AN/ God I hope this chapter makes sense. I have been busting hump on it for 6 hrs now...most of which I was just plan stuck...lmao. Anywho, hope you enjoy it, all mistakes are mine, yada, yada, yada
Disclaimer: Its 2:00 in the morning and I still don't own them.
Her bed was calling for her. She was emotionally and physically tired. All she wanted to do was crawl in her bed, pull the covers up over her hand and fade away where none of this crap had happened.
Sookie trudged up her stairs and pulled the blinds down to block out the blaring sunlight. She wanted nothing to intrude on her rest. She unplugged the phone on her bedside table and silenced her cell phone. She then kicked off her jeans and sank into her bed in her tank top and underwear.
She must have laid there for an hour thinking on everything that had happened. She had no clue how to fix the spell. She was lost on how to get Eric back and Pam to her usual annoying self. Amelia had been her only hope but she didn't see her and Ames making up anytime soon. She had said some completely hurtful things. Not to mention, untrue. She had never pushed Eric away.
Sure she didn't always bow down to kiss his ass. Or listen to him when he asked her too but that wasn't pushing him away. That was standing up for herself. Eric respected her independence. He told her that. Of course he hated the fact that she wouldn't let him buy her things without a fight. He couldn't fault her for that though. There were times he was just underhanded. She was able to take care of herself and she didn't need him lording it over her that he had more money then she ever would. Not that she thought Eric looked down on her but she didn't need him to take care of her.
After she had received her inheritance she was quiet capable of getting all of her financial needs taken care of. She had been debating buying a new car and having some renovations done around the house. Just a little sprucing up to make things look nice. She had told Eric and he had gotten a funny look on his face. She had just attributed it to the fact that he had offered to do those things and she had told him no. Maybe he was upset about it but he had never confirmed it one way or another.
Sookie rolled over on her side and pulled his pillow close to her, tucking it in under her chin. His scent was no longer on the pillow, it was like he was slipping away all at once...time to focus on something else she thought.
Sookie had no idea what she was going to do tonight. She knew she wasn't going to Fangtasia. She had planned to ask Amelia to go with her to Merlotte's in an attempt to avoid Eric when he realized she wasn't coming. That was out of the question now that her and Ames had a falling out. She could always go alone. Although the thought of sitting there by herself was unappealing. The truth was she didn't have much of a choice in the matter. If she went to Sam she would endanger him, which meant calling Alcide was also out of the question.
Sam would have no problem standing up to Eric. He hated him. Eric being the sheriff of area five meant very little to Sam. Still Sookie wouldn't chance Sam getting hurt. She knew in a fight with a vampire, he didn't stand a chance. Which lead her to Alcide. There was no love loss between he and Eric but with the were's just coming out, they didn't need one of the most powerful men in the state bucking for them.
No, she was alone in this. She would just have to take things as they came. She would refuse to let Eric in if he showed. There wasn't much danger if she didn't let him inside.
She must have finally dozed off. When she opened her eyes it was to find herself in utter darkness. In a blind panic she looked over at her clock and saw that it was a little after nine. She was suppose to be on the road for Fangtasia by now. Sookie had maybe an hour before Eric realized she wasn't coming and would head her way. She was a bit frightened to say the least.
Sookie jumped out of bed and pulled on her know rumpled jeans from earlier. She had to come up with some kind of plan. What the fuck was she going to do if he showed.
She hurried around her room and gathered every piece of silver jewelry she could find. She was sure she looked like an idiot when she was done. Her every movement made sound. She had silver bangle bracelets lining each arm. Her Gran's large silver cross, her own and one that Tara had bought her covered her neck. She placed rings on both hands and silver dangly earrings in her ears. As Lafayette use to say, "She was blinging baby."
She didn't have a weapon though. If he could manage to get his hands on her, she was screwed. The thought of hurting him was out of the question. Whatever was going on with him now was not his fault. She had done this to him. She just hoped, if he came, the look of her would be enough of a cock block that he would give up and go home. Then she could concentrate on how to break the spell.
If Ames wouldn't help her, she wasn't above telling Octavia or Holly what happened and seeing if the could help. She wasn't too proud to beg for their help. It was worth a bit of humiliation on her part to set things right.
Sookie ran downstairs and made sure that all the lights were off. She knew she couldn't trick him into thinking that she wasn't home but it made her feel better to do something. All Eric had to do was turn on his blood hound nose and he would find her anywhere. She should have just packed a suitcase and skipped down. At least she would have gotten a head start on him. But no she was here. Take that Ames. I didn't run.
