Chapter 7

He loved me. He loved me like no one else ever had in my life. I felt like shit, he loved me and the way I returned it was by saying bitchy things and run away from his love. The one thing I loved about him more than anything, he wanted me…

"Rin, I love you," he admitted to me one night when we were lying on the couch together.

I tucked my chin into my chest and closed my eyes. I loved him pure and simple, but admitting my feelings is one thing I'm no good at.

"Do you not love me?" Haru asked lifting my chin and looking in my eyes.

"I…I…" I stammered.

"Even if you don't love me, I always will love you, that is a promise," he understood the way I worked, that I couldn't admit it…but he knew I did.

…That promise is probably getting harder and harder for him to keep…and I never want him to break it.

I woke up in a bed…whose bed was it? I sat up quickly and looked around the room. It looked like the summer home…what was I doing there? The door knob turned and in walked Haru…

"WILL YOU STAY OUT OF MY LIFE?" I screamed standing up and soon falling to the ground.

How could this happen? I know I'm not that weak!

"Just as I thought, you've worn yourself out again Rin. How long are you going to keep doing this to yourself?" Haru asked rushing my side and holding me so tight I couldn't move or get away.

Until I free you…

"I love you Rin," he said almost crying.

I could hear in his voice he was about ready to give up on me. His strong shoulders began to shake and his voice wasn't as strong as it usually was.

"I love you so much. It tears me up to see you running from me, to see you falling apart. All of it just kills me inside," he confessed taking the sides of my face.

I couldn't move, not from being restrained, it was my body, it wouldn't let me. I loved him so much that I couldn't let him know that.

"Please Rin, I need to know if you do love me," he begged holding one of my hands in both of his and kissing it softly.

"I…I…" I stuttered again.

"Please? I want you more than anything, I love you so much, I can't stand the distance anymore," Haru closed his eyes and a stream of tears fell.

I turned my head; he just made me face him again.

"I need to know," he said with more composure than before.

"I…Love you Hatsuharu Sohma!" I cried embracing him tightly.

He returned the embrace. After a second he broke the embrace and cradled my crying face in his hands and kissed my face repeatedly. I loved it so much. All those months of fighting to find an end to the curse, all those months of loneliness and agony gone within a few minuets. I loved him and nothing was going to change that.

Even if I wanted to uncursed him, I was weak. Without his soft touch, I have no reason to be. My whole life was a fabricated existence, living the way I was told to, the way I was meant to. When Haru stepped in I felt alive, like I was able to live for myself rather than by what standards others set for me. I stepped out of the assembly line and became a real person with real feelings.

That's the way Haru made me feel.

Then…it happened. One second it was present, tearing my soul apart, and then next it was an intangible spirit flying away in the breeze. The very thing that was ripping me to pieces was now a thing of the past. I saw Haru's fly out of him too.

It felt like a hand reached inside of my chest and pulled a thin cloth through its entry. An overwhelming amount of freedom flooded my body. All the weight of being cursed had vanished…and I loved it.

The spirits intertwined and then they were carried off by into the heavens. I started to cry. For the first time since I was nine I was crying because I was happy, not from sadness. Haru held me tightly and stroked my head.

"We're free…no more suffering," he assured me with a joy in his voice so defined it was unmistakable.

"I'm so happy! We're free!" I cried holding him tighter.

I don't know how long we were sitting there crying and holding each other, but it seemed as though our long journey was finally at its end. Little did I know what Akito would do when he found out…?

"So, I feel it, you and Hatsuharu have been released from the curse. Am I wrong?" Akito asked me.

We were standing in the middle of the woods. I was on a walk before all of this.

"Yes, and now you can't dictate who we will and will not love," I told her standing straight up and smiling my smile of 'ha-ha I won!'

"Well, I guess I can't tell you what to do anymore. You have finally beaten me," he put his hand out for me to shake.

I hesitantly took it and shook it for a bit. After a few seconds he pulled me closer to his body and then the next thing I knew there was a sharp pain in my lower stomach. He let me fall to the floor and started to laugh.

"You can never beat me! When will you learn? You can be released from the curse, but you can't be released from this family!" Akito reminded me.

I clenched my stomach. It was actually closer to my uterus that he stabbed. The pain was surging through out my body it was almost unbearable.

"Rin? Where are you?" I heard Haru's voice calling to me…how beautiful.

"Rin?" his voice was more alert and concerned once he saw me.

I smiled gently as I felt reality slip away through my fingers.

"No Rin, don't do this to me! Stay awake!" Haru yelled drawing me into his chest. "Don't leave me here all by myself!"

I weakly attempted to hold Haru in my limp arms around him. He picked me up and started running as he had many years ago when I collapsed in front of him. However, this time he could carry me all the way to the house.

