It took Miguel 4 days to return. Both of them had never suffered that much. Andy had phoned all of their friends asking if Miguel was staying with them, begging them to tell the truth because he was afraid, afraid of not knowing where he was, not being able to contact him sooner or later. And Miguel, he just spend the time on his own, asking questions about life. Thinking, trying to fall out of love. Wishing to be able not to care. But he just couldn't. He didn't want to forgive Andy that easily but otherwise he was afraid to loose Andy, his love, if he wouldn't do it. Where actually he was the one who had been betrayed, Andy had been unfaithful and yet Miguel felt like it was his fault. He should wait for Andy to hug him and hold him tight. Andy should be the one, asking himself that kind of questions.

The feeling that came up in Andy's stomach as he heard the sound of a key unlocking the door, was either the most exciting or the worst, he felt like he was going to vomit. He knew right away that it only could be Miguel. He was afraid of what Miguel was going to say, how he would look at him. Disgusted, callous?

But Miguel just stood there, suddenly smiling but somehow sadly, wistfully. "I just love you way too much."

Andy didn't know what to say, maybe words weren't required now. He just put his arms around Miguel, squeezed him tight, being determined to never let Miguel go again.

"I love you. I love you. I love you, Miguel."

"How can anyone bear that?", asked Miguel quietly.

"What?", whispered Andy stroking through Miguel's hair.

"Love."

They kissed. For a moment the world seemed to hold on, to stand still. No sound. No motion at all.

"I have absolutely no idea."

Quiero que me oigas, sin juzgarme.

I want you to listen to me without judging me.

Quiero que opines, sin aconsejarme.

I want you to tell me what you think without giving me advices.

Quiero que confíes en mi, sin exigirme.

I want you to trust me without expecting something.

Quiero que me ayudes, sin intentar decidir por mi.

I want you to help me without making decisions for me.

Quiero que me cuides, sin anularme.

I want you to take care of me without crushing me.

Quiero que me mires, sin proyectar tus cosas en mi.

I want you to look at me without you seeing yourself in myself.

Quiero que me abraces, sin asfixiarme.

I want you to hug me without taking my breath away.

Quiero que me animes, sin empujarme.

I want you to bolster me up without edging me.

Quiero que me sostengas, sin hacerte cargo de mi.

I want you hold me without bottling me up.

Quiero que me protejas, sin mentiras.

I want you to protect me without lying, sincerely.

Quiero que te acerques, sin invadirme.

I want you to come closer without being an invader.

Quiero que conozcas las cosas mías que más te disgusten,

I want you to know all the thing you don't like about me

que las aceptes y no pretendas cambiarlas.

That you accept them and don't try to change them.

Quiero que sepas, que hoy, hoy podés contar conmigo.

I want you to know that today, today you can count on me.

Sin condiciones.

Without conditions.

Quiero - Jorge Bucay