Title: Collecting the Stars

Genre: Romance/Drama

Rating: M

Disclaimer: I no own

Note: This fic is AU, has slight OOC, and contains Yaoi. You have been warned.

Summary: [AU. Yaoi] – I'm Roxas, 16 and recently forced to live with my estranged father, whom I've never met. I'm stuck in a town where all they do is drugs, sex, and wild parties. And the only person who helps me keep what little sanity I have left is an eccentric red head who sneaks in through my window.

Thank You Le Tenn for being my beta!

"Blah" means talking

"Blah" means phone conversations

Blah means thoughts

Chapter 4: Don't Trust Me

Black dress with the tights underneath
I've got the breath of a last cigarette on my teeth
And she's an actress but she ain't got no need
She's got money from her parents in a trust fund back east

T-t-tongues always pressed to your cheeks
While my tongue is on the inside of some other girl's teeth
You tell your boyfriend, if he says he's got beef
That I'm a vegetarian and I ain't fucking scared of him

She wants to touch me, woo ooh
She wants to love me, woo ooh
She'll never leave me woo ooh, woo ooh, ooh ooh
Don't trust a ho, never trust a ho
Won't trust a ho 'cause a ho won't trust me

Cloud was surprised to see Sora still there the next morning. I would've been surprised too if I were him. My twin went up to our father and gave him a big hug. This only surprised Cloud even more and he looked uncomfortably awkward, unsure how to react.

"We're going into town today again. We might not make it back until really late, but we have our cells with us this time," Sora told him while pulling away, "we'll call you if we're going to be sleeping anywhere else."

Cloud blinked a few times and nodded.

Sora grinned and took my arm, "come one Rox, let's go. I want to visit Naminé, she was pretty cool. You know, in a serial killer way."

I exchanged a look with Cloud, something between us had shifted, and something clicked into place. We weren't exactly comfortable around each other, not quite, but we were no longer strangers sharing a house. He was our father, and we were his sons.

It was all Naminé's idea.

There was a concert in Radiant Garden that night; Axel's band was the opening act. I didn't even know that Axel had a band, but it should have been obvious, he seemed the type. I wanted to know what Axel did in his band, hell; I just wanted to know more about Axel.

"Everyone is going," Naminé reasoned, "I've got extra tickets since Marluxia and Larxene can't make it."

Marluxia, the creepy guy who worked in Aeris' flower shop. I vaguely remembered Larxene from the parties; she was the crazy blonde chick who enjoyed stripping down to her undies whenever she was too high. Personally, I always thought she came off as an uber- bitch.

"We'll go!" Sora answered, giving me a knowing look. I wanted to wipe the smirk off of his face. Was that how I looked whenever I smirked? If so then I looked like a smug ass-hat. "How do we dress? Does Axel's band play a specific genre?"

"You're such a fucking girl, Sora," I rolled my eyes.

Naminé giggled, "They play punk rock; just dress like a normal teenager." She smiled sweetly at Sora, her too bright eyes suddenly moved onto me, "Axel's favorite band is the Sex Pistols, and he'd probably love it if you were to wear something with them on it."

I furrowed my eyebrows, was I that obvious? Maybe I acted a certain way while drunk/high? A sudden flash of my first night at Naminé's goes through my mind. There was dancing involved, laughter, warm hands all over me... I had spent the entire night with Axel on my arm; acting like my purse, as Demyx had put it. Did I touch him? Did he touch me? In front of everyone? It bothered me that I couldn't remember any of it.

"You two can meet us up at the train station at five. We're going to be going over there early so that we can hang out with the band before they play," Naminé stated, taking her sketch book back out from seemingly nowhere. "I'll see you two later." This was her way of dismissing us.

Sora grinned at her and bounced his way off of the steps, I followed at a more casual pace. I needed to buy me a damn Sex Pistol's shirt.

I glared at Sora, he grinned at me teasingly.

