AN/ My god you people or wonderful. Even when you don't like something you are so damn nice about it that I can't help but smile. Each and every one of your reviews mean so much to me. Thanks for reading this crazy ass story and sticking by it with all its twist and turns. I hope to get some of the humor back in place cause truthfully I am bout angsted out.
Disclaimer: Not Mine. I do not own these charaters although I do own a possessed demon cat named Sookie and she is about as stubborn as Ms Stackhouse.
The car ride back to Bon Temps was silent. She didn't even try to talk to Pam. She had no bond with her but she could feel Pam's rage coming off in spades. The friendship she thought they had once shared was gone. She wiped a tear away at the thought. She had lost it all. Pam, Eric, Amelia. They were all gone from her.
Again she wished she could go back in time and force Eric to talk to her. She wished she could read him, know what it was that he had wanted from her. Then again if wishes were horses, they'd all be eating steaks. That was something Gran use to say to her. It took Sookie a long time to figure out the meaning. Basically, there was no need to wish on something that couldn't be changed. She had done what she had. Eric was right, she wasn't blameless...But it changed nothing.
Pam made a sharp turn into her driveway. She must have been channeling Eric because it had taken her less then 30 minutes to make the hour drive. Sookie heard the gravel fly up and ping against Pam's mini van. She brought the car to a screeching halt, a cloud of dust engulfed them. Pam existed the car, pulling Sookie out faster then she could imagine. "Do us all a favor Sookie and stay away. Eric will still keep you protected, why I haven't a clue. I would leave you here to rot. But thats me."
"Eric left instructions for me? Why bother?" Sookie brushed her hands in front of her face in an attempt to clear some of the dust out of the air. She could barely see, she must have gotten some in her eyes. Thats why she was tearing up so.
"You are no longer welcome at Fangtasia. If something arrises you are to contact me and I will see if it is viable enough to bother Eric with. Your contact with him is to cease this minute." Pam punctuated her comment with a growl. "If I find that you in any way try to go behind my back and screw with him Sookie, I WILL END YOU! And I will enjoy every second of it. Are we clear?"
"I thought you said I should work my ass off to be with him. So now you are banning me from him?' The look Pam threw her way had Sookie shaking in her shoes. Sookie had never wanted to be on the receiving end of Pam's wrath. She was scary on a good day but her anger was nothing to take lightly. "Crystal. Look Pam, I am sorry this happened. All of it. But what you guys did wasn't right either."
"Alls fair in love and war Sookie. Eric was desperate. What was your excuse? Were you desperate to keep him or just fuck him? You have never treated him other then a fuck toy so I guess I answered my own question..." Pam strolled over to the mini van and pulled out a package. She tossed it over to Sookie. "Go ahead and take that Sookie. You might need it. Looks like you finally have what you want. Solitude. I hope you choke on it."
Sookie was able to hold it in long enough for Pam to tear out of the driveway like the hounds of hell were chasing her. She sank to her knees, dropping the package beside her and cried rivers of tears. Her frame trembled with the force of pain that was racking her body. She lost tract of time as she knelt on the ground, rocks digging into her knees, crying her soul out.
Bits and pieces of her life flashed before her eyes. Meeting Bill. Fangtasia for the first time. Eric saving her from Longshadow. Gran's death. Eric helping her with the maenad. Bill leaving her for Lorena. Eric. Jackson, saving Bill. Eric easing her suffering from the trunk, her rape. Eric pulling her out. Learning of Bill's ultimate betrayal. Rhodes...her turning her back on Eric for Quinn..Refusing to talk about what happened when he lost his memory the first time. Reuniting. Blaming him for forcing the bond, which she knew in part he did for her protection. Begging for him through her torture. Feeling his strength through the bond. Tricking De Castro. Eric fighting the bond of his maker so as not to hurt her. Watching his maker die... There had been so much pain.
Through it all, she had not been alone, she realized now. Eric had been there. Had she in fact blamed him as he, Pam and Amelia had said? She honestly didn't know at this point. True she had fought her feelings for Eric but she did love him. He had to know that.
