A/N: This one is slightly shorter but more dramatic! Tell me if you like it! .

Chapter 5

A few weeks passed and I could walk stably by then. I couldn't stand being in that damn hospital anymore! It brought back so many visits and memories I wanted to leave buried deep in my mind. I was going crazy, the smell, sounds, the feel, it all made me want to claw the paint off the walls. I needed to leave that place behind and run somewhere far off into the distance!

I spied my clothes on the chair near the window. Ah, how convenient! I threw the covers off of me exposing my paler than snow legs to the brightly shining sun. I ran to the dark colors. I pulled the short skirt on before taking off my gown.

Just when I was about to untie the frail strings on the back the door knob turned. I began to panic, who was it? I jumped into my bed again and covered my fragile body once again. The usual nurse walked in, she did all the usual things. Checked my IV's, took a glance at my charts, and listened to my heart monitor.

But, why would she have to look at it? If it's beeping then I'm obviously still here! Then, she asked it, the stupid question she asked everyday!

"So you feeling okay?" always with that dumb smile too.

Yes, I was thrown out of a 3rd story window, there a bandages all over me and I had to break up with the love of my life! I'm just dandy idiot! Was the usual thought when she asked that damn question. But, as usual, I didn't say anything I just stared at her and tried to kill her with my eyes.

"Well, that's all for today! You should be able to leave in about three days," she explained so cheerfully.

She walked out of the room with a little bit of a bounce in her step. Why was she so freaking happy at the time? Maybe she was always like that and I never bothered to notice. I didn't notice immediately, but she said three days. Did I really want to hold on for that long?

I tossed the blanket aside again, that day was so repetitive, and I got annoyed with it every time I had to redo things. I rushed over to the rest of my clothes, so happy to see colors other than the stupid pink that was painted onto those walls. That was when I decided that pink was a hideous color.

I heard a knock at the door, another visitor or nurse. I was really fed up with all the interruptions in my escape. I dashed back to my bed and covered myself…again!

"Come in," I coldly shouted at the one wanting entry.

Haru walked in…no, I didn't want to see him! I couldn't let him see the tearing agony in my face, so I turned to face the window which was to be my escape route.

"I know what you're thinking Rin," it was almost as if he was threatening me, the way his voice washed over my existence…very smooth but almost like he knew everything.

"Fine then, Mr. Psychic, what am I thinking?" I sarcastically retuned his statement.

He put his face next to mine which I was facing the window at the moment. His hot breath was escaping into my ear, how I missed that for so long. Haru lightly brushed my face with his, sending shivers up and down my spine. Then, he took a strand of my hair in his hands and twirled it while he answered.

"You're going to try to leave the hospital," my heart stopped for a second.

How did he know? Haru then proceeded to take the blanket off of my legs and saw my skirt on me.

"Just as I thought," He laughed a little in a semi-sinister way. "I knew if I put your clothes there, you would try to escape, I was right."

He ran his fingers through my hair, brought my face close to his. He lightly ran his lips over mine and tried to kiss me. I pushed him away as fast as I could. No matter how much I wanted him I couldn't have him without hurting him.

"Get off me you pervert!" I screamed at him putting my hand over my mouth hoping that I could keep the warmth on my lips.

"I can see it in you eyes Rin! You want me so badly! You're just too scared to be with me!" He yelled back at me.

Haru walked up to me and embraced me tightly I kept hitting his arms and back but it didn't work, he was a thousand times stronger than me. His strong hold did waver for a second. He brushed my head trying to calm me down. Admittedly it was working, but I couldn't let him get the best of me. Haru kept kissing the top of my head and whispering "Shhhh," in my ear.

"I love you Rin, and I'll do anything to have you," He whispered looking into my eyes.

I felt like I was about to cry, so I turned away. I bit down hard on my lower lip so hard that I tasted warm blood filling my mouth. It tasted so awful, but I couldn't just yell at Haru to take me back, forgive me, to love me all over again, all of this had to be closed up. He put his fingers on my chin, I felt like submission would take over when I was with him. I smacked his hand away and gave him a cold stare.

