing, writing songs into stories and putting them back at Camp. Oppsie :)
Please please please review and I'll update as soon as possible! Remember to check me out on twitter, I'm joannacamilley there also. And check out Poor Unfortunate Souls, I'm posting the sequel on August 14th, which is the day I'm going to see JB, Demi and the Camp Rock gang! :D I'm sooooooooo excited!