She made a pass around the house, checking all the windows and doors. She had revoked his invite but that didn't mean it would stop Eric from getting her if he wanted too. He could just get one of his human buddies to break in and grab her. Oh HOLY SHIT. He could do that. Sookie went over to the hall closet and grabbed the shotgun. It was loaded just like she left it. She just prayed she wouldn't have to use it.
She heard shuffling outside her front door. It was a quarter till ten according to the clock so it couldn't be him. She lifted the shotgun to her shoulder. Someone was there but she was afraid to ask. She stood as still as a statue, straining to hear any movement. She could her the cicadas humming in the night air. Other then that dead silence.
She had a moment where she thought she should just go to her door and swing it open. What better way to see who was creeping at her door then to surprise the bastard. Still she had seen a lot of horror movies that started out that way and those never ended well. No she would play the wait game and see if they were brave enough to come inside.
A tapping on her window, forced her to move. She couldn't tell which one is was coming from, she placed her self against the wall and locked the gun tight against her arm. It sounded like someone was toying with her. She heard giggling. A very throaty, husky giggle. God, its Pam she thought.
She crossed over to the windows and peeked outside. Sure enough Pam was standing out there. Her fingers were tracing little hearts all over Sookie's windows. Sookie took a closer look and the little hearts had S & P 4-ever in them.
"What are you doing Pam?" Sookie levered the gun at Pam. She wasn't going to shoot her but Pam didn't know that. She just hoped Pam didn't want to ruin the beautiful dress she was wearing and chance pissing Sookie off.
"I came over to play. I knew you wouldn't go to Eric tonight. Us women are smarter then that." Pam smiled up at Sookie holding the gun. A smirk so much like her makers graced her lips. "You're not going to shoot me Sookie. Put that thing away and come out to me. Or invite me in. We can lay by the fire and have some fun."
"No. I don't want to shoot you Pam but I will. Now, please leave my property." Why couldn't Pam understand what she wanted was never going to happen. Sookie knew the spell was to blame but damn, getting stalked by Pam wasn't her idea of a good time.
"Oh sugar. You don't know what you want. I however do and thats you." Pam moved closer to the window and pursed her lips at Sookie. "I understand that you are confused by what you are feeling. Dear Abby says sometimes woman are confused about being a lesbian and have to go through getting a dick phase before they can embrace their inner goddess. I can wait Sookie. I have time. I would just like to have a chance to play with your charms before they get old and saggy."
"Dear Abby never said that Pam." Sookie couldn't believe the crap Pam came up with. "And I am not a lesbian. Never was, never will be."
"Well she should have. So please don't kid yourself, Sookie. You are just going through the motions right now. I've been there. Confused, curious." Pam shrugged her shoulders. "I do understand. I mean I had Eric there to awaken my sexual appetite. He is a hard dish to turn down but in the end, I can do more for you."
"Pam what part of no do you not understand!" Sookie banged on the glass in front of Pam's face. "Get this through your head. I AM NOT GAY! There is no way you and I will ever be together. I belong to Eric. I am HIS! Now just incase you didn't understand that, let me be crude and say it to you in a way I am sure you will understand. A whole lot of licking and no sticking is not for me! Got it?"
"So what your saying is, if I can get a "toy", Pam made quotation marks, "just like Eric's, I can have some of that honey-pot?"
"Ugh!" Sookie dropped the curtain and backed away from the window.
"Hey Sookie that's doable. I just wasn't sure how you felt about toys." Pam's sultry laugh came from the window. "Toodles Sookie-Cat. I have some shopping to do."
Sookie banged her head against the wall. Great, just frigging great. She was scared to see what Pam would come up with. That didn't work out as planned, at all. She really need to do something about Pam but she had no idea how to handle her.
She had no time to think further on the situation before she heard gravel crunching up under heavy feet. If she had to wager a guess she would say that a 6'4 Viking had just arrives. It was just after ten. He really meant what he said when he told her ten on the dot. He must have flew over. She was a little shaken to say the least.
The thought of dealing with Pam was scary, an enraged Eric was a frigging nightmare of epic proportions. She thought of being childish and hiding in the the hall closet. Cover her hands over her ears and waiting him out until sunset. Yet she knew she couldn't do that. She couldn't hide from him and she refused to let him make her feel intimidated in her own house. Still she didn't want to face him.
"Sookie!" Eric's bellowing voice came from her front door. "Open this fucking door now!"
