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Just making this clear…This is not an emo story. It is not based on any true events that have happened to me/anyone I know. It's just an idea that was churning away in my little brain along with all other things that make no sense.

I love happiness.
And rainbows.


Oh and that 'new pet bird' in the first chapter is a way of me saying 'new skank'

On to the story….


Disclaimer: I own twilight. Nahhh jokes I don't

it's the sad truth :(

Waking Up To A Cold Truth

There were faint sirens in the background and the next thing I remember was being loaded into an ambulance and driving off. My body ached everywhere. The pain was unbearable. But I didn't have the strength in me to scream out.

Why couldn't they just kill me now, instead of just waiting?! I yelled inside my head.

Then everything went black

I woke up after what seemed like days, terrified of the horrible dream I had, and tried to roll out of my bed. Well tried to roll out of someone's bed. I opened my eyes fully and took in the room I was in. My eyes were quickly blinded by the fluorescent lights above me. I was quickly reminded of bright headlights, loud music, and lots of screaming. I could feel the ground press against my body as I tumbled over and over again, screaming. I sat up gasping for air, but stopped when I heard beeping noises and a small alarm sounding off. What was that? And where was I? I looked down at my body, covered with bandages, bruises and tubes. I started getting anxious-won't someone explain to me what's going on?

Maybe I am dead. Is this what death is like? I thought to myself, laying back down.

Just then three nurses and a doctor came in. They all looked at me like I was crazy. Except the doctor. He looked really familiar, but I couldn't put a name to his face. His golden blonde hair shined in the light of the fluorescents and his amber eyes examined my body over cautiously. Really he was the most attractive guy I've seen. Even if he is older than me.

"Well Miss Swan, looks like you've finally woken up. Welcome back." He smiled warmly at me and I couldn't help feeling at ease. Well at least for awhile,

"Who are you? Where am I? What happened to me?" I asked in a rush, I need some answers.

"Well Miss Swan…Isabella yes?" I nodded "Yes. Well you are at Seattle Terminal Hospital. I am your doctor. My name is Dr. Carlisle Cullen and we are treating you for head trauma, a fractured pelvis, broken tibia and fibula, shattered shoulder and—"

"Wait, what?! What happened to me? That…It was a d-dream…Right?" Suddenly all the events from that fateful night came rushing back to me and I couldn't keep the sobs from escaping my throat before I broke down crying. It wasn't a dream at all. Oh my god, I'm in hospital, which means so is Sarah. Oh god, oh god…

"Oh god!"

"Miss Swan? Are you okay?" He sounded sincere. Caring.

"Where is Sarah?!" I needed to know she was safe, that she was alright.
"Miss Swan, if you could just relax I will explain everything in a moment. Just lay back down first while we change your IV and I promise I'll give you some answers."

It wasn't until he said this that I realised I was sitting up again. I cautiously lay down again and waited for them to take the needle out of my arm. Once they had removed it and I regained some stableness back, Dr Cullen started to explain.

"Well how much do you remember?" He asked

"I…I remember the party, and singing and…and…" And I started sobbing again. It was like that's all I was capable of.
"Okay. It's ok. Nurse Tina, could you please go get some Tylenol? She'll have a bit of a headache. One of you page Dr Brown-tell him we need to get Miss Swan her own ICU room. Miss Swan? Isabella, listen to me. You're fine. You survived, which is amazing. You should feel happy you made it." He tried to reassure me, but I couldn't keep thinking of Sarah. Where did they put her?

"So we have reports that you and your friend Miss Winbate were driving along the Olympic Highway near Port Angeles when your car broke down in the middle of an intersection. You would have been fine if not for the drunk driver that ran a red light. Do you remember this much?" He pulled a face-almost disappointing- when he talked about the drunk driver. I still couldn't find my voice so I merely nodded. "Alright so you still have your memory. That's a good sign. So this driver drove straight into the passenger side of your car, before spinning off and crashing in a ditch. Whereas your car wasn't as lucky. You were rolled 4 times, before being thrown out the windscreen and being trapped between the car and a tree. You suffered a head trauma, fractured pelvis, broken tibia and fibula in your left leg and a shattered shoulder as I mentioned. And also 2 broken ribs. You've been in hospital for 8 days now, undergoing 4 operations." Wait, what?! I knew I had crashed and all, but really? That was a lot of injuries.