"Don't touch me," I coldly commanded as blood dripped down my lips and onto the ugly gown I was wearing.

I forgot I was bleeding! I covered my mouth as fast I could, Haru couldn't see it! But, he did. His eyes widened in concern. He rushed over to me and cupped my cheek, he pushed my hand aside. He ran his fingers over my lips and stared at the blood on his finger tips.

"Rin, what did you do to yourself?" Haru asked examining my bloody flesh.

"None of your business," I answered pushing his chest as hard as I could.

He came back to me anyway! Why did he do that to me? I wanted so badly to just let him look at my lip and kiss away the pain of being alone. I had to keep him away! Haru put another finger on my cut and wiped away some of the blood, and licked it off his finger.

"Get off me you psycho!" I screamed pushing him away again.

"Rin, you need me, I know you do," Haru calmly said rushing back to me.

"GET OUT!" I commanded.

I knew he was right, but I needed to protect him more than anything. At the time I guess he was the only one that really understood me. He knew things that no one else could comprehend. I got up from my hospital bed, I felt weak and feeble, what happened? Just a minuet ago I had all the strength in the world…what was going on?

I walked over to Haru carefully, my legs were shaking, and I don't know if it was because I was weak or nervous. I fell to the floor and Haru rushed to catch me. His strong arms lifted me up to a standing position.

He stared me in the eyes and said, "If you don't love me, deny it now…"

I turned my head away and scowled, I couldn't say 'no' because then he would know I was lying, but then again I couldn't say 'yes' because then he wouldn't he wouldn't leave me alone. I was so confused at that point. I just broke down and started crying. I sobbed so loudly, and so hard that my voice almost left me.

"Do you still love me?" asked a relentless Haru.

"No, I have no use for you anymore," I replied whipping my tears off with the back of my hand.

"It's okay to be weak Rin, why can't you see that?" he asked frustrated.

"NO IT'S NOT! I HAVE TO BE STRONG AT ALL COSTS!" I yelled as more tears fell down my face.

"Do you still love me?" that question was about to break everything that I worked so hard to uphold.

"No…"

He just smiled and hugged me, "It's okay Rin, I know what you really mean…"

I wanted so badly to just stand there and be held by this warm man, but I couldn't. I pushed him away again, more violently this time though. He backed up and hit the wall.

"Get out…" I let out the low growl clenching my fists and staring at the ground like it had hurt me.

"I'll never leave your side…"

I was about to break and crawl up next to him and cry until I was asleep. Instead I grabbed his sleeve, opened the door and threw him out.

"I don't want to see you ever again Haru!" I screamed slamming the door.

As the door hit the frame loudly I dropped to the floor. My weigh felt so immense I couldn't bear to stand up on my own. I cried silently, muffling the sounds with my gown. I heard Haru's boots walking back to the door. The door knob didn't turn…he didn't' knock…all I heard was him sit down next to the door and drum his fingers.

"I love you Haru…" I whispered silently into my gown.

"I love you too Rin…" he said on the other side of the door.

I looked at the door in amazement, how did he know? I didn't make a sound…how did he know what I said? I only cried harder after that, he knew what I was thinking. Oh god I love him so much and it hurts so badly to act this way to him, but I have to for the sake of him.

One day I'll set you free my love, that's the day that I can make you truly happy. Maybe then you'll understand why sometimes I can act so selfish and cold to you. The only way I can cut all the ties that bind you is to cut the one we have. Whether or not you're still with me, I want you to be happy.

"I understand Rin," Haru whispered softly before I heard his footsteps fade away into the bustle of the hospital.

"I don't know what to do anymore! Please help me gods!" I cried out, even though I didn't expect a reply.

I swear I'll save you Haru. I'll save you from the darkness, form all that makes you sad, and from Akito. I'll save…no matter what it takes. I'll sacrifice myself to ensure you're freed from this painful curse. Because it's okay for it to end with nothing left in my hands. (I took that line from volume 14! I love it!)