Ok, this part is for isaac. hope you enjoy it again!

CHapter 4 - Almost the same but very different

It's saturday, for emily it means much more than a normal weekend. After a very succesful sleepover yesterday, she finally let herself enjoy and relax with her reunited bestfriends. They had pillow fight, makeovers, dress ups and non stop chatting, catching up with their separate lives. Emily talked about her relationship with maya and Isaac but very briefly. Aria talked about how she met ezra and what happened in Iceland for the last three years. Hanna finally told them how she loosed all those weight. Finally spencer told them how she is scammed by her so called mother and everything about wren and ian. Every now and then they stop and think about if ali is still here. Will this sleepover still be the same? They pretty much can answer it. No. aria literally avoided ali the last few days of their seventh grade days, generally they are all just relaxed that no one is pulling their strings now. They can say no to each other without feeling any awkward or anything. They are just being themselves in their pajamas. Even though emily still misses ali she knows her friends are right. They are much better of without her. But still being thankful to ali because they bring the four of them together.

As emily got out of her car and stare into the church, she felt goose bumps and remembered the day she first met isaac. How she walked inside all feeling nervous and how isaac's band starts to play "nobody's home" by avril lavigne. How isaac stare at her and make her feel she is the only girl watching them, the electricity that pulsating every part of her body. While thinking all these, she didn't notice she was already inside and isaac's band are getting ready. Someone shouted "20 minutes more to go before play time isaac!" "I'll be back on time" isaac shouts back.

"Hi emily" isaac said while catching his breath. "Can we talk here?" gesturing a little private corner of the church.

Emily nodded, feeling stupid because the boy looks really cute from his fitted shirt to his worn out jeans and that dazzling smile. But she composed herself as isaac starts to talk.

"Thank you for coming em. I really appreciate it."

"No problem. So what do you want to talk about?"

"I just want to apologize again. I mean from not trusting you about my mother."

Emily shifted to her feet, anger rise through her, but commands to control herself, then said "its ok, I know it's not easy to believe what I just told you back then. That's why I came."

Isaac smiled and pure glee just radiated out of his body. "Thank you emily. You don't know how bad I felt when you didn't accept my apology the first time around. I promise, I will make it up to you." taking emilys hand to cup it up with his hand. emily was surprised but she let isaac take her hands, at first she felt nervous but after a split second she feels nothing. She remebered when she first felt like this. When she and toby go out in a dance and toby holds her hand. It felt like this, like holding her sisters hand. Nothing special.

"Can we start over again?" isaac asked emily without breaking his stare. emily couldn't answer, she is still contemplating why do his hand felt nothing in her hand? Forcing herself to answer "uh wait isaac, please lets not rush into things. Let's talk for now. please." jerking her hand away from his grip. Not looking at his eyes. Where are the electricity that passes through her body whenever isaac is in front of her? Does this mean what she thought this is? Just a strong crush? Very strong crush, strong enough to make her sleep with him?

"Oh, I thought it's gonna be ok again" emily looks back into isaac's eyes. Wanting to see if every thing he will said is the truth.

"I have no idea you have someone stalking you. After all the things that had happened on you I waited until im sure you are ok."

Emily just listened, still looking into his eyes.

He continues, "When I was watching the television and saw you there and you told all those reporter you are coping with everything, I sighed and felt very relieved. At least I know youre ok." something in emily's memory stirred. Something that maya said on the cemetery when she's been looking for her, "im really worried about you. The media still airs your story and im not satisfied when you say you're ok on all of those interviews you have with them. I have to see you personally to keep me calm."

Tears filled emilys eyes. Not because of what isaac said but what maya said. She only has a vague idea of why she's feeling like this right now. But isaac interrupted her. "Hey don't cry im here now. You're safe" mistaking emilys tears have something to do with him. Feeling someone is hugging her, she gave in just to have someone to cry into. After 5 minutes of sobbing she mastered herself and said thanks to isaac for keeping her company. He then indicated that they should probably head back in front so that he can check in with his band. "Thank you for believing me." isaac whispered before heading to the stage. emily just stared at his back lost at words. She didn't mean to send in mixed signals to the guy. She is just overpowered by the force of maya's word over to her.

Opening tune of "vanilla twilight" by owl city is now being played by isaac's band. He winked at her and she smiled. She doesn't affect her like he used to be but still he is cute. She can't deny it. As the lyrics of the song pored over her,

"But I miss your arms around me"

"It's not the same without you, because it takes two to whisper quietly"

"The silence isn't so bad till I look at my hands and feel sad, because the spaces between are right where yours fit perfectly"

Emily couldn't take any more of it. She misses maya. The song is teasing her. She remembers how they snuck up to the forest and sit at the two rocks just to find some alone time. Flirting, touching and kissing. She felt so free with maya. and now all her secret is out, she asks herself "what's holding me back?" she knows the answer and she heard it a while a ago. waiting for the bands set to end which she felt like an eternity isaac walks through the crowd to get to her but to no avail he's been cornered by a lot of girls and emily smiled to herself because she knows this will happen and just want to see if her instinct is right to what she may feel. Nothing. No jealousy. Smiling and being stupid she waited for isaac to finish talking to the girls and be in her front.

"Sorry bout that em. You enjoy our set?" chuckling and smiling to emily.

"Oh yes, loved the first song. But I have to tell you something important."

"What about it?"

"We can't be together again. I forgive you just to be my friend" emily said while holding her gaze with his eyes.

"What? What is this all about? Is it something I said?"

"Yes, but its me. Ok? ive been thinking about it but i just want to be your friend. Hope you can accept that. Please?"

"Why?"

"I just realized something for this past few days, im sorry but I cant talk about it all right now."

"There's no changing in your mind is there em?" chuckling sadly, isaac stares back and knew from the look in her eyes that they are just friends. No more into it. He screwed it up.

"No, im really sorry. I need to go now isaac. Bye. Thank you for accepting me." as she steps back and starts walking to her car, she can feel his eyes were still in her. Looking back emily smiled and waved, and so did isaac. Looks like he understood emily. She starts the engine and pulled back to the parking and starts to make her way home feeling she finally figured out who she is. Once and for all.

I know the song is a little way out but this is the best song I found to express what emily is feeling on that moment...hope you continue to enjoy the story! please no bad feelings for isaac and emily fans there!