A/N: Another graphic chapter but in a sexual way, so if you think it's gross, then too bad, it's rated M for a reason so heed the warning! If you want to continue reading, then…YAY! More hits for me! .

Chapter 4

"So, you think you can love in my family?" Akito asked stalking closer and closer to me.

I was speechless, how did she find out? Who told? And more importantly, what was going to happen to Haru? Her hand wrapped around my throat, she lifted me up off the ground. That was a shock since her weak state I didn't expect such power from her.

"You'll see that no one could ever love the useless horse. Everyone's love is for me, they all worship me. Except you…" She looked down for a second but her grip didn't loosen as she did. "You are the odd one out. Why is that? Do you hate me?" Akito's sarcastic voice was very similar to my mother's, but Akito's was wrought with evil.

I closed my eyes mentally hitting myself for getting into this kind of trouble. After me, she's going to go after Haru, and I would never forgive myself if he were to get punished because I was too weak to my emotions. I will never forgive myself.

"You are such a troublesome girl, Isuzu. I guess you need to learn your place…" She finished.

Akito backed up a little bit, while still grasping my throat, and threw me with such force it broke the window. We were one the 3rd story of the building, so the fall wasn't long, although it felt that way; it was the velocity that hurt.

I was falling out of the window. It felt like I was falling down a black hole and I was never going to hit the bottom. I began to build my walls higher. All the walls that Haru had scaled became dangerously tall and there was no way anyone was going to hurt me now. I had to protect myself as well as Haru, the only way I could do that was to distance myself from him.

I saw my silk hair flying above me, my hands were still reaching out as if some one would come and grab them and pull me to safety. My fingers actually started to wrap around the air as if some one's hand was in front of me. The fall scared me to death, but also imagining what will happen once I hit that hard pavement made me close my eyes. It will hurt more than anything to not talk to Haru or to kiss him, to have him anymore. Compared to not having Haru, the fall was nothing more than a scratch. I wish I had enjoyed the fall more, because when I hit that ground, I couldn't be with Haru anymore.

All the days of kissing in the rain, spending hours talking, saying 'I love you' it would be all over. I hit the ground, and it seemed as though I had aged a year because it was such a long fall.

A long shard of glass lodged itself into my back; I let out a sharp gasp of pain. I heard a pitter patter of little feet coming towards me,

"Rin! Are you okay? What happened?" I heard a familiar voice call out to me.

I looked up and it was the lamb, Hiro. He was running to me with the most worried look I've ever seen him wear.

"You need a doctor; I'll go get Hatori and Haru!" He exclaimed turning around.

I grabbed onto his leg before he started out. I couldn't let Haru know.

"No! You can't tell Haru!" I ordered.

"What is there to tell? You're hurt he'll want to know!" Hiro argued, he of course didn't know the whole story.

"Akito did this to me…" I angrily admitted.

"Akito? She's here?" He asked looking around nervously.

"She threw me out of the 3rd story window, because she found out about me and Haru…I don't know how," I choked back my tears from both physical pain and mental.

"Oh gods…" Hiro whispered kneeling down to me.

I took a hold of his collar, and brought him to my eyes.

"Haru can NEVER know! If he does then we'll both be in more trouble."

"Rin, he deserves to know! You can't let him just sit there while you bleed to death!" Hiro pointed out that I was bleeding all over the entrance. "I have to call Hatori-san!"

"Don't tell Haru, or I swear I will make it more trouble than it's worth," I growled at him.

His eyes widened but, he nodded in agreement. Hiro ran to the front office and I guess he called Hatori because about 10 minuets later he showed up and carried me to his car. I was rushed to the emergency room. I was very dizzy from the amount of blood loss. The doctors around looked familiar, one of their faces were Haru's.

I must have been hallucinating, I nodded off into sleep. One doctor kept yelling at me to stay awake, I tried but my mind was about to shut off. The doctor went as far as to slap me to keep me conscious. I gave the Haru look alike a glare of annoyance.

"You have to stay awake!" He yelled shaking my face.

"But, I want to sleep!" I whined twitching around on the bed like thing.

The doctors were all yelling for medicines and numbers, my mind couldn't stay focused on what they were all saying. I heard Haru yelling behind me, I'm not quiet sure what for. But, next thing I knew I was waking up on a hospital bed, again, with one eye completely black, bandages all over my arms and legs, and a big patch on my back. I felt around my arms, the cloth so foreign, my arms must have been really screwed up to has that much bandaging. I ran my fingers over my eye; the patch was so large, what happened to my eye? I don't remember that part of the fall.