Sookie held her breath. She couldn't to ten and prayed that he couldn't hear her heart trying to beat its way out of her chest.
"This is pointless, my dear. I know you are in there, so come and open the door."
Like hell, she thought. He can't get in Sookie. Just remember that. Not unless you invite him.
"I thought you were made of tougher skin, human. I guess I was wrong." Eric sneered right before he kicked her front door in. "I can sense you trembling in there. I hear your heart racing. I bet it tastes very sweet all coated with your fear."
Sookie peaked around the corner and could see his silhouette standing where her front door once stood. It was completely off the hinges and decimated in the hallway. No that son of a bitch didn't. She might be scared to death but no way was she going to let that asshole ruin her house.
Sookie braced the gun against her shoulder again and marched out to confront Eric. "You slimy bastard. How dare you break my door down."
"Ah, is this how my wife greets me? I send you a beautiful dress and ask you to see me tonight at Fangtasia and yet, you deny my request." Eric tutted from the door. He was dressed in his usual Fangtasia gear of black jeans and black wife beater. His hair was pulled back in a band with loose strands brushing the sides of his face. He looked like he was ready to fight or fuck. "Then has the audacity to point a gun at me like it could harm me. What is that saying you humans have? Oh yes, where's the love? For shame Sookie."
"Wife? So now I am your wife you big giant A-hole? Plus you didn't ask, you demanded." Sookie cocked the shotgun. She really wanted to shoot him at the moment. "And please don't try to use slang, it sounds even more stupid coming from your mouth." Sookie pointed the gun at Eric's shoulder. "Why are you here and not chasing after Pam?"
"She is no concern of yours." Sookie didn't like the smirk Eric was sending her way. He was up to something. She knew it to the bottom of her core. "Although, I can tell she was just here."
"About that. Can't you make her stay away from me?" Sookie inched a bit closer. Making sure that she stayed beyond his reach. He might be able to stand in the door frame but he couldn't come any closer and she was right where she needed to be now. She was in perfect range to fire off a shot if she needed to clear his ass out. First thing she was doing tomorrow was calling around and buying some sort of vampire proof doors.
"What will you give me if I do?" Eric placed his hands on the frame and leaned in as far as he could. "Make it good."
"How about I don't blow off your knee caps?" Sookie dropped her aim down to his left knee.
"You are truly funny. All that what do is piss me off." Eric threw back his head and laughed. "You do realize I am a vampire and your gun will not harm me?"
"It'll harm you alright. Especially if I keep shooting until I take your leg with it."
" Vicious, I love it." Eric reached into his pocket and pulled out his phone. He cast Sookie a look that could singe a nuns drawers before he punched in a number. "Pamela. I forbid you from coming to Sookie's house again." Sookie watched while Eric rolled his eyes and held the phone out away from his ear. She wondered what was being said. "I command it. You will not disobey me on this." Eric disconnected the call.
"How do I know you were really talking to Pam?" Sookie didn't trust this Eric for a minute. For all she knew he could be talking to anyone.
"Would you like to see my phone? Of course you will have to come closer to me to get it." There was that frigging smirk again. Ugh something she use to find so sexy was quickly becoming a pain in the ass.
"No way. Toss it here." Sookie shook her head at him. She wasn't that damn dumb.
"And risk you having to put that infernal gun down to catch it? I think not." Eric chuckled. "I guess you will just have to trust me."
"Thats the problem. I use to trust you. My you. This you, I don't know."
"Then we are at a cross roads dear one." Eric simply stated. "Now are you going to invite me in? Offer me a drink or a chair? I am not leaving until we discuss what this is between us."
"I don't think that would be very wise Eric. I will offer you a drink though." Sookie propped the gun against the wall and went to the kitchen to get Eric a blood. She nuked it for the appropriate time and went back to her spot. She tossed it out to him, hoping he would catch it. "If you feel the need to sit, park it on the front stoop. I am afraid thats the only comfort you will be getting from me." Sookie sat down cross legged on the floor, placing the gun across her lap.
Eric looked appalled. She didn't know if it was the fact that she basically just tossed a blood at his head or told him to sit his fine ass on the ground. She really didn't care. If he wanted to talk they were going to do it on her terms.
"Look at me Sookie." She did. She met those beautiful blue eyes with her own. She could get lost in them forever. She felt the desire to let him in but knew she couldn't. Oh but she wanted too. She wanted to toss down the gun and threw herself into his arms. She wanted him so bad...Just say the words Sookie.
