Hey there! Thanks for taking the time to read even this far. This is my first attempt at fanfiction so comment if you like. Flames are very much acceptable if only for the laugh.
This is a fic from the perspective of a crazed Azula. She is "talking" to a few of her most common hallucinations. Of course since this is all in her head there are no quotations and for an added bonus we do not get to hear what the hallucinations are saying.
Yes I am well aware that this is Tyzula. It's not cannon per se, but I like it nonetheless. I want no flames concerning the sexuality of this fic. End story. Well enough of that. Enjoy... Or Azula will get you.
Disclaimer: Nope don't own ATLA. If I did I wouldn't be studying my history text for a quiz tomorrow.
Love?
That is their secret? That is the reason for their victory?
Psht! You must think me a fool, Mother dearest. I see no other plausible reason as to why you believe I could be so easily deceived. I'm not a naïve child anymore, Mother. Not that I ever was mind you.
No, it was not love. Love makes you weak. It makes you forget the order of things. It clouds your mind. It drives you mad.
Now pain, yes, that I can understand. Sweat, nails, heat, and pleas.
Power? Indeed. The power to please or pain. The power to give and take away.
And fear; lots of fear. Fearing it will never stop. Fearing it will end.
These are the things I understand. These are the things that lead to victory. Whether a battlefield, a political game, or other…Activities; pain, power, and fear are the only tools that the victor needs. They are the fulcrum, weight, and leverage necessary to remove any obstacle.
My heart? What of my heart? Ha! Oh Zuzu, don't you know you can't move what has been removed? It was an obstacle and obstacles are to be dealt with accordingly. Perhaps you should stop conversing so much with Mother in you little corner and learn a thing or two from our Lord Father. It looks as if he has a lesson to teach you yet. Maybe he'll even out your face if you ask nicely.
Oh so you learned of my punishments for the traitors? You know your bored concubine deserved a lesson in obedience. I rather thing you owe me some thanks for that. Does she listen to you? You can never trust a traitor Zuzu, and I for one cannot wait till she turns on you.
Fine, enough if you insist.
NO! I will not discuss…Her. Leave will you, and use the door this time. I'm sick of people dissolving.
…YOU! No. This is not possible. I sent you away! Leave me this instant. Restraints or not I will make you leave. Stop that insolent smiling! No more. You can't be here. I won't allow it. Leave leave LEAVE!
Father, no please don't go. I wasn't talking to you. Don't leave me with her. You can't treat me like this. You can't treat me like Zuko! I'm not weak. I gave up all that weakness. No love. No heart. I'm strong like you! Don't go.
No! You. This is your fault. You made me weak. You made me trust. You made me feel. You made me…Love.
What? Surprised? Didn't think monsters could love? Ha! Weak ones can. All those nights. The fire, scratches, sweat. You never suspected that it was anything more than pain and pleasure. I…Loved. You…Ty Lee.
And you betrayed me. I knew better, but you were my weakness. Damn you, Ty Lee! At least you taught me the most important lesson I've ever learned.
Love is nothing but Weakness, and Trust is nothing but Folly.
Well I hope you enjoyed. R&R or go about your day. Dismissed! Ha!