He dozed on and off for rest of the day, each time he woke he ignored the growling in his stomach. The last thing he wanted to do was go downstairs and face Mrs Weasley, and Ron if he was still there. He knew he was acting like a prat but he couldn't help but feel the way he did. He knew that he could trust Molly and Ron but part of him was afraid too; part of him only trusted Sirius and Remus. And they had left him without any warning. He was trying to get over everything, he really was but at the same time he was letting on Remus and Sirius to think that he was getting better quicker than he actually was. The Dursley's words still echoed in is mind, he still flinched at noises and sudden movements, and he had to try his best not to flinch away from his Godfather's touch. He just didn't want to be a bother or pain to his Godfather's so acting like he was getting better quickly seemed like the only solution. He didn't want them to worry about him. And he was also scared that they would get tired of him after a while if he kept on being needy and somewhat clingy. The last thing he wanted was to be sent back to the Dursley's.

The next time Harry woke up the sky was a soft pink and soft mummers from downstairs made their way into his room. His stomach clenched as he realized the voices probably belonged to Remus and Sirius. Would Mrs. Weasley tell them about they way he acted? Would they be cross with him? Would they hit him for his behavior? He had no idea. He pulled the blanket over his head and closed his eyes tight trying to will himself to fall back asleep. He was not ready to face them yet, maybe if he slept all day he could avoid them.

"...I'll go check on him..."

He heard footsteps on the stairs as Remus called back down to Sirius,

"Wait to make the tea Padfoot, I don't want it to get cold."

Harry couldn't make out Sirius' response but clenched his eyes tighter and tried to fake sleep so Remus wouldn't linger. He heard his door open softly and Remus sock clad feet puttering on his floor, "Harry?" he spoke gently.

Harry remained quiet, even as Remus sat down on the edge of his bed, "You awake Har?"

Go away, please. Harry silently begged but was met with cold as Remus pulled the blanket down off of Harry's head. Stupidly Harry opened his eyes and looked into the calm and concern honey eyes of Remus.

"Is he mad at me?" Harry asked, his voice thick with sleep. Remus tilted his head to the side a bit and rested his hands on top of Harry's blanket.

"Why would he be mad at you?"

"For the way I acted towards Mrs. Weasley and Ron," Harry looked at Remus who remained patient and calm.

"He's not mad Harry, nor am I. We are more worried than anything."

Harry felt the familiar pricking sensation tugging at his eyes but he blinked quickly, "I acted like such an ungrateful brat Remus. What of my Uncle was right? What if I'm no good, what if Sirius sends me back-"

"Harry, Harry. Shh," Remus leaned forward and placed his hand on Harry's forehead gently, "He's not going to send you back. He loves you Harry, I love you. We just need to know why you acted like that. So we can understand. Were you mad at us for leaving?"

Harry shook his head and sat up some leaning against his headboard, "If he's not mad than why didn't he come up here with you?"

"He's still talking to Mrs. Weasley," Remus smoothed out a corner of Harry's comforter noticing how the boy ignored his previous question, "Why did you act that way Harry? Were you mad at us for leaving you?"

Harry bit down on his lip and Remus reached out and tugged his lip free from his teeth, Harry averted his eyes to his lap embarrassed, "I only trust you and Sirius..." he spoke so quietly that even with his heighten hearing Remus struggled to hear.

"And when I woke up and you two weren't here I thought maybe-" Remus nodded showing that he was listening, "You weren't going to come back."

"Oh Harry, of course we would come back. I just couldn't be here last night, you know that kiddo."

Harry nodded and brought his eyes up and looked at his former Professor noting how tired and rugged he looked.

"Remus-" Harry took a deep breathe, he needed to tell Remus how he really felt. He needed him to know and understand, "I-I...I still think that I deserved what my Uncle did. I'm scared you two will send me back, I don't want to d-disappoint either of you. I'm not getting as better as you two thought."

And with that Harry covered his face with his hands and Remus leaned forward and wrapped his arms around the boy who flinched, "Thank you for telling me Harry," he rubbed small soothing circles on the boy's back as Sirius appeared in the doorway and raised an eyebrow at the scene before him. Remus ignored him and turned his attention back to Harry.

"You could never disappoint us Harry, Sirius and I are so proud of you. And you did not deserve what Vernon did to you. You're such a good, kind, caring person Harry. But most of all we love you so much and we will never, never send you back."