I was wearing a black Sex Pistol's shirt that had a British flag on it along with the words Anarchy in the UK. It was amazing what one could find in a thrift shop. After buying it we went back to Cloud and Leon's place to wash it at least twice. I looked down at the jeans Sora had made me wear along with the black Chucks. My wrists had the usual checkered band and my fingers had the normal black and white rings. I was always more into ska than punk rock. I was a Rude Boy, not a Punkster.

Sora was wearing a pair of my jeans along with my red Chucks and a black tee that said "Got Chuck?" with an All Star logo on the back. He looked like a skater, when we both knew that it was me who skate boarded. Sora was more of a surfer bum.

"Ready to go or not? We still have to take the tram to the train station," I stated, attaching my wallet chain to my pants.

"Are we going out through the window?" My twin asked happily.

Tap. Tap. Tap.

"Most likely since Olette's here." I went to my window and flung it open; on the other side were Pence and Hayner.

"Let's go, Olette and Nam are already there," Hayner stated, arms crossing over his chest lazily. He was wearing cargos, steel toed boots and a black tee with a strange heart-like symbol on it.

"Does no one believe in doors? Seriously?" I asked while crawling out through the window. Sora followed immediately after.

"What's with the heart on your shirt?" he asked Hayner.

I looked over at Pence and realized he was wearing an almost identical shirt to Hayners. Only his shirt was a dark purple, which went well with his jeans and purple and white Jordan high-tops. "It's the logo to Axel and Demyx's band," Pence answered, smiling slightly. "Tradition is that if you go see them in concert you gotta wear the shirt. Since it's your two's first time you guys can by your shirts tonight, which is part of the reason why we're going early."

Olettes' was shirt was the same as Pence's, only she wore a jean skirt with black tights underneath and black sneakers.

Then there was Nam, wearing a white dress but her dress had the odd heart logo patterned on the bottom of her skirt, going full circle around the bottom hem. "Roxas, you're wearing a Sex Pistol's shirt!" she smiled at me.

"Oh yeah! That's Axel's favorite band!" Olette nodded as the six of us made our way into the station.

"Well, it seemed like a good thing to wear to a punk rock concert," I stated dumbly, behind me I could hear Sora and Hayner laughing at something Pence had said.

The evening commute made it so that everyone was coming into Twilight Town, so leaving was very easy.

"So what's the band's name?" Sora asked once we were all seated comfortably.

"13 Heartless Nobodies," Olette answered her tone and face full of pride. She was so obviously proud of her older brother.

But it made me wonder, were there actually thirteen people in the band?

Axel and Demyx were thrilled when the group of us showed up.

"You guys made it!" Axel beamed, his eyes immediately zeroing in on my Sex Pistols shirt and (if possible) his grin widened.

"Hayner! My baby!" Demyx draped himself dramatically over Hayner, making the younger teen uncomfortable.

"Get the fuck off me!" Hayner growled, annoyed.

"Don't be so mean to your handsome big brother! Where's the familial love? Roxas and Sora have it!" Demyx cried.

Everyone stared at Sora and I.

"We're twins," Sora stated while taking my hand, "we're allowed to be super close."

"Must be that whole twincest thing," Olette joked, which made everyone except me laugh. And though I was a little annoyed, I didn't want Sora to let go of my hand.

"So where's the rest of 13 Heartless Nobodies?" Naminé asked.

"They're setting up their crap," Axel answered easily.

"We're not called that anymore either," a male voice with an English accent stated from behind us.

The man was tall with blond hair, blue eyes, and a goatee.

"Hey Luxord, done already?" Demyx asked, still casually draped over his younger brother.

"Yes, Saïx is still setting up his drum set, and Zexion is going through our set list one last time." Luxord looked at Naminé, "and we're no longer called 13 Heartless Nobodies, we're called just going by The Nobodies now."

Naminé looked like she wanted to say something when another man came up to us. His black hair was so dark that it looked almost grayish, his left eye covered by bangs, "we're all set. Saïx is talking to Nanaki about some things."

