Yay for ambiguity!
Blown It
You await the pounding -
being laid back as you take it -
the beating; you deserve it.
You've gone too far this time; you can see
it in his strange silence, stillness.
You want him to move, just do something!
But in his eyes you can see what you've done.
You grab hard, push yourself onto him -
asking for something, begging for more -
he pushes away.
You keep going;
he shouts,
"You've blown it!
You've blown it!"