I just hope Spider is okay… I thought to myself

I cleared my throat before talking. "And…and Sarah? What happened to her?" I questioned. If I could cross my fingers I would, but since I couldn't move anything just yet I didn't.

"Err…Well…" Big breath "I am extremely sorry to inform you Isabella…We were going to wait til you were positively stable but I guess we can't put it off any longer,"

That didn't sound good…

"Again I'm very sorry Miss Swan, but, your friend didn't make it. She was announced dead on arrival. We assure you---"

I tuned out of what we were saying. Sarah was…dead? That can't be right. No. No! She could NOT be dead! "You're lying! SHE. CAN'T. BE. DEAD!" No! I tried to get up, but the tubes were stopping me.

Screaming in frustration I ripped the tubes and needles out of my body and got off the bed. Mistake. I forgot I broke my leg. I instantly cried out in pain and fell onto Dr Cullen, causing me to hurt my ribs. I screamed out again before I broke down in sobs. Big ones. Sarah was all I had left and now she was gone. It's not fair, it should've been me. She didn't deserve this. I felt someone rubbing my back in gentle motions and more people coming into the room before I blacked out again.

Two weeks later

So it's been two weeks now since I learned about…Sarah. I finally got discharged from the hospital today and I'm not looking forward to going back home so much. Charlie had come to see me everyday and stayed some nights but eventually his job got in the way of things and his visits became shorter. I didn't notice too much. Everything was in a kind of blur since the accident, it's like I'm there, physically, but mentally I'm dead. I don't see any reason in life anymore, but I have to stay strong for Charlie and Sarah. Even if she's not here no-more I know she would never forgive me for purposefully trying to harm myself, in any way. I tried a few things in hospital sometimes, like pulling out the life support when I needed it, or refusing to let the nurse change my IV but I couldn't really bring myself to do it officially.

When I got home Charlie showed me to my room for the time being. I still had a pretty bad limp in my left leg and I always felt this sharp pain in my chest. They'd held Sarah's funeral a week ago but I refused to go. If I went it would make it definite she was never coming back and I was too naïve admit it.

I was meant to start school again on Thursday (AN it's Wednesday) but I had unsuccessfully tried to convince Charlie to let me have longer off. But since it's been nearly a month he wouldn't change his decision. I spent the rest of the day just sitting in my room staring at the wall. I was still trying to wrap my head around things. I went to bed early that night to get some sleep. I haven't had a peaceful sleep since...The night before the party. I let a few tears escape before shutting down my emotions and falling asleep.

I woke up in a small green meadow. I was totally confused, looking around trying to decipher where I was. I heard someone calling my name, "Bella, Bella! Where are you?! Bella? Bella, I miss you. Come with me. I love you Bells, come with me." Sarah?! I looked around frantically searching for the too well known voice. The voice I'd thought I'd never hear again. I knew they were lying. They had been hiding her from me, trying to make me miserable. I started running to the direction of the voice only to keep falling and tripping on air. "Bella…Come on, run." She shouted to me. Her voice was getting further away "I AM running! I am…Don't go. Wait!"

The voice started to change until it became nothing but a tiny whisper and then disappeared. She was gone.

I woke up with a start. It was just a dream. Of course it was. I laid back down and cried myself back to sleep.

I don't know what's going to happen tomorrow, but all I do know is that it is going to be a long day tomorrow.

And there it is. The horrible truth scene. I hated writing this chapter but I guess you guys are curious to know what happens. Sighhh

You know a funny story… Mine and my boyfriends mums are both Twilight fanatics and so they both came up with the idea that since my gorgeous, loving, super sweet boyfriend who I love and adore, is called James, I should change my name to Victoria….I found it pretty funny. What ya think? Tell me if I should change my name from Madi Kate to Victoria.

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