THIS IS THE SAME CHAPTER, THE ENDING WASN'T WORKING FOR ME, SO I CHANGED IT. AND I DON'T KNOW WHY THE WORDS CAME OUT BOLD, THEY WERNT BOLDED ON MICROSOFT WORD.

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Tick…Tick…Tick…Tick…

Ziva sat there, listening to the seconds 'tick' by, or in her case, 'tock' by. Seconds went by, and there was still no answer. Seconds went by, and Ziva had no clue. Seconds went by, and Ziva's guilt grew. Seconds went by, and Ziva didn't know whether Tony, her partner was alive.

What she did know, was that it was her fault. She shouldn't have pulled Tony into the water. She should have made a run towards the locker room. The water seemed safe for a reason, but obviously it wasn't.

Ziva sat in the arctic like room, abandoned, and frozen. The waiting room was deserted, only filled with numerous cushioned chairs, near coffee tables which held old magazines on them. The only thing keeping her sane, would be the constant ticking of the clock, and the nurses moving around.

I hear the ticking of the clock
I'm lying here the room's pitch dark

Gibbs was here with her earlier, but left to go pick up Aaron, and check on the rest of the team. Gibbs didn't really say much to comfort her in her time of need, and that made her feel worse.

The last time she saw Abby, Abby was balling her eyes out. Dark tear marks led their way down her face, and splashing quietly on the floor below her feet. Ziva saw McGee trying to comfort their forensic scientist, but it wasn't working much. Ziva found her son, Aaron, clinging on to Dan, asking for his Daddy.

Ziva sighed. She had let her partner, her best friend, the father of her son, and her possible lover down. She let her own son down. A tear silently made its way to the bridge of her nose, and Ziva wiped it away like it was nothing.

I wonder where you are tonight

No answer on the telephone

Ziva felt change in her body when she wiped the tear away. She remembered herself as the cold-hearted Mossad assassin, who had no feelings. Now, the was the caring, and somewhat loving, NCIS officer. She investigated instead of killing. She didn't assume anymore, and she actually cared for people now.

And the night goes by so very slow

Oh I hope that it won't end though

But the one person that she cared about most, was now, possibly fighting for his life. She could only feel guilt. If she had explained the situation she was in with Jacob, Gibbs might have already killed him. But instead, she ignored it, and now he was the one doing the killing. If she had talked to Tony, instead of ignoring him, Tony might not be in this situation. Instead she tried to handle it herself. If she had told Tony that she was pregnant with his son, he might be there, living with her. But she couldn't tell him that she was pregnant with his kid. She thought it would ruin his 'alpha male' status.

Now, Ziva sat here… Alone

Alone

Tiny footsteps broke Ziva out of her thoughts. She looked up, as another tear fell victum to the ground, as she saw Aaron running towards her. Aaron was wearing Tony's grey OSC sweatshirt, which was way to big for Aaron, but it looked cute on him. Ziva stood up, off of her chair, and ran towards him.

Till now I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
And now it chills me to the bone

Mother and son met in the middle of the waiting room, and they met in a huge hug. Aaron secquered himself in his mother's arms, weaping for the possible loss of Tony.

"I want Toey." Aaron complained into Ziva's shoulder. Ziva could only hold on tighter, and squeeze him, trying to comfort him.

How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone

"Daddy, call him daddy." Ziva told Aaron, out of respect for Tony, since he was the father. Ziva looked up, and saw Gibbs standing there, with a look of grim on his face.

"Daddy." Aaron kept screaming for Tony, and Ziva couldn't stop him. Ziva went over to the chair, and crashed down. She kept a comforting hand, rubbing his back in soothing circles.

"Aba halach la'avoda -
Halach, halach Aba.
Yashuv im tzeit halevana -
Yavi lach matana!

Numi, numi...

Aba halach el hakramim -
Halach, halach Aba.
Yashuv im tzeit ha cochavim -
Yavi lach anavim! Numi, numi" Ziva sang to Aaron, her voice cracking as she sang, as she tried not to cry. The lullaby seemed to work, as Aaron soon calmed down.

Gibbs chose this time to walk up to Ziva, and put a comforting hand on her shoulder. Ziva lightly leaned into his touch. They shared a father-daughter moment, until Ziva felt her eyes getting heavy.

"Gibbs…" Ziva said weekily, her eyes kept shutting, and then instantly re-opening. Aaron's soft breathing, and the warm spot on her shirt, alerted her that Aaron was safely asleep in her arms.

"It's ok, sleep. Tony will be here when you wake up." Gibbs told her, moving to sit on the seat right next to her. He pulled his cap over his eyes, settled comfortably into the chair, and closed his eyes. Ziva took his initialtive, and fell asleep

As Ziva was falling asleep, she kept thinking of Tony. It was all Tony this, and Tony that, in her head. She remembered the day they first met, when she asked him if he was having phone sex

She remembered when they went overcover, the first time they 'slept together'.

She remembered when they where boxed in, the first time he tried to knock her walls down.

You don't know how long I have wanted
to touch your lips and hold you tight,oh

She remembered when he had dated Jeanne, the first time she felt alone, and in love

You don't know how long I have waited

She remembered when he told her he was tired of pretending, the first time she thought their relationship had the chance.

and I was going to tell you tonight
But the secret is still my own

and my love for you is still unknown
Alone

She remembered when he met Aaron, the first time he saw his son, how happy he was.

Till now I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
And now it chills me to the bone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone

Ziva fell asleep with thoughts of Tony, Aaron in herself, effortlessly swimming around in her head.

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Ziva was shaken awake by Gibbs. She opened her eyes, but quickly closed them as the light was bright. She shot them open, as she realized that Aaron was no longer with her. She relaxed as she saw him reading a book in the chair next to her.

"Ziva, the doctor has information on Tony." Gibbs told her gently. Ziva stood up, and shook hands with the doctor.

"I'm Dr. Stavros, I did the surgery on Tony. Well, overall the surgery went well. We managed to get the bullet out." Dr. Stavros said, taking a small breath. Ziva smiled, already letting herself think he's alive.

"But, when we got the bullet out, we didn't see the hole it left in the liver." Dr. Stavros added. Ziva felt her heart drop. Her heart didn't even fall to her stomach, it went all the way down to her feet. Gibbs put a hand on her shoulder.

"What does that mean?" Gibbs asked the question that everyone wanted the answer to.

"I'm sorry to say, that Agent DiNozzo had bleed to death." Dr. Stavros finished. Ziva felt her legs go weak, and she collapsed, falling towards the tile floor. Gibbs reacted faster, and caught her in his arms. He stood her back up, and held her close as she let her cry's out.

"No…not him…not him…TONY!" Ziva screamed out, not caring about the look that the now-full waiting room was giving her. "Why…why him…" Ziva cried…yelled into Gibbs shoulder. Gibbs let Ziva go, as her legs gave out again. Ziva crashed down on the floor, hitting her head. Ziva stayed where she was, and shut her eyes.

"Ziva, Ziva. It's alright, come on."

Alone… Ohhh