"She is resting, visiting will start once she is stable," the nurse said on the other side of the door.

Her shoes gently hit the floor as she opened the door. She checked my heart rate, pulse and updated my charts. I grabbed her shoulder and turned to face me.

"Who was that visiting?" I asked weakly.

Was my voice really that weak? I sounded so helpless, but I'm not! I know I'm not! I was stronger than this; I'm not some weak child who needs the help of these people.

"A young man that had black and white, he said to tell you that he loves you and to get well soon," The nurse replied turning on her heels and leaving me.

Oh gods! That was why I was lying on some hospital bed in the first place. I let him convince me to love him, or rather show that I loved him. I couldn't let anything like that happen to him, I just couldn't. He was the one thing that I really loved, if he got hurt, I…I couldn't forgive myself. He was the only one who had ever loved me for who I was, no the only person who had ever love me.

I had to distance myself that time, there was no way I could show my deep, burning lust, desire and want for him. My body had to become all ice, there couldn't be a trace of fire or it would melt all my carefully structured barriers in an instant. That meant no more Haru, for the next few days I spent my time remembering all the good times; going over all the moments where we let passion and intimacy take hold of our fragile, delicate bodies. Like, incident in deep winter…

Haru was over at my house because Kagura's family was on another of their family's famous trips. He had been there since about noon. All day it was nothing but talking, kissing, cooking and drawing. We were in my room kissing and exploring with our hands. Haru did something that no one else could, he sent me into begging fits.

"Dear Gods, now Haru! Please? Can we do it now?" I pleaded tugging at his shirt and clawing at his chest.

Passion's strong grip held me and refused to let go. My body felt as if it were on fire, although the room that surrounded us was cold, making my feet go numb. My senses were heightened; I could smell his skin so easily, even if my head was thrown back in fits. I widened my eyes he knew exactly what to do to make me beg for what I wanted. I wanted him to make love to me.

He laid me down flat on the bed and kissed me deeply. Haru's lips ventured down my neck, biting it roughly almost like he was trying to make me into a vampire, first long bites, and then quicker ones. All my nerves were crying out for Haru's skin to touch them.

"I love you Rin," He stated looking into my eyes.

"I love you too Haru," I replied looking as equally deep into his gray pools.

Haru's eyes looked different, not like he was happy with love, but deeply in love. There was a spark that I had never seen before. I never wanted to leave that moment of pure love and intimacy. He slowly unzipped my jacket and took it off my pale arms. Haru lifted my upper body up and slid my shirt off exposing my body to the bitter chill that filled the room.

I lifted his shirt off, he lifted his arms up, I guess to make it easier. His hands held my waist while he kissed me back to the original position. I was lying on the soft blankets with only a skirt, panties, and a bra on. His fingers undid the zipper of my skirt and slid it down my legs, very slowly as if he were teasing me, knowing that he wouldn't start until I was completely naked in front of him. I opened his belt very fast and undid his pants button and zipper. I practically ripped them off him and threw then on top of my clothes. He let his lips explore the vast area of my body.

Haru finally unfastened my bra and took it off gently; he tossed it aside to the growing pile of our clothes that we had shed thus far. He held me tighter, not kissing me, not turning me on, and not doing anything besides that.

"What's wrong Haru?" I asked hugging him back.

"Nothing, I'm just fine. I wish we could stay like this forever," he started. "Just like this, in love, naked, not caring about Kagura's family or Akito."

His mind wondered. I could feel his warm sweet breath touching my shoulders. Then, I could feel his teeth sinking into the flesh in between my shoulders and my neck. He was still holding me close to his body; the warmth he radiated was so amazing I could barely sit still while he was on top of me. We both still had our underwear on, and Haru would not stand for it.

He grasped my panties and took them off with such grace. I took a hold of the elastic band on his boxers and tore them off of him that was the last of our clothes to be added to our pile. The next hour was more of a blur; I remember being so close to him that I felt like no one could hurt us if we were like that. I wanted him more than just like that; I wanted all of him in those moments.

In the last few minuets of that perfect situation he put his hands on the sides of my face, his nose almost touching mine, his breath fast and shallow.