He burst through the door knocking it to the ground in his frightful panic. He ran all over the house looking for Hatori. He finally found him and started to yell and cry he was almost as coherent as a 2 year old.

"Rin, hurt! Help please? Blood!" Haru started to just say random words that upset him about the situation. His hand covered the stab wound and showed the blood to Hatori, offering his hand to him as if it were diseased.

"Hatsuharu, calm down! I can't help her if you panic," Hatori said.

"Rin, she's hurt! How can I be calm?" Black Haru yelled changing from the juvenile white Haru to this one who got mad easily.

Hatori said, "We should get her to the hospital."

"Ya think Sherlock?" Haru yelled sarcastically while still getting madder at his foolishness.

They rushed to the car and Haru held me in the back seat while we all hurried to the hospital. When we reached the hospital Hatori started yelling at the doctors with Haru and I was flying into the emergency room in no time.

Doctors were yelling and saying things like "Does it hurt?" Well, I just got stabbed you do the math! They shot needles in my arms and told me to relax. I fell asleep and then next thing I knew I was laying on a hospital bed. The memories of all the times I had played this doctors office game came back to me.

"We don't need you…"

I shook my head. I opened my eyes to see Haru lying on my bed next to me. This was new; he usually sat in the chairs, the ugly stupid plastic chairs... I hate them all. He felt me stirring and woke up.

"Rin, are you okay?" he asked sitting up and rubbing the sleep from his eyes.

"I've been better," I admitted yawning. "Why are you sleeping up here?"

"Well, they didn't yell at me, so I guess it must be okay," Haru thought this out and then just shrugged.

I placed my head on his shoulder and closed my eyes again.

"You should sleep, you've had a pretty rough weekend," Haru said lying me down and then resting his head on his hand and playing with my hair.

"Weekend?" I quizzically asked yawning again.

"Yeah, you've been sleeping for the past 2 days. But you did talk while you slept," he said smiling slightly.

"Really? What did I say?" I asked looking up at him sleepily.

"Pretty much all you talked about was your parents. Though you did argue with some one about your audience before you sang, it was really cute," he laughed and then stroked the side of my face with his index finger.

"Does he know about Akito doing this to me? Or about the window for that matter?" I thought hoping that it didn't show that I was worried.

"Oh, and I know everything that Akito's done to you," Haru confessed looking into my eyes. "Don't worry I took care of it. Hiro told me about why you broke up with me…the whole window thing. And I already knew it was Akito who stabbed you."

It was as if he read my mind…I loved it. He lowered his lips to mine and kissed me deeply. Never again will I take his kiss for granted. Never…

A doctor walked in, it didn't look like he had the best of news. He sat in one of the ugly chairs that I hated so much.

"Listen…I think that you should know that your uterus was damaged, badly," he started.

"What does that mean?" Haru asked clenching the blanket in his hand.

"It means that she is unable to have a child without putting both of them at risk," the doctor answered.

"Not have children?" my body began to shake. If it was one thing I wanted from a long relationship it was a child…and now Akito took that away from me?

The doctor stood up and left without another word. Haru stood up and paced for a minuet.

"What's wrong Haru?" I asked worried that he wouldn't want to be with me since I couldn't give him children.

"Well, I just learned that you can't have kids. Do you think I'm okay?" he snapped.

As soon as he realized what he did his face softened and he came over and held me in his arms. "I'm so sorry baby, I didn't mean to. I'm just scared for you."

I embrace him back crying into his sleeve. He pulled me off his body and looked me in the eyes.

"Why are you crying?" he asked wearing a worried look on his face.

"I can't give you kids! I wanted to have a kid with you more than anything, I wanted to raise a child and teach it right from wrong. Now Akito took that from me! I can't give you a child!" I sobbed grabbing him again.

"Rin, it's okay. Don't worry," he cooed stroking my head softly. "Having a child isn't the number one thing in my life, you are. Since you're okay I'm just fine. There are other ways to raise a child; there is no way to replace you."

My blurry vision only allowed me to see his beautiful smile. I cried even harder because of his kind words.

"Why are you crying Rin?" he asked getting worried. The tone of his voice changed from calm to concern.

I laughed a little; it was cute how he knew so much about how to win me back but nothing about happy tears.

"You're so sweet!" I exclaimed hugging him tighter.

Haru laughed and kissed my hair. He climbed into be next to me and we fell asleep. I had wonderful dreams about raising a child with Hatsuharu Sohma…the man I love and always will.

A/N: It's at the bottom again! Lol. Well, this isn't the end rest assured! But it will get really good so that you guys know! . hope you enjoyed my version of the uncursing of Rin and Hatsuharu Sohma! . Any criticism, etc. always welcomed!

Love,

Rin-chan