Disclaimer: I do not own Sailor Moon or Gundam Wings. There will be notes included at the end of the chapter for things that don't belong to me.
Note: This story is supposed to take place roughly 6 years after the battle with chaos. If there's any grammar or spelling errors, please do not hesitate to correct me. I've been writing this story over the span of 3 months sporadically, always around 3am. There's only so much that spell check can help me with XD;;
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Awakened
Introduction Part. 3
She felt herself come to, machinery beeping in her subconscious. She opened her eyes to darkness. She wondered where she was.
"Hime."
That voice. It sounds familiar. She turned around and saw the silhouette of a person, a male. Tall and lean. She squinted, trying to make out the figure. Fog immediately surrounded them as the male began to walk closer. She felt anxious, as if she knew something was going to happen. She wasn't sure if it was going to be good or bad. "Who are you?" She asked, her anxiety increasing. The male kept walking, never answering. Strange feelings began to overwhelm her. She felt as if she knew him, but she wasn't sure from where. At first she thought it was Mamoru, but she was sure it wasn't. His hair was different. But something told her that it not being Mamoru was a good thing. That this person was different from Mamoru. That he was more important than Mamoru. So many different emotions were coursing throughout her body that she felt like crying out of frustration. She didn't know what was going on. She felt tears trailing down her cheeks. She needed to know.
She needed to know.
"What are you to me?" She sobbed. He merely stopped walking. It was too much for her to handle. She didn't know who this person was, yet she felt as if he was more important than her fiancé. She was betraying her destined lover, the father of her future daughter. She saw him die before her very eyes, and yet here she was feeling as if a stranger was more important than him. It was all too much. As she looked to the unknown male, she realized that he was only mere inches away from her, yet she still could not see him. It was as if the fog was purposely preventing her from seeing him. She closed her eyes as the tears kept falling. She wanted this pain to go away. She suddenly felt a hand caress her cheek and her eyes opened in shock. The stranger was wiping the tears away, staring into her eyes. His eyes captivated her, she couldn't look away. She saw his face descend down on hers and she felt time slow. Once his lips reached hers, time stopped. She was shocked and confused, yet she felt her heart react painfully. As the kiss was happening, she felt guilty. Not because she felt like she was cheating on Mamoru, but because it felt right. After what felt like an eternity, the kiss ended. He just stood there, gazing deeply into her eyes.
"Remember."
She blinked and she suddenly found herself at a scene she'd never thought she'd see again. She leaned against the marble railing as she took in the sight of the clear blue lake, the majestic mountains in the distance, the sparkling stars in the sky, with the lovely blue earth overlooking everything. She closed her eyes as the slight breeze caressed her cheek, as if offering her comfort. She felt herself trying to regain her composure, but she wasn't sure why.
"Oh Endymion. I cannot believe this is happening," she heard herself say as she turned around. She found herself face to face with Mamoru—no, Endymion. Once her eyes laid on him, she wanted nothing more than to run into his arms and pretend that everything was ok.
"Queen Beryl is relentless and she'll destroy absolutely everything that's in her way to get to what she wants. I'll fight as hard as I can," Then she noticed his eyes sadden. "but you must know, I might not come back." She felt herself shut her eyes, as if she had hoped it wouldn't come down to this. She opened her eyes once again as she felt him take her small hands into his. "I just hope you know how much you mean to me."
"I do." A smile formed on her face, she knew. She knew all too well how he felt about her. She felt the same way.
"You're in my heart." A pang. She felt a pang in her chest, where her heart is located. For some reason, Usagi felt pained from hearing it. She didn't understand why, but she felt as if he shouldn't say it, that he has no right to say it. That phrase belonged to someone else.
"And you will always be in mine." [1] She felt herself close her eyes, to hide the pain that she felt. She felt wrong saying it, as if she didn't mean it. And as she felt his lips descend onto hers, she couldn't help but let a tear trail down her left cheek.
She opened her eyes expecting to see deep sapphire blue eyes of Mamoru but found herself looking into the Cerulean eyes of her own. She looks away from her vanity mirror to view her surroundings. She realizes that she is in her bedroom in the Moon Kingdom. She feels herself face the mirror again and begins to brush her hair. She stops when she hears a knock on the door, and hears herself beckoning the person in. She sees the past Minako walk in with a hesitant look. She feels herself motion to the bed and Minako follows.