"Miz Sookie. Don't cry so. All will be right as rain." Bubba pulled her from the ground and brushed her tears away. He pulled her against his chest, tucking her head on his shoulders. He began humming a melody. Sookie closed her eyes and let his presence soothe her.
Bubba finished his tune and brushed a kiss on her head. "Go on in the house Miz Sookie. You'll catch your death out here. Mr. Eric will have my head."
"I think he would be relieved." Sookie gave Bubba a squeeze and went to go into her empty house.
"Don't say things like that Miz Sookie. Mr. Eric loves you." Bubba looked more confused the usual. "A man knows what he feels and he ain't never felt nothing but love for ya."
"Maybe Bubba. But not anymore." Sookie opened her door and closed it behind her. "Goodbye Bubba."
"Tomorrow will be a better day. You'll see." Was Bubba's reply as she made her way further into her home.
Sookie didn't bother turning on any lights as she went upstairs. What was the point? She just wanted to fall into her bed and let this all fade away. Too bad it would be dawn soon. She hoped for once that she could sleep like the dead and keep the light at bay.
She kicked her shoes off at her bedroom door and let her clothes fall where they may. She didn't bother with a shower. Just fell into bed and let sleep take her over...
She was laying on a blanket in her backyard, eyes closed loving the feeling of the sun spreading its heat on her body. Her favorite bathing suit graced her tanned skin. The radio was tuned into oldies but goodies. She couldn't keep her toes from tapping along to the beat of Love me do by the Beatles.
Cool drops of water on her stomach, sent her flying up off the blanket. Her eyes looked for the culprit only to discover Eric laying next to where she had been. A teasing gleam in his eyes, a smirk on his beautiful lips. He reached a hand out to her, beckoning for her to return to her previous spot. He was dressed in nothing more then a low slung pair of jeans. His chiseled features almost took her breath away in the sunlight.
Sookie didn't hesitate. She threw herself on top of him and commenced to tickling him. Eric gave a snort of laughter and flipped her, pinning her underneath his tall frame. He bent down and inhaled deeply before placing the gentlest of kisses on her lips. He pulled back from the kiss, his eyes glowing in admiration. "How radiant you are in the sun, my lover."
"So are you Eric. You are beautiful anywhere." Sookie traced his face with her fingertips. Marveling at how the sunlight played against his frame. He looked like he had spun gold in his hair and his eyes were crystal blue in the light. "You take my breath away."
"If only that were true." Eric said with a wistful toss of his head. He rolled to the side pulling Sookie against him. Her back was to his front and his strong arms locked around her. She had never felt so loved and cherished in her life. "Is this how you would see us Sookie? Basking in the sun? Sharing quiet kisses and teasing one another?
"I don't know how to answer that Eric? I always feel comforted in the sun and when you have your arms around me." Sookie burrowed deeper into his embrace. "I want to surrender myself to both of you and bask in your warm. I want the pain to fall away and just leave us in peace."
"I am a vampire Sookie. I have no warmth." Eric chuckled, nuzzling her neck. "And what is life, if not full of pain. Its what you do in those moments that make you who and what you are."
"Not true. There is warmth inside you. I feel it in every touch and caress you place on my body. I see it in your actions towards me." Sookie bit her lip to stave off the pain that was creeping in. This was her dream and she would not let her sorrow touch her here. "I was a fool Eric. Just so much pain. So much of my life turned upside down. Too much loss."
Eric turned her around, he used his thumbs to trace away her tears with no regards to the bloody tracks that fell from his own. "We both were I could walk beside you in daylight, I would. Nothing more do I want then to ease your pain. I want to be the man you need Sookie. But this is me. I offer you all that I am because this fantasy you have in your head can never be."
Sookie leaned up and licked his bloody tears away. "I am sorry I hurt you Eric. I am even more sorry that my pride cost me your love."
