Chapter Nine: ".I Know That..I'm Lost Without Her"

For three days have went by. Kagome had not said a word to anyone. Nor did Sesshomaru. They have both been in a state of sadness, and despair. They both longed for one other, but she denied the feelings, and he also refused to act upon it. He did not want to get rejected by her again. He loved her more than anything in this world, but he refused to go to her. He knew that this was the end, of them. He also knew it was because of him, and his need to work. As Sesshomaru sat at the edged of his bed. His glazed went from starting off into nothingness to looking around his bedroom. It looked untouched. Which the truth to be told it was. He had not step a single foot into that room since he, and Kagome broken up.

Putting his face into his hands. He began to cry. He loved her, and he couldn't be with her. The worst thing was he found out he could have been a father. Not with another woman, but his Kagome. It would be their child. In truth he always wanted a family with her. It's just the fear of her turning out to be like all the others, but oh how sadly mistaken was he. She wasn't, and he was now lost without her.

He then began to imagination what the child would look like. If it had been born. It was silly, but he began to think if he had been a boy. It would look so much like Kagome, and him, and a girl it would be like her mother. A true beauty. He would have a hard time keeping the boys off his little girl. A sharp pain hit him then. It hurt.

"Sesshomaru..." the voice called out to him. Yet again.

"What?" he answered back. Thinking he was going insane. He was now hearing voices.

"Stop it go to her!" It told him, again.

"No... She doesn't want me" he said sadly.

"Maru... please... go to her once more..." It told him in a sad voice. Like it was going to cry.

"No, I will not. She told me.. She does not want to give "us" another shoot.. So, leave me alone..." he snapped back at the voice.

"Sesshomaru! Please... don't lose her.. She is your soul mate! You only get one chance to be with them, and this is your chance Sesshomaru. Go to her. Show her that you want her, and won't take no for answer." it snapped at him. In a motherly type way.

"I will not" he snarled at the voice.

"You will!" it said.

"You don't know me, and how dear you tell me what to do! I did I went to her. I told her how I felt, and she shoot me down. She doesn't want me!...but I want her.." he said the last part sadly.

"Then tell her.."

"I did! Leave me the fuck alone!" he snarled out, as he threw a glass vase at the wall. When it smashed he realized it knocked over a picture frame. Not really thinking. He picked it up, and flipped it over. It was a picture of Kagome, and him. It was two years ago around Christmas time, and she was wearing a black turtleneck shirt, and red scarf wrapped around her neck. She was smiling in his arms, and he wore a black suite with a red tie. Clearly just getting out of work. He did not smile no emotions was upon his face.

Throwing it down on the red carpet floor. He remember auguring with Kagome about taking the picture, and about putting it in his bedroom. "I'm sorry, Kagome." he whispered, into the unforgiving night. As he laid down on his bed. He remember the nights when Kagome would spent the night. As his finger traced the other side of the bed. Which was her side.

"Sesshomaru.." Trilled off a twenty-three-year-old Kagome. She was laying down upon his bed naked as a new born.

"..." He didn't say anything, but gave her a look. To make her speak.

"We've been dating for almost a year now... ummm.. I need to ask you this.." She said, but then stopped, and still he didn't say a word, but another look made her confess. "I we haven't been dating for.. Long...but I just wanted to say...umm.. I love you, Sesshomaru..." She told him she loved him, and he just laid there. With not words nothing.

Remembering that made him what to yell, and kick himself. He couldn't believe that he didn't say anything. She gave herself to him. Her virginity, and he didn't say anything. He couldn't understand it. "Oh god.." he said. "Kagome, I'm so. So. So. Very sorry..." He knew he wasn't acting like himself, but at this point he didn't care.

"I took her innocence.. I hurt her. I killed our child.. I do not deserve her." He said to himself.

"Sesshomaru! Knock it off! Yes, you've done hurtful things, but some have done worse! Now get your act together, and go to her!" The voice yelled again.

"I hurt her damn you!!... I caused her pain.. I made her lose my child "OUR" child... I can not.. She deserves someone better..." he said, not wanting to admit it.

"Sesshomaru... I know she loves you... please got to her." It told him again.

"I know that I'm lost without her.." he trilled off, but then heard the phone ring. He ran to it, and picked it up. "Hello?" he answered.

"Sesshomaru..." It was not his Kagome. It was her friend Sango. He knew that she hated him with all her passion, but something in her voice made Sesshomaru heart ache with pain.

"Yes..." he said, with worry in his voice.

"Kagome..she's.. Umm.. I don't know why i'm telling you this, but she's in the hospital..She was in a car crash... Some drunk driver hit her... I'm not sure if she's gonna make it.." She said in tear. Sesshomaru nearly then dropped the phone.

"Kagome... no..." he said out loud in a whisper. He then asked, "What hospital is she in?" he asked, in a demanding voice. After telling him where to go. Sesshomaru then drove as fast as he could go. With no surprise no copes has seen him.

"Kagome... please... hang on!... I don't wanna lose you!.." he said out loud.

(A/n sry to leave off like this... Is Kaggy gonna survive? U never know with me)