The first thing that my mind processed was that if this man wasn't Saix then he must've been Zexion. The second was that the name Nanaki sounded really familiar, but I couldn't place my finger on how.

Sora squeezed my hand, Nanaki sounded familiar to him too.

Zexion looked over at me, stared down at Sora's and mine's hands, then shrugged before saying to us, "you two would need our band shirts," he looked over at Olette, "you know where the extra's are, grab two for your friends. We're about to go on soon."

Olette laughed and disappeared into the backroom of the stage for a few minutes.

"Are you guys still having the after –party at Zell's?" Hayner asked from under Demyx's arm.

"Zell's their older brother," Pence explained to Sora and I quietly.

"Hells yeah we're having the after party at Zell's, we always do. He said he'll have food ready too." Demyx answered, leaning even more onto his younger brother, causing Hayner to roll his eyes.

Olette then came back out with two band shirts in her hands, one red and the other black, she handed them to Sora and I, grinning happily. "Let's go find seats, they're supposed to start in a few minutes."

"Welcome!" Axel greeted from his spot on stage. He gave the crowd a charming smile, "we're The Nobodies." The cheers that followed that statement was deafening.

Even though they were the opening act The Nobodies had the most fans in the place.

"Our first song is called Heartless, feel free to join in if you know the words," the red head grinned, moving his head away from the microphone.

Saïx, the drummer, hit his sticks together four times and then they began to immediately play the intro.

The music was different than what I honestly expected from The Nobodies. Kind of eerie, gothic, yet up beat and punk rock. It was surprising, but what took the cake was the sound of Axel's voice when he opened his mouth for that first lyric.

He blew my mind away.

After the concert was all over it was pretty late, and I was tired, but there was still the after party.

Zell's townhouse was just down the street from the club that we were at. He opened the door as soon as we knocked. Zell was blond haired, blue eyed and pale skinned with at tattoo on the side of his face.

"Welcome all come in! Chinese food just got here," he grinned while allowing us all to enter his home. After Sora and I were introduced we all just seemed to relax, it wasn't very hard to do so; Zell's townhouse just had a calming air to it.

The so-called "after party" was nothing like Nam's house parties. No, this only consisted of the band members and our small group. Apparently, we were the biggest fans.

I looked back at the band members, each sitting at Zells' table with a bottle of beer in their hands. Zell grinned at something Demyx was saying. It was funny, separated one would never be able to tell that Zell, Demyx, and Hayner were brothers, but stand them next to each other and it all just snapped into place. The key to that was Dem, he had the same light blue eyes as Zell and the same grin, but he also had Hayner's tan and darker blond hair.

I watched as Axel got up from the table with a packet of cigarettes in his hand, he headed towards the small balcony to smoke.

"Love is the master key which opens the gates of happiness," Sora suddenly said while stretching his body at an odd angle. It was obvious that he was more than a little tipsy. He placed his hands behind his head, looking comfortable on wooden floor. "I'm gonna take a quick nap Rox, wake me up before you go-go, don't leave me hanging here like yo-yo," his voice trailed off and he was out like a light.

I sighed, looking down at him, "we told Cloud that we would go back home tonight." My twin was fast asleep.

Olette looked down at him, a tender smile on her mouth, "he's so cute when he's asleep!" She took a puff of the hash pipe that was being passed around between us.

Hayner scoffed, "if you like dopy and drooling. Oh wait...obviously you do, I mean, have you really looked at Pence?"

Olette gave Hayner a mock glare, her face bright red. Pence had fallen asleep on the couch not ten minutes before Sora dozed off.

I snickered, it made me happy that this was a small party; it seemed to only consist of close friends. Did that make me a close friend? I was still the new kid, but they seemed to warm up to me so quickly, and what's worse, I warmed up to them. Hell, I had called Cloud's house HOME.

Nam's eyes were on me as I stood and stretched before making my way towards the small balcony.

"Hey," I greeted while closing the door behind me.