"Lover your pride was not the only one involved. Perhaps I should have zipped up my vagina as Pam stated and manned up. I have never used manipulation to that extent with you before." Eric placed a kiss on her palm. "I have no excuse. Other then I was feeling morose."
"I wish I knew how to fix this Eric. I have been wrong for so long. You were right. I did make you pay for everyone's sins. Even my own." Sookie sat up wrapping her arms around her knees, shame forcing her to drop her eyes from him. "I used you Eric. I used your love against you."
"Shhhh lover." Eric pried her face to look up at him.
"Pam was right. I don't deserve you." Sookie felt as if the weight of the world had been placed on her shoulders at those words. She had not done Eric justice. Could she really blame him for tricking her when she had fought her love for him at every turn.
"No more of that Sookie." Eric pulled her back down, leaning over he smoothed her hair back from her face. "Let me love you my beautiful Sookie." Eric used his thump and parted her lips. "Let me in."
Sookie darted her tongue out and traced the tip of his thumb. Eric groaned and leaned down to kiss her. There was no hurry in his kiss. He probed her mouth at his leisure. Making sure that he touched every crevice of her trembling lips. She pulled him closer against her. Welcoming his weight as he rolled over onto her.
She traced her fingers over the grooves in his back. Trailing her hands down until they reached his glorious ass. She squeezed him and moaned against his mouth as he ground into her.
Their clothes seemed to melt away, leaving Eric poised at her entrance. Sookie reached down to guide him home. When her hand wrapped around him, she knew something was wrong. She glanced up and saw that Bill had replaced Eric. He was hanging over her panting. She could feel his cock tremble in her hand, begging to be let in.
"Noooooo..." Sookie screamed scrambling to get away. Bill grasped her ankle and pulled her back up under him.
"You were mine first Sookie. You will always be mine." The look on his face sent her into a blind panic. He looked possessed by blood lust. Sookie slammed her hands into his face knocking him away. She took off in a dead run, hearing his maniacal laughter behind her. She ran into a solid wall of naked flesh, blocking her from her retreat. She looked up to see Victor Manning leering down at her.
"Ms Stackhouse. How nice of you to join me." Victor wiggled his eyebrows at her. "Nice tits." He reached down to tweak one and Sookie backed away.
"Stay away from me. Eric will kill you." Sookie tripped over a limb and fell crashing to the ground. Bill and Victor were on her in an instant. She could feel her flesh being torn as they sank their fangs into her. Ripping her skin to ribbons. "Ericcccccccccc!"
The bright summer sun disappeared into night. Thunder was echoing in the distance as she struggled to get free. Somewhere in the back of her mind she knew she was dreaming but couldn't wake from this nightmare.
Victor growled at her throat, tearing out a chunk. Blood fell in rivulets from his fanged lips. It splattered across her face as he snarled at her. "Eric's not coming sweetness."
"Eric will always come for me." Sookie yelled at the top of her lungs. She knew that in her heart. He would never forsaken her as she had him.
"Kill the bitch Victor." Pam was leaning against her house dressed to the nines in some designer dress. Her hand was idly tracing up and down Quinn's chest. "Please put her out of our misery."
"Damn babe. Whatcha doing out here naked?" Quinn pursued her body
smiling at the blood that was threatening to choke her. "Damn. Good thing you are, that'll leave a stain."
"Help me."
"No." Quinn and Pam knelt down beside her and placed their hands in her blood. They looked at each other and started licking the blood away. Their laughter followed closely in. "You know me Sookie. I never put you first."
"All alone Sookie. You have no friends, no lover, no Gran to soothe away your pain." Amelia placed Sookie's head in her lap brushing the bloody tendrils away. She made a face full of disgust then let her once best friends head fall back to the ground. She smiled at Victor and kissed his bloody lips as he loomed over Sookie. "Fiddly dee. Whatever shall you do now Ms Scarlet?"
