A/N: I apologize for updating so long. I've been sidetracked with this anime I was watching. I just couldn't get myself to write this until I've finished watching all the episodes. It seems like I've lost that fluffy feeling of Andy and Sam. I just miss watching the show for real even though I keep watching RB episodes all over again. I seriously cannot wait for season 2!
The cemetery, I googled it, the bell tower too although the description of the place was totally made up. I just found one picture which wasn't very much anyway but it said it was a historical site and the like, very beautiful.
Anyway, I hope you enjoy this chapter and even if you don't just drop me a review to tell me your thoughts. It would be very much appreciated.
I DO NOT OWN ROOKIE BLUE
Andy called the precinct and gave in some lame excuse of having the flu and wouldn't be able to come in for work today. She ended the call and used her phone to search for the address online. When she found what she was looking for, she entered the data on Traci's GPS and started to drive off.
She encountered mild traffic on the way since most people were already headed for work. It was a two hour drive outside Toronto to reach her destination. Two hours to think about what she was going to say to him when she finds him—if she finds him.
It was out of impulse that she jumped in the car unprepared, no plan whatsoever, to go chase the man she finally realized she loves. And she wasn't even sure if he was there. But something in her gut told her that he was and if there's one thing she learned from Sam after being partnered with him for several months was to always trust her gut. And her gut was shouting at her, telling her he was definitely there.
Something funny was going on in her tummy. It was probably her gut telling her to hurry or butterflies wanting to break free and it was making her nervous. She was feeling all sorts of emotions at the same time. She was excited to see Sam, happy that he was the one, angry that she made a lot of bad choices, anxious of how he'd react and scared of how things would end up.
Her thoughts were going on overdrive, playing every possible scenario. She could hear the steady hum of the engine and the noises coming from the traffic, but her thoughts were louder. She turned on the radio to try and distract herself, but turned it off almost instantly.
It was a silent drive with only the GPS programmed voice informing her that it was a mile to her destination. She adjusted her speed to the town's speed limit and looked around. It was beautiful, but she was unfamiliar with the place. This was the first time she had come here. She wished she could've come here on different circumstances to enjoy its peacefulness, imagining Sam coming here for the same purpose. The automated voice told her that she had reached her destination.
Andy had stopped in front of the gate of Victoria Lawn Cemetery.
'This is it. Sam could be here beyond this gate or he may not be.'
She drove in slowly drinking in her surroundings. It was calm and it looked beautiful. The leaves were golden brown in color, ready to fall from their branches in preparation for winter. Andy imagined how beautiful this place must be in the spring time. Tall trees outlined the cemetery and she could picture where the flowers would bloom. Yes, it was a beautiful place, but a sad one at that as white gravestones lined the still green grass.
Andy continued to drive along the cemented path until she found a familiar silver truck. She parked behind it and looked around for Sam. She didn't see him anywhere so she continued to walk further, passing one gravestone at a time. She looked ahead, seeing the Carillon bell tower in the distance and that was when she noticed him.
She walked toward them, his back to her. They were at Sarah's gravestone. She could see Liv playing with her toys on a blue blanket spread on the grass as Sam got some food from the backpack he had with him. He poured some of Liv's cereal on his hand and offered her some. She used her tiny little fingers to pick one piece at a time. Andy smiled. She missed seeing them like this.
"Sam…" She uttered his name softly and the wind carried it away. She thought he hadn't heard her, but then he turned around. He looked surprised as he stood up and walked back to her then his face hardened a bit. He was hurt and probably angry and Andy knew it was her fault.
"McNally. What are you doing here?" Sam said, his tone a bit harsh.
She opened her mouth to speak, but no words seem to come out. 'This is no time to chicken out, Andy. Just tell him already.'
"You know what? Don't answer that. You keep pushing me away because you didn't want to get hurt, but you're not the only one, Andy…" He paused and softened his features.
"I get hurt too." At his words, Andy could feel tears forming in her eyes, but fought hard to keep them from falling.
"Why don't you just go back to that detective boyfriend of yours? Spare us both the heartache."
Sam was pushing her away and she was to blame for that. She had done the same thing just a couple of days ago. She was afraid to get hurt, but seeing Sam like this hurt her too. She remembered Sam's words in the locker room.
'Why are you fighting so hard to push me away? You know I have feelings for you…I may have not been vocal about it, but I show you, make you feel it every day.'
She did feel his love. All the little things he had done for her was proof of that. And the fact that he was always on her side said a lot of things.
Sam was being stubborn as usual. All she had to do was break that stubbornness away to get to him.
"Sam. Shut up."
Andy finally spoke up and in a quick step moved closer to Sam and covered his lips with hers.
