I know why Ulquiorra is so cool. It's because he's the only guy that could ever pull off coat-tails. Seriously, it just makes him hotter. *Lays back, daydreaming.* But that's besides the point. Grab a box of tissues, this chapter is not exactly rainbows and blue skies. As you will notice.

Disclaimer: Nada, gomenasai.

Music: Tears Of An Angel

Onto the story.

Nightmares

I shot up in bed, screaming. When I finally realized that it was just a dream, I curled up, grabbing my hair. I slowly rocked back and forth, calming down. This time I'd killed my mom. I leaned my head into my hands, I needed to stop blaming myself. There was no way I could have saved them, or at least that's what I was told. I didn't truly believe it, but I had to try. I glanced at my phone. 2:30 in the morning. I hissed at the light and dragged myself out of bed. Wandering across the room to the light switch. When the light turned on it lit up my neon room. I'd repainted the room in a splatter of colors when I realized that it would help me feel happier.

I pulled a book off of the medium sized, wooden shelf in the corner at random. Flipping it around I realized that I'd picked New Moon. I looked at it incredulously.

"Screw you!" I screamed at any god who was listening. Did they think that screwing with my mind was funny or something. For their information it wasn't. I then realized how stupid I was being. When I really thought about it, it was funny. I collapsed in a fit of giggles. I looked down at the floor when I finally stopped laughing. Sometimes I wished that I could act like this around others. I'm just too afraid of losing more people though. I mean, what's the point in making friends, only to lose them? I frowned, my good mood dissipating. I glanced at my phone. 3:00 am.

I looked at my bed, and breathed in deeply. Trying to quell the fear the was rising up in my gut. The thought of sleeping scares me, okay! Yes, I know that it's unnatural and kinda creepy, but I don't like to sleep. When I sleep, I dream. Dreaming means nightmares, but I needed sleep. If I don't get enough sleep bad things happen.

I wish that I didn't live alone.

I'm only making this short in order to kind of....set the stage. The next chapter will be out tomorrow night. :)