"I wont give up. With backstabbing bitches like you who needs enemy's?" Sookie felt weak from the blood loss. She willed herself to focus. This is just a dream Sooks. No need to panic. Just wake up. God please let me wake up.
"Tut tut Sookie. The only enemy here is Victor...and maybe Bill." Amelia pointed a hand in Bills direction who was now dressed in full Civil War regalia. "Sorry Bill."
"No problem Ms. Broadway." Bill tipped his hat at her. "Its quiet possibly true." He flashed his fangs back at Sookie.
No. Her mind screamed. She had made peace with Bill. He was not the enemy. He had made amends for what he had done. She had forgiven him. He was at peace now with Judith.
"None of this is real." Sookie screamed. She forced her eyes closed praying with all her might that when she opened them again, all the horror that was before her would be gone.
She opened her eyes to find herself outside of Fangtasia wearing the dress from her very first encounter there. Sookie checked her body for marks but didn't see fang marks anywhere.
"Sookie so nice to see you." Pam blew air kisses at her then pulled the black rope that blocked the entrance back. "Go on in. He is expecting you."
Sookie felt a spot light hit her. She shielded her eyes. It was so bright it felt like it would blind her. She froze as a crowed appeared around her shouting her name and bowing at her feet.
"Oh Sookie. You forgot your crown, silly." Pam placed a bejeweled crown dripping with rubies and diamonds on her head.
"And here she is ladies and gentleman. Mistress Sookie Stackhouse, telepath extraordinaire." Felipe De Castro was at the DJ booth announcing her arrival. "Lets watch as she does the walk of shame."
Lights lit a pathway to Eric's throne. Sookie held her head up high and made her way to him. He was sitting in his chair dressed in black leather pants and vest. His hair was loose and falling free around his face. He looked her over from head to toe. Seeming to linger over her pushed up breast. "Eric what is going on here?"
Eric held a hand up to silence her. He stood from his throne and walked the last few feet to her. She had to crane her neck up to see him. He smiled at her and bent his head down to kiss each one of her cheeks. He pulled away taking the crown with him. With a dismissive wave of his hands he motioned for Pam to take her away.
"Wait." Sookie struggled against Pam's grasp.
"Yes my former lover?" Eric asked her. His gaze meeting her startled face.
"Eric lets talk about this." Sookie pulled loose from Pam and ran over to Eric. Not caring that the crowd around her was laughing. She fell to her knees and held her hands out to him. "Please."
Eric threw back his head and laughed. "You are begging now? Oh this is rich. Sookie Stackhouse I herby divorce you and ban you from Area 5. Take yourself from my sight."
Eric didn't cast her another glance as he walked over to one of the most beautiful woman Sookie had ever scene and placed the crown on her head. He pulled her into his arms, bending her back and laid the mother of all kisses on her. "No! Thats my crown. You are mine."
"Correction. I was yours now I am nothing to you. I disavow you." Eric returned to pawing his new flame. Sookie wanted to rip her eyes out. "All of this was yours for the taking. You wanted none of the love or adoration that being with me earned you. So I remove it."
"But I love you Eric. We love one another." Sookie scrambled over to him, trying to pull him away from the goddess he was all over like white on rice.
"Take her away De Castro. I grow bored of her existence." Sookie saw Felipe give a fist pump in the air shouting out a loud Yes. He pushed people out of the way, in his pursuit of Sookie.
"Eric, please. God Eric. I love you. I am so sorry." Felipe reached Sookie and tossed her over his shoulder in a fireman's hold. He smacked her over the ass and let out a loud victory yell.
"I win. I win, I win, I win." He sing sang.
"Eric!" Sookie looked up in time to see Eric throw his whore over his shoulder much like Felipe had done her and kick the employee entrance door open with the foot of his boot. "Noooo! We need one another."
Eric turned around careful not to injure his precious cargo. He looked at Sookie like he found her slightly lacking. "For once it will be nice Sookie to be with someone who isn't ashamed of me." His hand caressed his lovers ass. "Too bad that wasn't you but dems the breaks. See ya."
