I do not own Degrassi.

Christmas chapter? Just because it's the season, but I will have the first part be normal time then we will have a little time skip. I have a very good chapter name for this and say, you should all listen to the song, it's very amazing. (: I want this chapter to be extra cute and I want this up by Christmas, Christmas Eve is tomorrow, so I'll be writing my butt of because its 11:13 pm right now, sweet. I hope you all enjoy!

"Well I'll just say, I don't know who's who sometimes and I don't know which one I'm getting those feelings for…"

Clare interrupted before Eli could dare say any more.
"What feelings are you exactly talking about and what do you mean? Eli I am one person, I am Clare Edwards and I always will be. I was born Clare and I will die Clare. Yes, when I party, I have a different name that I go by. Sometimes, I don't like that side of who I am, but no matter how much I want to deny it, it's still me. So if you have feelings of hate, or lust, or love, or whatever towards Nicole, you have it towards me."

Clare was frustrated, for many reasons but there was one specifically that was bothering her. This all started making her think of her 'relationship' with Bobbie. All Nicole was to Bobbie was a sex toy. There was no way that she planned on telling Bobbie about Clare because he wouldn't care. All Clare wanted was for someone to actually care about her, and not to care about the partying. Apparently though that was too much to ask for.

Eli looked speechless, so Clare decided she had enough of this already for one day. She got up and walked out of class before her teacher came in. As she made her way outside she heard footsteps behind her. I will not turn around, I will not turn around.

But of course, as everyone knows, when you tell yourself not to do something, you end up doing it anyways. Clare turned around to see Eli chasing after her. "Eli take one more step and I will kick you in the balls," Clare yelled this. Woah, way to not act like 'Clare'.

"Just calm down blue eyes, I just want to talk," Eli said while slowly walking towards Clare. He had to be careful, since he still planned on having children one day.

"About what? How much you love Nicole and how much you want to party with her. No one cares Eli!" Clare started, but she was not done talking yet. "You know Eli, people have feelings. I don't care how much I part, you better just get used to it if you want to be in my life." This was a side of Clare that no one would see, but she was getting mad.

Eli walked up to Clare and grabbed hold of her shoulders. "I'm not judging you on your partying or whatever, so stop just assuming these things. It's like you're running away from me and I really don't understand why. So can we please just learn to get along?"

Clare pulled Eli's arms off of her and started walking away again. "Yeah I guess we can, but no messing around ok." Clare kept walking away, so Eli asked, "Where are you going?"

"That's for me to know, and for you not to follow me. You can do whatever you want, but I need to have some thinking time."

Eli sighed and said, "I'll just come with, I promise I won't bother you."

(How the hell do you get rid of this kid? I swear, he's like a lost little puppy that just needs to follow people. Oh my goodness, now I'm getting mad. Just keep on walking Clare, he won't follow us… wait, he's following us. Ugh!) Can you stay calm, I realize he's following us, but let him. As long as he doesn't bother us, I mean, me, then it's alright.

Eli kept his distance from Clare; he needed to think to so he didn't mind being a distance away. But when Clare was ready, he wanted to be there so that they could talk. There was something about Clare that made Eli, really want to see what she's like. Eli was so busy thinking that he didn't even really think about where they were heading, then he noticed that they were in a neighborhood, Clare's?

Eli ran so he could catch up to Clare. "Hey, Clare where are we?"

"By my house, I'm not going in, and neither of you. You wanted to talk right? Then we will sit outside and talk," Clare said. She wouldn't even make eye contact with Eli. He felt like it was stabbing him in the heart, he knew this girl for one day. But that one, they talked about their lives. He never opened up to people like that before, it was amazing.

Finally they reached Clare's house. I wonder how I should start this out. I mean, I don't even know what to say to this guy.

They took a seat on the steps leading up to the front door. The first few minutes of sitting there, it was awkward and silent. Finally Eli said what he had been dying to say.

"You know Clare; I really want to get to know you better. I want to know every little thing about you. Your favorite color, and food, and even animal. I just want to know you."

"Well then, I guess we can start, but I'm going to be Clare, not Nicole," Clare sighed while saying this. She was hoping he wasn't expecting to smoke or drink while doing this talking.

"I wouldn't ask for anything more or less. Now let's just begin with answering those questions," Eli said with a smirk. He himself didn't understand why he was doing this, but it's what he felt like he needed to. There was something pulling him to talk to this girl, little did he know, the same thing was pulling at her.

So they started this random conversation. The two talked about everything, and all of a sudden, everything began to change.

3 months later, a week before Christmas.

Clare was irritated, she was feeling jittery, and she wanted to go! So she did what she figured would be the best plan, she picked up her cell phone and made the call.

