I can't believe she's really going. She's been talking about it for a while but it's too soon, as far as I'm concerned.
Is it only six months? Feels like forever; I still remember the day Kenshin and Sano came home with her. That was some crazy day. First the ugly toad fretting that they lost everything, and then they show up with a babe like her. Man, did THAT set ol' Ugly off!
She saved my life. Really saved my life, just like Kenshin did. Of course, if not for her situation I wouldn't have needed her to save me that time – but she's done it so many times since it's not even funny. I'm only ten. I'd bet no other ten year old in Japan has fought as much as me.
Course I've paid the price for it, but I've heard it said what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Heh. I'm pretty strong I guess – although I've got a long way to go before I catch up to Sanosuke or Kenshin.
Man, Kenshin's really an idiot to let her go like this. Look at her walk. She's gorgeous. But it's more than that; there's something so grown up about her. Nothing like Kaoru. She's a good teacher and all but sometimes it's hard to remember that she's older than me. She doesn't act it very much. Not like Megumi.
I'm still pretty sore. Too much fighting, too soon; that's what Megumi said. Now I've gotta rest and build up my strength so I can go back to training – I don't care as much anymore if Kenshin won't teach me Hiten Mitsurugi Ryuu; I learned a lot by watching him. I'll never master it but maybe I can do something to blend it with Kamiya Kasshin Ryuu…
She doesn't want us to get overemotional. I could tell by the way she talked to Kaoru that she didn't want this to be a scene. I can't let her see me acting so weak, even if I don't want her to go. It just doesn't seem fair. The last time she left us we went after her. This time I know she won't be coming back. Not to stay anyway.
I should've done something more, said something more instead of standing here like a useless kid. Maybe I could've done something to get her to stay.
But no. Sano'd have a better chance of doing something that'd keep her here. She'd yell a lot at him, and complain about it, but she'd stay. I bet he's gonna follow her to Aizu before long, though. And Kenshin…
Kaoru looks so sad, but Kenshin… He's smiling and waving, but even I can tell he doesn't want her to go. Does he know how she feels? She's never said anything but – nah, of course he knows. That's why she's really leaving, I think. He knows, but they both know that as long as Kaoru's there, he couldn't love anyone else. I may never understand exactly what's going on there… This relationship stuff seems so complicated.
I wonder what Tsubame's doing right now…