He was gone. Just like that. "Eric come back. Please come back. I love you so much. Please don't leave me. Please!"
Sookie woke up with tears clouding her view. She felt like she couldn't breathe as the sobs continued to rack her body. Her dream floated around her. Much of it not making sense. The one thing that did, was Eric walking away from her.
I can't let that happen, Sookie thought. She and Eric could get through this. She just had to see him, then everything would be okay. She pulled her still tired body from the bed. She would not rest until she made this right. Sookie Stackhouse was done running. Yes she could admit that now. But no more. Watch out Eric, the new and improved me is coming for you and when I get you back in my arms, I am never letting you go.
She gave no thought to Pam's warning about going to Fangtasia. She wouldn't let Eric's child stop her. She would just have to cross that bridge when she came across it. As a matter of fact she had a lot of bridges to cross.
Sookie picked up her cell phone and punched in a number. The call was answered after the second ring. She didn't give Amelia a chance to cuss her out. "Ames I am so sorry and you were right. I haven't been the smartest cookie in the cookie jar lately and I am ready to change that. We have a lot to work through girlfriend but right now, I really just need you."
"I should tell you to just fuck off after the things you said to me but I am guessing from the phone call I got last night from Eric that the ruse is up?" Amelia snorted over the phone line. "How bad are you going to kick my ass if I head over there?"
"I'll behave. I promise." Sookie reassured her. She was mad with Amelia but she was sure in Ames' mind her reasoning was justified. She just really needed a friend right now.
"Good cause I am already at your door and I forgot my key." Amelia laughed.
Sookie rushed down the stairs and flung the door open. Amelia was standing there with her phone still grasped in her hands. Sookie rushed forward and threw her hands around Amelia's neck. "I'm sorry Ames that I have been such a stupid bitch."
"So are we finally seeing Sookie?" Amelia hugged her friend back and guided them into the kitchen. She pulled out a chair for Sookie and turned to start a pot of coffee. "You look like shit by the way?"
"Yes Ames, I finally see. I am trying to let go of the fact that I was manipulated once again by people I love." Sookie held up her hand at Amelia when she started to speak. "Let me finish." At Amelia's nod, Sookie continued. "You were right. I was pushing him away. Even though I didn't realize it. I was treating him like shit and just expecting him to take it. That was wrong of me. I just hope he can forgive me as I have chosen to forgive him. What he did was wrong but if I can forgive Bill for the crap he pulled, I can forgive Eric. I never loved Bill as much as I do him. He's my life Amelia and I just hate that it took loosing him to make me see that."
"What about us?" Amelia pinched her lip between her teeth gazing hopefully up at Sookie. "I'm I forgiven too?"
"Ames, I am upset that you did it but I am at fault too. I don't know your reasons and right now I don't want to." Sookie took the cup of coffee that Amelia handed her and took a sip. "I am sure it wasn't done with pain and suffering in mind."
"It so wasn't. Honestly, I never thought you would go through with it." Amelia shrugged her shoulders and took a seat at the table, stirring a load of sugar and cream into her coffee. "I thought you would just storm into Fangtasia and demand to know what the fuck was going on. Who knew?"
"I guess talking to me was out of the question? You had to know that Eric was feeling at a loss. Why not tell me?" Seeing as how Amelia wasn't going to drop it, might as well poke that can of worms, Sookie thought.
"Well Sookie, you aren't that easy to talk to when it comes to feelings. You tend to claim up and shut down. I didn't think you would talk to me about it and I sure as shit didn't think you would take me seriously."
" I see your point." Sookie got up to refill her cup and pulled out a loaf of bread and butter from the refrigerator. She mad her and Ames a butter sandwich and sat back down with her treat in hand. She hadn't eaten since Eric had fed her yesterday. She was hungry but didn't have the strength to cook at the moment. "Still wish you would have tried though. Or him."
"We can't go back Sookie only move forward." Amelia bit into her sandwich making a disgusting face before she spit it out in a napkin. "how can you eat this shit?"
