Harry was snuggled down in his bed, for once his dreams had been pleasant. There was no Dursley's in them but instead they were filled with the smiling faces of his Godfather's. The early morning sun rays peaked through his blinds and crept under his eye lids causing him to stir. He let out an annoyed moan and pulled the blanket over his head and rolled onto his side trying to fall back asleep. But sleep would not come to him, instead his stomach growled from hunger and at the same time he smelt something delicious make its way up the stairs. Figuring that since it smelt good that must mean that Remus was up,lazily he pushed his blankets back and put his feet down on the cold floor. He rubbed the sleep from his green eyes before reaching over to his nightstand for his glasses, his hair stuck up at all angels. The house was quite which meant that Sirius was not yet up so he quietly made his way down the hallway and stairs. He expected to find Remus sitting at the kitchen table with a cup of coffee in one hand and the Daily Prophet in the other but as he turned the corner to enter the downstairs living quarters he saw a mass of red hair in his kitchen,

"Mrs. Weasley?" the boy asked questioningly as he made his way into the kitchen, the woman turned around and looked at him.

"Oh, Harry dear! You're already awake."

Harry nodded in confusion.

"I hope you're hungry, I made some blueberry pancake. Have a seat dear, you still look dead tired."

Obediently he sat down in the chair that Sirius usually occupied at meal times as Mrs. Weasley shoveled a heap of pancakes on a plate and brought them over to him,

"Haven't your Godfather's been feeding you? You look too thin Harry."

His mind was still muffled with morning confusion,

"Where's Sirius and Remus?"

He lifted his fork to cut into his pancakes but than lowered it back down to the table, all of a sudden his appetite was gone. Yes, he had spent loads of time at the Weasley's during his previous Holidays and was used to Molly but now he felt uncomfortable. He knew he was being a baby but he wished Remus and Sirius were there, he only trusted them.

Mrs. Weasley watched him as he played with his food but made no notion to actually eat it, "There's a full moon tonight. But Sirius floo'd me earlier and wanted to know if I could sit with you for the day. They had to go take care of a few things at the Ministry and figured they'd just make a day of it."

"When will they be back?" he blurted out, his eyes now fixed on his plate.

"Tomorrow morning. Harry, dear will you eat something?"

"No." mumbled Harry. Mrs. Weasley was slightly taken back. She had talked to Sirius and he had told her that Harry's summer hadn't been ideal but he didn't go into much detail with her. But he did tell her that Harry was more reserved and quiet than he had been, so when he told her no it startled her a bit. She ignored it,

"If you want Ronald can come over later. I'm sure the two of you would like to see each other."

Once more Harry mumbled a, "No". He did not know what had gotten into him, as the minutes passed he became more and more angrier. He knew that it was the time of the month of Remus but he couldn't help but feel abandoned by his Godfather's. It had only been days since he was rescued from his relatives house, only days since he had started to trust people again and Mrs. Weasley was not one of them he trusted. No the two people who he trusted more than anything in this world had left him without even saying goodbye. Tears threatened his eyes and he blinked them back quickly, he refused to let Molly see him cry. He was being stupid and he knew that but he simply did not care. He wanted Remus and Sirius, not Mrs. Weasley.

The whole time Molly had been standing in the kitchen watching emotions take over Harry's face, she wondered what was going through the boy's mind. What exactly had happened so far in the summer that cause such a change in the boy she once knew. She figured she would try again,

"Do you have any summer homework you need to do Harry? I could help you with it if you would-"

Harry's head snapped up and he looked at her, his eyes somewhat pleading, "No! No. Just leave me alone, please. Please Mrs. Weasley, just leave me alone."

She started to approach the boy but he got up quickly from the table and ran up the stairs, it wasn't until she heard a door slam that she ran her hand through her hair. When Sirius had asked her to watch Harry for the day she was thrilled, now she wasn't so sure anymore.

X

He laid on his bed, tears of frustration laced his eyes. He knew that Mrs. Weasley would be watching him but he wished that Sirius and Remus would have told him when the day was coming. He did not mean to be rude to her, in fact he felt horrible for the way he had talked to her. She had done so much for him and there he was acting like an ungrateful brat. Maybe his Uncle was right, maybe he really was an ungrateful freak who deserved nothing. Sirius and Remus had taken him in and all he had done since he got there was cause grief and made things hard on them. Did he really deserved to be loved? To be treated nicely? More tears threatened his eyes and he grabbed his pillow and punched it.

He was mad at everything that happened to him. Mad that his parents were dead. Mad that he was weak against his Uncle. Mad that he was causing trouble for Sirius and Remus when they should be spending their time catching up and not having to worry about him. Mad at himself for acting like a baby. Mad that there was an underlying fear of Remus and Sirius not coming back to him. He punched his pillow harder and harder as the tears flowed down his cheeks. When did he become such a crying git? Oh that's right, it must have happened at the same time he became weak and couldn't defend himself against his Uncle.

He closed his eyes and pulled the pillow he was punching over his face, in the darkness of his own mind those words came to taunt him, to tease him. Freak. Ungrateful. Freak. No good. Pathetic. Freak.

He let out a muffled yell and screw his eyes tighter. Just when he thought things were finally getting better they slipped away from him. Just when he thought he was coming to terms with his Uncle's abuse he felt himself slipping back to that scared boy on Privet Dr. He hated himself more than anything in the world. He was letting Remus and Sirius down. And the last thing he wanted to do was disappoint them.

X

He woke several hours later with sore eyes and it took him a minute to figure out why. He felt his cheeks flush as he recalled how he acted towards Mrs. Weasley. He wondered if she was still there; still clad in his pajamas he retrieved his glasses that he lost when he fell asleep and headed downstairs. Sure enough as he reached the living room he saw her sitting in one of the over stuffed chairs with a book in her hands, across from her sat Ron. He groaned and caused the two of them to look over in his direction.

"Harry, mate!" the red haired boy exclaimed as he saw his friend and tossed aside the Quidditch magazine he was reading.

"Er, hey Ron," Harry said uneasy and than turned to look at Molly, "Mrs. Weasley, I'm really sorry about earlier. Really."

"It's fine Harry dear." she replied giving him a smile.

Harry stood in once place shifting foot to foot as Ron came over to him and punched him rather hard in his shoulder, Ron's usual way of greeting his closest friends. Harry grimaced and pulled a face as Ron had hit him in a place where he was still sore. Usually Harry was supposed to punch Ron back in the shoulder but he did not so Ron hit him harder, which caused Harry's temper to rise.

"You stupid git!" he yelled, once again surprised by his own anger. Ron looked dumbfounded at his best friend and raised his hand once more, "Get away from me! All of you! None of you understand!"

Ron looked concern at his best friend, "What are you on about Harry? What happened to you?"

"Nothing, n-nothing. Nothing happened!"

And with that Harry ran up the stairs once more to his room where he planned to stay until Sirius and Remus got home.

I hope that everyone had a good holiday! Sorry it took so long for an update. And sorry about the not so good chapter. There will be an update in a few days!