Sam heard Andy's voice and thought he was imagining it. He felt a presence behind him and looked back to see Andy in the flesh standing just right there. He was surprised to see her beautiful face and all he wanted to do was go to her and hold her in a tight embrace just as they had gotten used to when she was at his apartment.
"McNally. What are you doing here?" He fought back the urge to hug her. She made her choice and now he had to make his. He was trying to push her away even though it was hard on him. His heart was broken. And if it were some other girl, he'd just laugh it off. But Andy was different. She was the only girl who had gotten to him like this. His words dripped with sarcasm, hoping that she would just get the picture and leave him be.
'Why did she have to drive all the way out here and continue torturing me like this?'
"I get hurt too." He noticed that Andy was trying not to let those tears fall. He knew that he'd let his guard down is he saw her crying. But she didn't cry. Instead she told him off.
"Sam. Shut up."
It wasn't exactly what he was expecting. Especially when she moved closer to him and felt her soft lips. It took him a couple of seconds to understand what was happening then he just let go and surrendered to her. Suddenly all the tension from the previous days just flew away, leaving him in a sense of calm.
The kiss was slow and sensual, full of emotions and unspoken feelings. She showed him just how she felt with that kiss and she took her time doing it. Sam felt her arms circle his neck as he placed his hands on her hips.
Andy broke off the kiss when she felt something on her leg. She looked down and saw Liv raising both her arms, a sign that she wanted to be picked up while shouting her one-syllable sounds. Liv was excited to see Andy and Sam knew she just missed being with the person she has gotten used to as her mother. Andy gave her a hug and a kiss on the cheek. Sam felt mushy inside, seeing the scene in front of him.
'Nothing could get any better than this.' He thought, but he was wrong.
"Sam…" He turned to look at Andy's now serious face.
"I love you too. I'm sure this time." She gave him a shy smile and Sam gave back a dimpled smile that made Andy's heart skip a beat. He took Andy and Liv in a tight embrace. This was his family now and he wasn't going to let anything happen to it.
"I love you, Andy."
Andy loved the feeling of his strong arms around her. Everything was going to be alright now.
"Dada takata…" Liv started "talking" again. Andy's eyes grew wide when she heard Liv.
"Did she just say…?" Sam gave her that smile she loved so much as he moved his head up and down.
"When did that happen?"
"Last night."
"I wish I was there to see it."
"Don't worry. You'll be there for everything else…" He gave her a cocky grin.
"You'll just have to stick around though, McNally. Are you up for it?"
"I'm not going anywhere, Swarek."
"Dada dada" Liv stretched her arms to Sam. He took her from Andy and brought her back to the blanket.
"Care to join us for some peanut butter and jelly?"
"I'd love to. Let me just get something from the car. I have something for you."
She ran off to the direction of the car. Sam saw her carrying a thin box the size of a regular bond paper. She sat down beside Sam on the blanket and handed him the package.
"What's this?"
"I got that made a couple of weeks ago for Liv's birthday. But it seemed appropriate to give it to you now."
Sam opened the box and saw a metal art frame with three pictures in it. One was a picture of Sam and Liv Andy had taken when Liv made her first steps. Another was of Andy putting Liv to sleep with the rocking chair. Sam had snapped that picture using Andy's phone. And the last picture and the biggest of the three was a picture of the three of them then last time they went out together.
"This is beautiful, Andy. This will go well in Liv's room." Andy just smiled in response and slowly intertwined her hands with his.
It was a beautiful cloudy day and they had stayed a little while longer beside Sarah's grave. Sam and Andy talked about everything while Liv continued to play with her toys and occasionally sipped juice from her sippy cup. After a while, both Andy and Sam were on their backs and looking to the sky, still holding hands. Liv had fallen asleep on Sam's chest.
"Did I ever tell you how much I love you?" Sam turned his head to the side to face Andy. She smiled looking back at him.
"You did…a couple of times in the past hour. But I would never get tired of hearing it."
Andy moved closer to Sam and positioned herself on her elbows and lowered her head to kiss Sam.
"I love you, Sam."
"I love you too, McNally."
A/N: Again, I apologize for taking me so long to update. I hope you enjoyed this last chapter. Hopefully I'll be able to upload the epilogue by this week. So please don't forget to review so I'd be inspired to write it. Like I said, reviews make me happy and when I'm happy the story gets done sooner.
Thank you to everybody who constantly review. Especially those who do chapter after chapter. It means a lot to me ^_^
BTW, I work with infants and toddlers and I wanted Liv to be like the babies I work with, but I really had a hard time with her "dialogue" since I couldn't really spell the sounds they were making. And it seemed silly if I spelled out the sounds there. Anyway, I hope that you guys get to imagine Liv the way I see my under 1 yr old kids. They are totally adorable and one of the inspirations I had in writing this.
Please don't forget to review…thanks!
Xoxo stargazergirl91