"My dear Minako, to what do I owe this pleasure?" she heard herself say. She winced, her words sounding too formal to her ears. She saw Minako wince as well, and realized that the words were too formal for her past self too.
"Serenity, what happened today—"
"Do not fret over it, it was all a harmless joke. All in good humor," She felt herself say. "Besides, what goes on in your personal relations is of no business to me."
"Serenity, there is nothing going on between me and him. We are just good friends. He came to me for advice and I gave him a hug for comfort," Usagi felt her past self suddenly clench her fists. She began to wonder if something happened between Minako and Mamoru in the past. She couldn't think of anything else that could have made her past self feel so betrayed. "That's all. Nothing happened."
"Minako, you don't have to prove anything to me. I'm not here to judge either one of you. You both are dear to me, and both of you have my blessing." She felt herself turn around and began to brush her hair again. From the corner of her eye, she saw Minako get up from the bed and walk to her side.
"Serenity. I swear to you that there is nothing between us. I do not see him in that way. He doesn't care for me as he cares for someone else." Usagi felt herself stop at this. "I would never betray you like that." She saw herself put her brush down and slowly turn around to face her.
"How would you betray me?" Minako just looked straight into her eyes. Usagi felt like she could see right into her soul, and she felt exposed.
"I know how much he means to you. I would never take him away from you." At this, she felt her past self sigh as she got up from her seated position. She began to slowly walk to her window, and Usagi felt her jumbled emotions. After what seemed like forever, she finally felt herself speak up.
"Minako. You are my close friend. We have been through so much this past year. I feel the closest to you out of my inner court. I have been seeing Endymion for almost a year. We are engaged to be married. He loves me as I love him. He is my true love. Believe me when I say that the soldier is nothing of mine." Usagi was surprised to learn that this discussion was about a soldier. She didn't know what to think. However, Minako looked disappointed.
"Is that all he is to you? Just a soldier?"
"He is just a soldier, who at one point was assigned to protect me. That's all. He means nothing to me." She heard her past self say those words clearly, yet she noticed that those words were the opposite of what she felt. Before she could dwell on it, she heard Minako sigh sadly.
"If that is what you wish to believe. Just know that you can't run from the truth forever." She saw Minako bow and exit the room. She felt herself begin pacing back and forth, sighing furiously.
"I don't know what that Minako is talking about. Always making things up. She's the senshi of love, yet she can't get this right. I love Endy, not that damn soldier. Endy's my one and only, not that unimportant soldier. I could care less about him. Even if I saw them kissing I wouldn't care!" She heard herself exclaim. However, she felt something drip down her cheeks. She touches her cheek and she's surprised to see tears. She felt her past self start chuckling in disbelief. "Why am I crying? I don't care about those two. I love Endy." To Usagi, it seemed like those words caused the tears to flow harder. She kept repeating it, but it seemed like the more she declared it the more she cried. She felt herself drop to her knees. Her words began to get weaker and weaker until her tears masked her own words. She kept chanting it as a mantra, and Usagi realized that she wasn't chanting it because she meant it. She was chanting it hoping that it would come true. She never loved Mamoru in the first place. She loved this soldier, and not being with him was obviously tearing her past self apart. She didn't know what to think. Her memories were all lies. She never loved Mamoru, yet that was all she knew. She had spent a fairly large part of her life thinking she was meant to be with her prince, thinking that their love was destined and true only to find out that it was all a big lie. Was there anything else that was kept from her? How would she be able to know? She finally broke down, everything too much to bear. Her sobs merged with Serenity's as one, yet for different reasons. Different pains. Different heartaches.
Notes:
[1] It's the dialogue taken from the anime (episode 39 of the English dub). I do not own it, it is not mine!
So yeah, that's it. 3 more pages to add to the collection [1,724 words, woohoo!]. There's one more part left to the introduction and I won't add the 4th part of the story until I'm finished writing it [yes, I haven't finished yet. I sense a pattern here XP]. I have winter break right now, so hopefully I'll be able to type up a chapter by January. So yeah, hope you guys like it. Remember if I have any grammar and/or spelling errors please don't hesitate to comment and let me know. I also welcome criticism! I like to learn :3
Have a great day! :D
- Jiyuu no Megami
p.s. "I would go through all this pain / Take a bullet straight through my brain / Yes I would die for you, baby / But you won't do the same / No, no, no, no" ~ Bruno Mars "Grenade". I am obsessed with this song and I felt like sharing the chorus :)