"I didn't think you'd be back tonight."

Miguel looked at Andy with unseeing eyes.

"Yeah, whatever."

It was 2am, Andy hadn't fall asleep at all. He just sat at the kitchen table for about two hours thinking about what to do next. But making a thought was hard enough. His head felt so incredibly heavy. Miguel stepped inside and threw himself down to the sofa.

"Are you okay?"

Miguel turned his head towards Andy and looked at him disbelievlingly. "Well, yeah. I'm fine. Best day in my life. You know, my boyfriend, he just cheated on me. But hey, that's okay with me. Honestly."

"Miguel.. I"
"Andrew, honey. I'm drunk."

Andy was desperate. There were so many things to explain, to talk about and Miguel just lay there, drunk. Andy had never seen him so out of control because of alcohol before. But infact, it wasn't the alcohol that made Miguel look so wasted. There had to be something to happen this night. Things wouldn't get easier the next morning.

"You should get some rest..", was all Andy said.

But it wasn't necessary anymore, Miguel already fell asleep. Andy pulled of Miguel's shoes and placed a kiss to his cheek. "Sorry.. Sorry, Mikey..", he whispered. Hoping things would get better Andy decided to try to get some sleep himself. The bed seemed too empty without Miguel, Andy reached out for Miguel's pillow and held it tight. It had the smell of his hair on it and made Andy feel a little bit closer to his boyfriend who was sleeping just downstairs. Andy looked at his alarm clock, minutes seemed to pass like hours. He just hoped to get tired of thinking and that that would made him fall asleep.

After an uncomfortable sleep Andy woke up when he heard Miguel's voice.

"I just packed some stuff. And I guess.." It seemed hard to speak for him. "Guess.. Maybe. We just need a break or something?"
There it was, that typical 'I think we need a break.I think we have to get some distance-thing!'

"Just to get some distance..", he continued.

"Erm.. See, Miguel. I can't do more than just apologize over and over again."

"No, it's okay. Just don't do it anymore."
Did he just say IT'S OKAY?

"Right.. yeah. I won't. You mean apologizing or having sex with a stranger?"

That was definitely the wrong thing to say. Miguel just shook his head.

"It's not like I don't love you. But maybe I should consider stopping it. It doesn't seem to be that good for both of us."

"Miguel, don't say that.."
"Sorry, Andy. I don't know how this is going on."

"Where do you want to go?"
"There might be a little place for a man like me in the City of Brotherly Love, eh?"

Miguel left. City sounds. Voices. Birds. People. Too many people. Laughing. People rushing towards streets. Shopping. Miguel left. Love. Men. Women. Children. Homeless. Andy left alone. City sounds. The city reaches its arms out, puts them around you. But this loneliness won't subside because it's just a broken embrace.

Looking from the window above
It's like a story of love
Can you hear me?
Came back only yesterday
Who went further away
Want you near me

All I needed was the love you gave
All I needed for another day
And all I ever knew
Only you

Sometimes when I think of his name
When it's only a game
And I need you
Listen to the words that you say
It's getting harder to stay
When I need you

All I needed was the love you gave
All I needed for another day
And all I ever knew
Only you

This is gonna take a long time
And I wonder what's mine
Can't take no more

Wonder if you'll understand
It's just the touch of your hand
Behind a closed door

All I needed was the love you gave
All I needed for another day
And all I ever knew
Only you

Only you – Joshua Radin