"I love you Hatsuharu," I whispered to him my breath just as fast as his.

That was the only time I had ever referred to him as Hatsuharu without anger in my voice.

"I love you too Isuzu," Haru parroted back in a soft tone.

His head lowered to kiss me, the kiss was extraordinary, and I felt like I was on top of the world.

The memory melted back into my mind as a soft knock echoed at my door.

"Come in," I said a little stronger.

The door opened to reveal Haru, with a red rose.

"Hatori told me that you wanted to see me," He told me.

"Haru, to be quiet honest, I'm tired of you," I lied biting down on my lip to prevent from saying that I loved him.

His face was hit with shock, his eyes wandered all over the room then back to me.

"You can't mean that Rin," He insisted, even though he was right I couldn't let him know that.

"It's over, Haru. Please don't talk to me again, do not attempt to see me, I do not wish to be with you anymore," I coldly said, just as I had rehearsed the day before.

He walked over to me, "No, you don't mean it. I know you don't," he hugged me and attempted to kiss me.

"Don't touch me!" I yelled pushing him off me with the strength I had.

Haru's face reflected pain and anguish, even if he didn't mean to show me that I could read him like a book and I could see that the whole conversation tore him up. But, he couldn't possibly feel all the pain I did at that moment. He was only feeling heart break, I was feeling heart break as well as memory stabbing at my soul. Haru set the single rose on my table and turned around and left.

As the door clicked shut I felt my entire world fall away. I broke down and sobbed into my hands. My mouth was making sounds that were so pathetic and juvenile, it was disgusting. I was dependant on him and now that he was gone I was nothing more than an empty shell. Maybe I was mean to end up this way, sobbing in darkness, alone and wanting but never having.

The next day the nurse in charge of me handed me a note, it was from Haru, It read:

Dear Rin,

Get well soon, I miss you more than anything. Just know that—

After I read that line I just crumpled it into a little ball and threw it at the trash can, although I missed, I still didn't want to read it. Curiosity was tugging at my consciousness, I wanted to read it, but I knew that if I did it would make it harder to avoid him. I looked over at the red rose, its thorns, the petals, leaves; it all reminded me of Haru. All of his faults, as well as his perfections were all in that single rose. I reached over to it and smelled it deeply.

The sent was so sweet and it intoxicated my mind as I cupped the bud and sniffed deeper into it. I pulled back for a second and looked at it; his face was lightly etched in the crimson petals! Maybe I was imagining it was at the time, but I couldn't stand to look at him right now. I tore the rose up in a fit of rage.

"NO! I CAN'T SEE YOU!" I screamed tearing each delicate petal off with such inappropriate emotion behind every rip.

I held only a stem with tattered leaves hanging onto it but, just barely. I hugged the stem as if it was Haru and I was asking him to forgive me for being so stupid. But, all it was, a torn rose stem that couldn't be my Haru holding me and kissing away my fears. It was all gone for those moments and it killed me inside to know that that was the only way to protect him. I wished I could have it all, him, protection, and confidence, anything to make it easier to live my cursed life.

"I miss you already…" I whispered placing my face in my hands once again.

I woke up the next morning. The unread note was still bugging my senses to read it. I couldn't stand the curiosity anymore! I lifted my body off of the stupid bed and ran to the crumpled paper on the floor. I opened it as fast as I possibly could nearly ripping it in the process.

I was shaking as the note read:

Dear Rin,

Get well soon. I miss you more than anything. Just know that I love you and always will. No matter how hard you try to push me away I will never leave you. Even if you get tired of seeing me I won't leave your side. Keep that in mind because I will find out what happened to you and I will kill the person responsible for it.

I'll never stop loving you forever and always.

Forever your faithful servant,

Haru

I fell to the floor as I read the letter. No one in my life had been that devoted to loving me as I pushed them father and farther away. He really surprised me, he always has. I covered my face with the letter. The paper carried the scent of my beloved, how I wish I could hold him again. Just wrap my arms around his fragrant body that I craved so much at that moment.

But all of that was behind me, I had to break the curse and I was willing do sacrifice everything to do so. I needed the cure to this plague, to free Haru my beloved and to apologize to him for all I've done wrong. Breaking the curse was the only thing I needed to focus on at the time. I didn't know how complicated things were going to get from there on out.