"Uhm, hello?" the person on the other line answered.

"Eli, you better be here soon because I would like to get to a party eventually!" Clare said. She smiled, because she knew what was going to come next. Eli would complain how last weekend she kept him waiting, and his car wouldn't warm up so he almost froze. Those were exactly the same words that came out of Eli's mouth next.

"Eli, I am ready to go, can you please come get me now," Clare sighed. That boy sometimes…

But she still smiled at the thoughts and memories her and Eli had made. Clare and Eli became great friends and she loved seeing him day after day. Of course, Clare spent much time with Ali and her new boyfriend Drew. But what was even nicer was her new friend Adam as well. Now that boy was an interesting one, and hilarious. But Eli was still the only friend that knew of Nicole, and Clare was planning on keeping it that way.

After about 10 minutes, Clare heard honking outside. Someone was speeding to get here…

(Party time! Wow, it's almost Christmas to, I cannot wait for those parties! Oh and new years, fun fun fun!)

Clare grabbed her black cage heels and her white coat. They went along with the Blue strapless dress she wore, this dress wasn't too short though. It was just a little bit above her knees.

As soon as she got into the car, Clare wished she had a blanket, or something to keep her warm.

"Eli, why is it so damn cold in here!" Clare glared at Eli while saying this. This was torture and there was no way she was going to be able to sit in here. Eli sighed, "Clare it's only a 20 minute drive…" he started to snicker.

"What's so funny?" Clare continued her glaring. "Maybe if you dressed more appropriate you'd be fine," Eli stated with a large smirk.

"You are such a little booger!"Said Clare as she playfully hit his arm. Tonight would be a good night, Clare had a feeling.

Finally they arrived at the party, except the parking wasn't the greatest.

"Do you know if Kats going to be here with Bobby?" Eli asked.

"I know Bobby is, so that probably means Kat will be," Clare said. She wasn't feeling like 'Nicole'. Nicole started dying off, during the week days, so it felt like she would never come out and party. Clare always would have major crashes, where she couldn't focus in school. Clare would miss at least one day a week because of the crashes; they would hurt your insides. Basically, when you crash, you cannot move, or eat, you just do not want to do anything.

"Hey Nicole, cheer up would you," Eli flicked Clare's chin up and smiled at her.
"I just want to have tonight… I don't know"
"Well you will, let's get a move," Eli said. He hopped out of the car and went on Clare's side to open the door for her. He helped her out and they started walking towards the house. This seemed like a very large chaotic party. All of a sudden got a very over whelming feeling. (Let's move a little faster here. I need something to make me feel good) I'm getting there if you could just hold on one moment. Clare used to disagree with Nicole, but lately, if there was a thought from Nicole, Clare wouldn't disagree to it. She was trying to keep her grades up and her social life normal, but what Nicole said, would win.

As soon as they walked inside, Clare searched for Kat. It wasn't hard to find her, especially when she heard Kat's very unique laugh. Clare grabbed Eli's hand and forced him to go with her; she didn't have to explain where they were going though. Eli knew what Clare/Nicole's bad habits were.

"Kat!" cried Clare when she saw here. Clare hadn't seen her in two weeks, which was a long time for best friends.

"Oh Nicole!" Kate hugged her and said, "How I've missed you. Girl, are you ready to party?"
Clare smiled, "I always am, let's get to it."

Kat pulled out a white substance from her pocket and they took a seat at the table. Clare noticed that Eli disappeared, but the inside of her didn't care. She knew Eli would be back to make sure she didn't kill herself. Kat set up four lines.

"Ready, set, go," Kat said while begging to snort. Clare smiled, Kat would always count down. Then Clare started, the way the power burned her nose and made it itch, most people would wonder why people enjoyed this. But then Clare leaned back and just enjoyed it. Then, Nicole came out, and it was time to party.

"I feel great," Nicole said, while getting up. "I want a drink; want to get one with me, Kat?"
Kat giggled before grabbing onto Nicole and pulling herself up. As the girls were walking out, Eli was walking in. "Hey Eli, we're getting a drink," Nicole told him.

"Hey Kat, is Bobby here?" Eli asked, and Kat giggled and nodded.

"I think… he's upstairs," Kat giggled some more. She sounded like a fool, but that's what happens.

"Kat, did you already drink something?" Nicole asked with a smile, Kat was being so giggly.

So of course, Kat giggled more before nodding her head. Nicole laughed and shook her head. As they were getting drinks they heard pounding on the door. Nicole saw Eli and Bobby running towards the two girls. Both the boys grabbed the girl's hands and led them through the back door.

"Excuse me, can you please explain what is going on?" Cried Clare… err… Nicole. She refused to go any farther.