"Hey don't go bashing on my food Ames." Sookie laughed. "You can always whip us something up if you'd like?"
"I think I will." Amelia got up to rummage through the fridge. She pulled out the makings for a Denver omelette and started chopping up the bell pepper and onions. "So you don't hate me?"
"No Amelia. I don't hate you." Sookie placed a hand over her grumbling stomach as the smell of the ingredients touched her nose. "Hurry up that already smells good."
"Yes your majesty." Amelia whipped the eggs together and poured them into the preheated pan. "I am really glad you don't hate me cause I have something else to tell you."
"Go for it. I don't think anything else will shock me." Sookie snaked her hand over and stole a piece of ham. She popped it into her mouth and savored every chew. God that was good.
"Imkindoffuckingjason." Amelia rushed over and beat on Sookie's back as she seemed to be choking on her stolen piece of ham. A few good whacks and the meat dislodged and flew across the kitchen. "Oh shit!"
Sookie wiped the tears from her eyes and the spit from her lips. "Seems I was wrong." She gasped out.
Amelia poured her a glass of water and silently prayed that she wouldn't be wearing it in her face. "Here Sookie. Drink."
Sookie took the glass and drained every last drop. It was like mana from heaven when it touched her dry throat. "Any other surprises for me? Your not pregnant or you?"
"God no. On both counts." Amelia turned back to the know too brown omelette and flipped it onto a plate.
"Good. Your eating the burnt one by the way." Sookie sat back down in her chair and leaned her head back, gazing at the ceiling. Good god. Amelia and Jason. Who'd a thunk it? Then again, Ames had a love of cats and Jason did kind of sorta turn into one at least once a month.
"No problem. I like them brown and toasty." Amelia scooped up a perfectly golden one and placed it in front of Sookie. "Do you want to know how or why?"
"Not really." Sookie took her first bite and moaned at the flavor. Amelia was one hell of a cook when she wanted to be. "Yummy."
"I didn't steal him away from Michelle if you were curious." Amelia sat across from Sookie and crunched into her omelette. "They were already done and over. Jas didn't tell you cause he knew that you liked her."
"Its fine Ames. You and Jas kind of make sense in a weird sort of way." Sookie sipped her now cold coffee and went for a refill for her and Amelia. "I just wish I would have known sooner but I am happy for you."
"Good. Because I think I love his dumb ass. I haven't felt this way since Trey." Amelia wiped her mouth on a napkin. "We should have told you sooner but I really wasn't sure where we were headed."
"And now you know?" Sookie asked feeling a little bit envious and knowing that she didn't have the right.
"And now I know." Amelia smiled. "So whats the game plan? How are we going to get that man of yours back?"
"I am going to do what I should have done from the beginning. I am going to proclaim my love for him for all to see and I am not going to let him go without a fight."
"Rah, Rah Sookie." Amelia shook her hands in the air with her imaginary pom poms. "Go Sookie go. You can do it and all that junk."
"Thanks for the vote of confidence Ames." Sookie snorted at her friends antics. "Ames for the love of god, not the booty dance."
"Come on Sookie, shake it with me. This is gonna be our victory dance. Can I get a woot woot for Sookie finally seeing the light?"
Sookie stood up and did a booty pop. "woot woot. There are you happy Amelia? I promise if that's what it takes to get Eric back I will shake my ass all over Lousiana."
"I would pay to see that." Amelia giggled. "Now honey lets set this plan in motion."
"Yup. I say its time to go a Viking." Sookie smiled for the first time in a while. It was time to let go of the pain and move forward. It was time for her to claim her vampire and be claimed in the process. She wasn't going to hide anymore. She would give him everything she had left for the rest of her life and never make him doubt again the love she had for him. "Watch out Eric, cause here I come."
AN/ I hope the dream sequence made sense. Truthfully it really shouldn't as dreams rarely do...lmao.
Hope to have an update by Tuesday. Mondays are just bad for me.