Sirius made his way across the room and sat on the other side of Harry's bed and put his hand on the back of Harry's neck as Remus held him, "Remus is right Harry. You're never going back there. I have to know Harry why you acted like that towards Molly though."

Harry pulled away slightly from Remus to only lay his head on his chest so he could look at his Godfather, Remus kept his arms around the boy, "I don't trust anyone but you and Remus. I got scared that you two weren't coming back. I took out the anger I was feeling on her," he looked at them both with his eyes pleading, "I'm so sorry. Please don't be mad."

"Oh kiddo, I could never be mad at you." Sirius replied as Harry put his face into Remus' woolen cloak. Sirius wrapped his arms around Remus and Harry and they stayed that way for a while until the sun had finally risen over the small family's house.

X

A few hours later found them in the kitchen with a much more perkier Harry who was making his way through his second bowl of cereal, "Really? A vacation?" he looked anxiously at Remus and Sirius who sat across from him.

"I thought we could both use it and Remus has a cottage that belong to his parents out in the country. We could spend some time there and than head towards the seaside for a while."

"Sirius failed to mention that my parents old house has a small Quidditch pitch in the backyard." Remus added with a smile as he brandished his wand to clean up Harry's now empty breakfast bowl.

"You played Quidditch?" Harry asked putting his hands under his thighs, he loved hearing about when his Godfather's were younger.

Remus smiled, "No but James and Sirius sure did. We spent plenty of time in the summer at each others house and needless to say Quidditch was the only way to keep those two out of trouble. So when my parents got stuck with the three of us for one summer, Peter went to France with his family, my mum got so tired of Sirius and James's shenanigans she talked my father into putting up a small practice pitch for them."

"We weren't that bad, Moony just likes to exaggerate." Sirius said as he walked over and picked up the mornings Daily Prophet, Remus shook his head and looked at Harry.

"They sat my mother's kitchen on fire four times," he tried to hide an amused smile, "Within the first day they were there."

"That was James's fault, I was the good one."

Remus shook his head and decided to get back on topic, "Anyways, we would leave in about two days. I'm afraid I need some time to rest from the full moon."

"It sounds brilliant! I've never been on a Holiday before!" Harry said excitedly, not noticing the somber look that Sirius and Remus shared.

"Well than it's settled kiddo, in two days we will be gone on Holiday for two weeks!" Sirius said with a grin before turning his attention to the paper in his hands. Harry couldn't help but smile, so this is what having a proper family felt like.

X

"Sirius, enlighten me. Why in Merlin's bottom do you need four pairs of swimming trunks?" an annoyed Remus asked as he checked through their bags to make sure they haven't forgotten anything.

"So they don't get dirty?" Sirius replied as he began to load a smaller suitcase full of chocolate.

Remus sighed and ran a hand through his hair before tossing three pairs of the trunks into the discard pile.

"Hey! I need to take the red ones Moony! Those are my lucky ones."

Remus shook his head as he swapped the red ones with a pair of gray ones. His friend could be, well, serious at times but at other times he wondered if he was really looking after two kids. After all Harry's packing had been precise and neat while Sirius had an over abundance over everything and kept fighting Remus when he would pull out the items that were not needed.

"But I need five pairs of shoes!" Sirius had exclaimed earlier when Remus had started checking their packing.

The bottom stair squeaked and Remus looked up to see Harry standing there with a smile on his face, "Are we leaving yet?"

"As soon as your Godfather behaves and stops packing ridiculous things and than repacks them after I have unpacked them twelve different times." he said annoyed but with a smile in his voice as he looked over at an innocent looking Sirius who was trying to hide his suitcase of chocolate so Remus wouldn't see it.

"Want me to help?" Harry asked as he looked from Remus to Sirius.

Remus shook his head with a smile, "No. I believe that it's best to just give up and let Sirius have his fun," Sirius did a fist pump in the air at that, "What I want from you is to be a kid and have an amazing time on your first Holiday. And try to relax and not worry about what happened with your Uncle. You think you can do that for me?"

Harry nodded and than moved over to Remus and wrapped his arms around him in a hug taking Remus slightly by surprise, "Thanks for everything."

Remus smiled and hugged the boy back letting him lean into him, he placed a soft kiss on top of the black messy hair, "You're more than welcome Har."

Harry pulled himself out of Remus' arms and walked over to Sirius and gave him a hug as well, "Thank you Sirius." he whispered. Sirius also wrapped his arms around Harry pulling him into a hug. Over the top of Harry's head him and Remus shared a look, it was the first time Harry had not flinched at their touch.

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