"Nicole, there is no time to explain. There are cops, and this party has way too many drugs. We need to go, now." Eli grabbed her hand and took off. The group of four ran together into a nearby forest.
"Bobby, I'm tired…" complained Kat.
"Not now Kat baby. We will stop soon, but we cannot stop at this moment," he said as he kept pulling Kat along. Finally, they all stopped running. Wow, I don't even know where we are right now. This is a disaster.

"So, does anyone know where we are?" Nicole asked, before sitting down against a tree.
"It's two dark, so… no I can't really tell right now," sighed Eli. He took a seat next to Nicole and closed his eyes. Bobby and Kat took a seat across from Eli and Nicole. All of a sudden Kat started to cry.

"Guys! I left my puppy at home," Kat cried out. Bobby sighed before saying, "Kat…you don't own a puppy, or a kitty. So don't worry."

"Wow, did she drink a lot before I got to the party?" Nicole asked.
"Yeah… oh well." Bobby said, and continued, "I think we all just need a little sleep. We are pretty deep in the forest so no one will find us."

"Can't we go back?" Nicole said. This is not a part of her plan for tonight. Tonight was supposed to be amazing and fun, and being stuck in a forest was not good.
"No, there were a lot of cops. And a party as big as that, being caught around there right now would be really bad. Especially since all of us were drinking and you and Kat are high," Eli answered. Nicole wanted to say more, but she was so tired…

Next Morning

Clare woke up to the vibrating of her phone that she left in her bra. She woke up and felt, very uncomfortable. She looked around to see Bobby and Kat across from her, both leaning against a tree sleeping. Next to her was Eli, who had his head on her shoulder, he was passed out. Clare looked at her phone and it was her weekend alarm she always had set, 9:30 AM.

Clare shook her head; she had such a bad head ache. After looking around, she realized she had no idea where they were. So she did the next natural thing, she started to cry. Could this really be happening?

(Ugh why is it always me?) You? Are you kidding me? This is your entire fault. If you weren't so dumb… (Hold it! You do you realize you are arguing with yourself right? So whatever is my fault is yours to!)

As much as Clare hated to admit it, her inside voice was right. Whatever Nicole did, it was still Clare. Clare had even explained this to Eli three months ago; she and Nicole was one person. Clare mumbled, shit shit shit, to herself as she hit the back of her head against the tree. She then let herself doze off again.

10:30 AM

Clare felt someone shaking her, and she opened her eyes to Eli. "Let's go sleepy head, we have no idea where we are and we need to get going."

Clare could barely feel her body and she really did not want to move. She looked at Kat, and man did she look like shit. Kat had giant bags under her eyes and her hair was a total mess. Then again, Clare doubted she looked any better herself. She stood up with the help of Eli and dusted the dirt off of herself.

"So what's the plan? To just wander around and find our ways open? I don't know about you, but I do not plan on calling home and telling them about this. I rather them just think I'm missing." Clare sighed. Nothing could get worse than this, well it probably could. But the last thing she was going to think about was worse possibilities.

"Do we have another choice?" Sighed Bobby. The silence basically answered that, they didn't have another choice. This time, all four of them really dug a hole for themselves, a big one. And it was going to be very hard to get out of this one. So they took off, wandering around to find their way home.

12 PM

Clare's stomach growled. "Guys, we have been walking around for almost two hours, and I'm getting hungry," she complained. They had made their way into a small town; they had probably ended up on the wrong side of the forest and were now in a smaller town. The city of Toronto couldn't be too far.

(AN; I really don't get Canada, like if Toronto is a city or whatever. Like it's a province? I don't know, it's a city in this story! Lmao.)

Eli sighed before saying, "I guess we can stop for a small bite of food. I really need to get home…"

"We all do. Oh my goodness, my parents are going to kill me," as Kat said this she started to cry.

"Ok quick food stop so we can get home!" Bobby said as they made their way to a small restaurant.

1:30 PM

After food, and going back into the forest, they finally could see the house they partied in last night. But it felt like the house was so far away. "We're almost there guys!" Clare said happily. She wanted to go home and just take a shower, she felt so dirty.

"Thank God!" Kat said, smiling for the first time since this morning. After another 20 minutes, they finally made it to the house. They all said quick goodbyes, and Eli and Clare practically sprinted to the car. They got in and quickly made their way home. "Well, Eli that was a truly memorable night. I'll see ya later!" Clare said, as she quickly hugged him and ran into her house. Clare walked into her house to see cops talking to her parents… (We're f*cked…)

Damn, I really wanted Christmas in this chapter but then I got this really good idea for the story and yeah. (: THIS IS A TRUE STORY, because it happened to me and my friends. The only difference though was it didn't last as long and I didn't get caught for making it home so late. (: Well Merry Christmas everyone!