Axel looked at me through a smoky haze, "how'd you like the show?" He asked casually, tapping his ashes over the ledge. I watched the pieces float off into the breeze.

"It was epic, you guys kicked ass and were way better than the actual band."

The red head chuckled, "thanks."

A beat of awkward silence and I had no way to break that moment so I opted to remain silent and stare out of the balcony. From Zell's place one could see Hollow Bastion University perfectly.

"Are you and Naminé an item?" Axel suddenly asked, taking a drag of his cigarette. My heart dropped into my stomach and a wave of coldness swept over me.

"Uh, no," I coughed, clearing my throat, "do we look like one?"

"Eh, you two look cute together." He grinned up at me from his seat but I didn't look at him.

He thought that Nam and I would make a cute couple. He really wasn't into me at all, not that I could blame him; after all he was in his twenties and was way too cool for me. He probably saw me as nothing more than a friend of his baby sister.

I coughed once more, my eyes were burning and I could already feel them beginning to water around the edges, "it's getting late, Sora and I promised Cloud that we'd be home at a somewhat respectable time tonight." I took in a deep breath and managed to smirk at Axel, "so I think it's best if we head out now."

Axel crushed his cigarette and nodded at me, "alright, have a safe trip home." I felt dismissed, and it stung like a bitch.

I walked back into the place, suppressing my urge to slam the door shut behind me. Helping Sora up onto his feet, I said my good-byes and walked out, Naminé tailing behind me.

"I have to be home tonight, so it's safer going with you than alone," she reasoned with me.

Honestly I didn't care, my mind too busy trying to figure out exactly what happened outside with Axel and why I was stressing it so damn much. I knew that there was no chance between us; I mean our age gap was an indication of that. Why the fuck was I so damn attracted to him?

Sora leaned heavily on me, still half asleep with some drool falling down his chin. It was disgusting really, but adorable at the same time.

"Hey, Nam," I started my sentence, unsure of how to exactly finish it.

"Yes?" She asked as if she knew. She always acted as if she fucking knew. It got damn annoying at times.

"Do you think we look good together?" I asked her, staring out of the train's window, watching the flashing lights pass by as quick blurs.

"I think we look related," Naminé answered with a teasing smile on her face. How I wanted to wipe that look off of her face.

I rolled my eyes at her, "wanna be my girlfriend?" I asked, staring her straight in the eye. We did look rather similar.

Naminé stared at me for a few seconds, and in those moments I knew she figured something about me out. Because this was Naminé, she always knew something about someone without anyone else really knowing.

Slowly, she nodded, "okay."

I let a relieved grin take over my face, "awesome. Thank you."

Getting a half-drunk Sora off of the train wasn't as hard as it might have sounded. We walked with Nam to the first tram stop, but she kept walking to her little hole in the wall.

"We'll talk more about all of this tomorrow, when you've had some time to think it over," Nam said to me over her shoulder, she disappeared before I got a chance to respond.

Getting Sora through the window was difficult, and amusing. After helping him change into some pajamas, not even bothering to help him shower (I had decided that I would change the sheets in the morning to prevent the smell of stale liquor from clinging onto my bed), he tucked in him.

Sora snuggled into the pillow and was out for the rest of the night easily. He was mumbling something about paopu fruit and Riku and saving Mickey Mouse.

His sleep noise made me feel more at ease. But sleep eluded me.

I lied in bed next to my twin, the room was so dark that I couldn't see my nose, but I stared up at the nothingness, the darkness, and wondered exactly what the fuck was going on in my life.

TBC

ECK: Dudes! I've been working on this chapter for freakin' weeks and it still isn't exactly how I wanted. For those who can't tell, this chapter is a filler XD. But it's an important filler 'cause next chapter's gonna be all WHOA.

Next chapter: Getting laid while higher than an airplane was never a good idea. Especially if you were a virgin while getting into it.

Anyway, please review! Any types of comments or flames are always welcome.