nothing exciting will happen in this chapter but still very important...please read to know...

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Chapter 5 - No more lying

Where is emily? Hanna is pacing up and down on their front porch. The girl called and said she needed to confirm something to me and badly needed help. if she could come to hanna's house and talk. Of course hanna is ok with that. She has a feeling of what the subject of their conversation will be. The problem is 20 minutes had passed since emily's call. Her house is just about 10 minutes drive. so nervously hanna continues to pace up and down in their porch. Finally a volvo is pulling up in their driveway. Sighing, hanna goes to the car and greet her friend.

"Hey, you ok?" hanna poked her head on the passenger window.

"Yeah, um I think so. I just need your opinion about something." emily answered while detaching her seat belt and climbing down the car.

"Sure. Come on. Let's go up on my room. Looks like it needs to be private." hanna winks.

Chuckling, "yeah, thanks hanna." emily followed hanna inside their house. Feeling a little nervous of what she is about to tell her. Why did she go to hanna and not to the other two? Because she saw you the other day being jealous, she answered herself. Trying to breathe properly to let her relax even a little, it's no use. She's super nervous. Having reached hanna's room and sitting on the edge of the bed, she started.

"I saw isaac today."

A little surprised, hanna thought the object of this little meeting is maya. But then, if she's curious earlier she is now extremely curious. What does isaac plays in this meeting? She knows emily dated him a few months but she thought its just a fling. Then she answered "oh, so how are you guys? You back together?"

"No, I just forgave him for not believing me. And told him I want to be just friends." answering hanna while staring at her shoes.

"Good, I don't like that isaac guy. So what is this all about?" hanna chuckled.

"You don't like him? Who do you want for me?" emily asked seriously.

"maya." she answered simply.

"Oh, why?"

"Because I know she still cares for you. Even though you really hurt her like hell. sorry." remembering the reason why they broke up.

"No, its ok. Its really my fault. I give in. im just really confused at that time. With all the pressure from A. but hearing what we heard the other day. Makes me thinks I don't deserve her."

"Do you still like her?"

"Yes. I didn't tell you but maya and I talked after I buried all those memorabilia in the cemetery."

"Why is she there? How did she find you there? I mean no one knows where you will be going there right?" hanna spluttered but at the same time pleased. Looks like she is right about maya.

"She wants to make sure im ok. She said she wants to see me personally if im ok, that would keep her calm because she does not believe all the crap ive said in those interviews."

"Wow, that so sweet of hers. She looked for you everywhere?"

Emily nodded, tears brimming in her eyes. "isaac also said that to me. Please tell me if im right. he said he waited to see me if im ok before talking to me again."

"Is he texting you? How did he know you're ok?" hanna interrupted.

"He's not texting; he just relied on the media. When I said on those interviews im ok he believed it." finally looking up "he relied on the media not bothering to call me or look for me while maya literally search the whole rosewood to just see me. After maya said her piece she just walks away. She also said she knows im not yet ready so she will still wait."

"So what's the problem em? Looks like you have a clear winner." smiling triumphantly. She's right; the guy is a jerk and very happy that she is right about maya. How sweet is that, looking on the whole town to just see emily and make sure she is ok. Even in school she is doing it.

"You think im right?"

"Absolutely em! maya still really cared for you." smacking emily's arm. But she thought of something. "Uh is maya seeing another girl or something? Because I keep seeing her at school with a particular girl and they look like they are having fun. Even sweet."

"Well no, I don't know. I know the girl likes her. But you know han, I think you're right. maya still wants me." emily answered while smiling. How come she forgot the most important thing she heard back there? Didn't she heard maya said I am different? And she is still waiting

"God, im stupid."

"why em?"

"She rejected that girl because of me. I heard maya said that. Back when you saw me crouching on their driveway. That's why the girl lean in to kiss her but maya didn't give in." grinning stupidly at hanna. But hanna understood completely.

"So what are you still doing here dope? Don't let maya keep on waiting!" pushing emily to stand.

"Wait one more thing; this is the real reason im here. if I pick maya everything will change. Can you guys still accept me? My life would be much easier if I just pick isaac. At least im normal." emily pointed at hanna.

"No emily fields! You will not be normal because you are not being true to yourself. And of course aria and spencer will still be there for you. Your mom finally accepted you right?" hanna said in one breath to make sure emily got her point.

Sighing "yes, but this time this is for real." emily said very seriously. "I don't want to let maya think im ready but deep inside im still doubting who I am. I want to be 100% sure of what the consequences im going to make. this is a very hard decision hanna."

"So? emily whoever you date is ok for us. As long as you're happy and the person is not a jerk, boy or girl." hanna stated simply. emily couldn't believe what hanna just said but makes her body feel all warm and very happy.

Hanna continues, "em if there's one thing I learned from all this fiasco we have gone through, its to be true to yourself. Nothing will come out good if you just keep on lying. That's why it became so easy for mona and ali to ruin our lives. There are so many lies there." emily just stared back through her friend while thinking what she just said.

She lied to herself about what she wants. Aria lied to her family about what's really happening. spencer lied to her sister about what she's doing behind her back. And hanna also lied to herself for believing that popularity is everything, that she is not fabulous even though she is a little chubby and that is a downright lie.

Emily hugged her best friend very tightly. Trying to convey and let her feel every emotion she's feeling right now, happy, relief, joy, ecstatic but mostly the feeling of being free. Of being to finally reveal the whole world who emily fields really is. hanna hugged emily too. Happy that she helped emily figure herself out.

"han, I don't know how can I thank you enough." releasing her from the bear hug and looking directly at her eyes so that she knows she is dead serious of how grateful she really is.

"I know how you can repay me. Big time!" hanna replied mischievously.

Emily just stared hanna questioningly. A little nervous about what she is about to request. But eager to do whatever is it just to be fair.

"Get together back again with maya. now." hanna smack her friend again then hug her. "Just be yourself" she whisper. Then kisses emily's cheek.

"You don't have to ask me. I will get her back." emily answered beaming.

next chapter will be about the two of them...hope you still want to know what will happen! thank you for all the reviews!