IsuzuForever: Here's Chapter 10!!!! . squee

Haru: What the hell is your problem?

IF: What ever could you be talking about oh Haru?

Haru: STFU

IF: You're just mad that I made you a slut! hits him a little

Haru: Damn Straight! Why did you make me sleep with Akito?!

IF: For the sake of the story! We all must make sacrifices!!!

Haru: Yeah, what are yours?

IF: Time?

Haru: Yeah right! You love taking time to torture me and everyone else in your stories!

IF: mutters that's beside the point… .

Haru: You need a life seriously…

IF: Would you like me to start with yours? pulls out knife

Haru:+ meep+

A/N: Sorry for the delay! My internet was disconnected and stuff but now it's up!!! I typed this while it was down!!!! thanks for all the compliments and reviews on the last chapter!!! I would like to say thanks for Chi and Shaffer (ann. reviewers sadly) since I can't thank you both by mail, this seems to be okay. Thanks again everyone!!!

Chapter 10

I moped around Gure's house all day. I didn't want to do anything at all. All I wanted to do was eat and sleep. My depression took a nosedive into deeper waters. Yuki saw me trudging through the kitchen, he tried to talk to me but I only glared at him. He didn't quite get the hint though.

"Isuzu…you need to talk to Haru…he's a mess without you," he tried to convince me to talk to Haru.

"You think he's the only one suffering?!" I yelled snapping my head around. "He slept with Akito! How am I supposed to look at him the same way?!"

"If you truly loved him then you would forget about that! He slept with her to protect you!!" Yuki retorted. "You're being selfish and childish right now Isuzu!"

"Fuck off rat!" I screamed building an invisible wall between us.

"Yes…that's what you always do…" He let out a small laugh. "You insult us all and expect us to back down. Haru is different. Should I remind you of all the times you pushed him away from you?" Yuki asked leaning back.

He seems more confidence…wonder what happened to make that come about? I silently wondered throwing a menacing glare at him.

I sighed to myself and continued my march upstairs. The blanket I had made a cocoon out of was slipping off my shoulders and causing me to trip on my way up the stairs. My body felt sluggish, my eyes were weak, and my mind racing.

Should I forgive him? After all, he did it to save me…but it was AKITO! How could he sleep with him- her- it? Despite the fact that he knew what Akito did to me he still slept with her! I just don't know what to do anymore…

It was a good few minuets before I heard Gure-Nii calling my name.

"Rin! What are you doing?" He asked pointing out the fact that I was sitting on the stairs instead of walking up them.

"Huh?" I stupidly said pulling out of the trance I had set my mind in.

A small, dark, devious thought was born in my mind.

I should tell Gure about what happened between the two…hehe…Let's see what he does when he finds out his precious Akito slept with Haru!

Shigure looked at me for a second as if I had three heads. I turned my eyes to him, making sure my look was evil.

"Shigure…do you know what Haru and Akito did together?" I asked pulling the blanket up on my shoulders.

I was waiting for a look of suspicious and suspense, but there was no trace of such a look.

"Yeah, why?" he returned.

I was at a loss for words…If that doesn't devastate him…then what the fuck is wrong with him?!

"This isn't the first time Akito's been unfaithful with me. Rin, the past is none of your business but me and Akito aren't known for our chastity," Shigure let out a laugh that sounded sincere but I could tell a piece of him was hurt by the past.

I cocked my head at him, I wanted to know more, but knew that he wouldn't tell me if I didn't ask.

"What happened?" I inquired, curiosity killing my cat.

"Rin…that's none of your business, I already said that," he replied turning back to his study.

I huffed before turning to finish what I started, that was walking up the stairs. I climbed the stairs, each one felt like a mile. When I finally reached the room me and Tohru were sharing I let out a gasp…

"H-H-Haru…" I managed to spit out.

How does he do that?!

Hatsuharu Sohma was sitting on the bed that I was going to nap on. The sunlight spilled in and gently hugged his beautiful figure. He looked up at me as I spoke his name. I saw his bloodshot eyes, his pale hands and desperate iris's.