"What the fuck? Did you just try to glamour me? You know that doesn't work on me." Sookie felt the probe of his mind poking at hers. The only time that had ever worked on her was when she let him back in Jackson. She had gotten so use to letting her mental shields down with Eric that she had forgotten he had that ability if she let him. "Do you remember nothing of me Eric? I don't think I can do this again with you. It almost killed me last time."
"I feel as if I know you Sookie. Something inside here," Eric sat down outside the doorway and touched a hand to his brow and to his chest where his beating heart should be. "tells me that you belong to me. I get glimpses of you and I."
"What kind of glimpses? Tell me please."
"I see you and I in this house, in a small shower kissing and making love. Beside a fire cuddled under an ugly ass blanket and watching some stupid TV show. I see hear you calling out to me as you were tortured and I feel a rage deep inside me." Eric tossed his head at the memories. "Did these things happen? I feel as if someone has fucked with my head. I do not know what is real or what is fake."
"Oh Eric, those things happened. All of them." Sookie bit back tears. Could he actually be remembering? Maybe it was just a temporary glitch with the spell that muddled his memories. "Do you remember how you felt about me?" Please say yes, Sookie thought.
"I do not know how to answer that. Perhaps if you told me how you felt first." Eric sipped from his bottle and shivered at the taste. "This is terrible. Are you sure you wouldn't rather let me sip from you? If we are in fact blood bonded as you say, you are withholding nourishment from me. Such a bad wife you are Sookie." There was an unmistakable glint to Eric's eyes.
"No on all counts, Eric." There was nothing more that she wanted to do then share her blood with him but not to just feed him. It make be selfish on her part but she wanted Eric to know her before that happened. "What about Pam? Can you explain how you feel about her to me?"
"She is my child. What more is there to explain?" Eric drained the rest of the bottle and rolled it back in to Sookie.
"The fact that you are in love with her! How about the fact that you got hard for her when you haven't so much as touched me in months." Sookie felt like a petulant child that had gotten her favorite toy taken away. But dammit, he was suppose to be hers.
Eric fell into a fit of laughter. She watched him as he literally fell down on the ground, holding his stomach, he was laughing so hard. "Its not funny Eric."
"Oh but my dear it is." Eric laid there and brushed a hand across his eyes, wiping bloody tears of joy away. "You are amusing. I will give Pam that and I take back my early assessment of you, you aren't stupid by any means. You are just naive."
"Huh?" Sookie was very confused. She was sure it showed on her face. She had no idea what in the sam hell he was talking about.
"If I recall correctly, I did say that I loved Pam. I did not how ever say that I was in love with her."
"The hell you didn't!" Sookie was so pissed she threw the empty bottle and shattered it against the wall. "You looked me right in the face and said I love Pam, you I just want to fuck and drain. You called her my love."
"This is true, yes but it is not a proclamation of love." Eric stared at her. His lip was twitching like he was trying his best to hold back another laugh.
"I am confused Eric. Why would you say that and why were you hard?"
"I would say that because I do love Pam. She is my child." Eric sat with his back propped against the doorframe. "As for my erection, all I can say was it was caused by the force of her lust for you. Its rare that she can project that to me but it has happened before."
"Do you expect me to believe that line of horseshit?" Sookie snorted. "Do I look like a dumb bimbo to you?"
"Believe what you will little girl. It is of no consequence to me." Eric leered at her. "As for how you look, I would say down right fuckable but I don't think that would get me in your home any quicker."
Sookie harrumphed. "So explain something to me? Why did you come her last night?"
"Simple. Pam and I were are the club when she got this wild look in her eyes and took off like a woman possessed. I felt a strong urge to find my child and make sure she was safe." Eric shrugged his shoulders then reached back to unbind his hair. "Imagine my surprise when I felt her overwhelming desire for a human girl that looked as if like she wanted to do my Pamela harm."
"I'm not buying this. You are just trying to get in here and mess with my head." Sookie shook her head vigorously. "You said that you didn't even see me until Pam was gone."
"It is very hard to explain the relationship between a maker and his child. Much like the bond between two that are blood bonded. One that is stronger can negate the lesser. Too put it simply, I felt that something unnatural was going on with Pam, you I didn't even sense until she had left." Eric glanced at Sookie to see if she was paying attention. "So tell me Sookie what fractured us so, that the bond of my child called out to me more then ours?"
AN/ Be honest, how many of you went back and read chapter 3?...lol.