Chapter 9 - Regret

I squirmed beneath an arm around me and slowly opened my eyes.

"Good morning, koi."

"What the hell?" I murmured, "Today you're using Japanese? What's it going to be tomorrow? Italian?"

"Someone's not a morning person." He grinned, flopping on top of me. I sighed, looking up at him.

"Mar…" I whispered.

"What?" he asked, leaning in closer to me.

"Get off!" I groaned with a laugh before miraculously pushing him away and sitting up on my bed, running my fingers through my hair. He laughed himself, before propping himself up on his elbow. I looked over at him with a sigh, "What?" I whispered softly.

"Oh, nothing." He shook his head, before sitting up and sitting down beside me, looking over into the mirror and trying to get his hair fixed. I laughed softly, before bitterly turning away and pulling my knees up and hugging them.

"Vexen?" he moved closer to me. "You okay?"

I moved away from him and he frowned.

"Zexion Ienzo Carper died in front of my house yesterday, Marluxia. What do you think is wrong?"

He looked down, frowning. "I'm sorry."

I shook my head. "It's nothing. You're going to get in trouble back at your house, you know."

He huffed, "Don't care. She can't do anything to me."

"What makes you so sure?"

He huffed, "Up til I was 13 I was mom's boy. She gave me EVERYTHING. And probably that's the reasons he doesn't want me hanging around you. She had the same problem with Larxene."

"Larxene was a problem?" I raised my eyebrows.

He nodded. "A big one."

I raised my eyebrows even further. "Such a sweet girl like Larxene? Naw.."

He rolled his eyes. "She's poor."

I looked down, "You should head back home."

He sighed and nodded. "If you had any idea how much I truly didn't want to..."

I groaned. "Just go," I muttered, pushing him out of my room and out of my house. He put his head in the door.

"Don't I get a kiss?"

I rolled my eyes and kissed him softly. He kissed back, pulling on me. I was getting carried away. Quickly, I pushed him out of my apartment and locked it...I couldn't..

I felt different with Marluxia around. I couldn't hide that, but me and him – it would never work out. I felt it with every fiber of my body.

He wasn't serious and I didn't need him. I didn't want him. I assured myself of that. It didn't matter that he was my first kiss, didn't matter that he called me beautiful..

My phone rang. I took it out.

"Hello?"
"Vexen, are you okay? I heard the news." Xigbar said, I glared at the space.

"You bastard! You have no idea what you got me into! Idiot! How could you? And Xaldin!"

"Yeah man, I know! You're overreacting!"

"No I'm not Xigbar! It's your fault! You ruined it!"

"Wait a second..ruined what?"

"My relationship with Marluxia Gustaeu!"

"Woa dude! Cool your jets! What happened?"

I began drawing patterns on the table with my finger.

"We kinda...kissed...maybe..." I murmured.

And I could hear a fangirl squeal at the other end.

"Vexen, seriously! Oh my God congratulations!"

"Congratu-fucking-lations! What are you, thinking? IT'S HORRIBLE!"

"How's it horrible? Did he turn out to be a bad kisser?"

"No, damnit, he's great!"

"Then what's the problem?"

"No one can love me! He told me I'm beautiful!"

"The first person to say it straight to your face.."

"Stop joking around Xigbar...I think I'll just tell him the truth."

"Which truth?" he sounded confused.

"That I don't like him, that he isn't right and it's too soon!"

"What, are you nuts?" Xigbar hissed at me.

"No, I'm not!"

"You love him, don't you?"

"NO! I hate him! The conversation is OVER!" I quickly hung up on him and wiped my eyes. I didn't know what I was going to do..This wasn't right.

My phone vibrated in my hand. There were tree texts.

Xigbar W.: "You so love him."

Marluxia G: "Miss you already."

And.. I froze...

Zexion C.: "I got you bastards."

It was sent today. That's when I remembered that his phone wasn't with him.

I was in some deep shit.