"Rin…please believe me…I love you, I wanted to protect you…that's why I did it," He apologized advancing to me.

I turned the other way. Staring at the ground the pain of Akito's meeting hit me all over again. Just knowing that he was making her love the movements of his body…it sickened me.

"NO!!" I screamed slapping his shaking hands away. "You slept with her and you expect me to forgive you?!?" I questioned watching his heart break as mine crumbled at the site of him breaking like glass.

"I don't expect you to forgive me right away, I just want another chance….Please give me that?" Haru begged on his knees.

I bit my lower lip and stared out the window as he clung to my legs in forgiveness.

I don't know if I can forgive him…I thought trying to hide the tears that streaked my pale cheeks.

"Rin…please let me make it up to you..?" he asked this of me.

I didn't know if I could let him make it up to me…but I did anyway.

"If you screw up this time…there are no more chances…" I gave him the ultimatum, screwing up means he loses me forever.

I was scared that things would be good for a while and then he would lose interest in me…although it never happened before, there's a first time for everything.

I moved back into our house that night. Even though I was willing to work on forgiving him…he slept on the couch. I think it would be a while until I would invite him to sleep on our bed. At this point in time I was calling all the shots. If felt so weird to be in total power, rather then being balanced.

"Haru, I don't like this…" I finally admitted one day when we were walking around downtown.

"Don't like what?" Haru asked paranoid, almost as if I was going to break up with him right then and there.

"Not being equal. I don't like having to tell you what to do to get my forgiveness. If you want to be forgiven by me it should be from your own thoughts, not mine. So from here on out we are equal and if you want to be back to normal then you will have to come up with it on your own…" I explained.

Out of nowhere I felt Haru's arms fit my form and his breath quick on my left cheek. He held me there, in the middle of the sidewalk outside of a bakery shop, kissing my forehead and apologizing to me.

"Haru…do you want to go back home?" I asked him as I was growing tired of being outside anyway.

"Sure," he agreed.

We caught the bus home, there was almost no one on there since it was mid-afternoon on the weekends, and everybody was downtown already.

I felt Haru's hands race to my face and cup it gently the moment before his kiss came crashing onto my rose lips. It felt right to be on equal ground again, this kiss was the proof that we were equals again.

The door flew open as he came rushing through it. Our kisses were quick and passionate, nothing short of love-filled. I knew that. Haru kicked the door closed with his booted foot and began to strip me down. I threw his clothes in all directions as our fragile bodies scrambled for the bedroom.

His lips kissed me, bit me, and loved me. I kissed him, bit him and loved him back. We didn't have sex…no we made love. This was the kind of love my body cried out for in those lonely nights in our bed which was always empty. This was the kind of love that most people can only dream about, and it was in my grasp. In fact this love was begging for me! I had this love from the start.

Why was I so blind to this before? I had him all along, I'm never gonna let go now. I thought stroking rebellious strands of pure white hair out of Haru's face.

"Haru…do you love me?" it was the same questioned I've asked a million times.

His face was buried in my shoulder. He pulled it out of its burrow to answer me.

"Of course…I'll always love you, even if you left me cold I could never move on. You'd always be on my mind and in my heart," Haru answered as his lips met mine in a battle of passion.

Oh dear god…I love you Haru…more than anything! I'm willing to accept anything you've done just to be with you like this…just like this.

I wish that time had been temporarily suspended for only a few hours more. I needed all of him…nothing less…all of him. I need him more than I need to be alive…I love him.

I brought Haru's face to mine. A big kiss rewarded him. I turned his ear to where I could whisper in his ear.

"I forgive you…" I finally said biting his ear lobe.

A/N: This is not the end!!! I have another, if not a few more, chapters left!!! I hope you enjoyed this one a lot! I really loved writing this one especially!!!! . R&R I love to get feedback from all of my loyal, and new readers!!!

Love,

Rin