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RPOV
I tried getting into Lissa's head again, but I couldn't. She was blocking her thoughts, and even I couldn't get past that. I hoped it was because she was coming back with Christian, and wanted to surprise me, but with her blocking her thoughts, how would I know? God, I'm so frustrated. My hands were balled as I walked towards my bedroom. I spend a lot of time there, nowadays. It's like I'm a different person. I'm Rose Hathaway for crying out loud! I shouldn't be shut up in my room all the time, not even protecting the Queen, my possible new friend. I should be out protecting Lissa! Fighting Strigoi! And with Dimitri! But Lissa left, Dimitri's gone, and the Strigoi are still out there. It took all of my restraint not to smash one of the ancient portraits or expensive vases while I walked. I just felt so alone, like everyone abandoned me. Then I remembered, not everyone had left me without a second thought. I turned back towards the Guardian Dorms. Whilst at Court, Guardians took shifts protecting the perimeter, and I just hoped I'd picked the right time.
After a minor detour via the office-place which I still don't know the proper name of, I reached what I believed what was the room I wanted. I knocked on the door. I grew impatient after a few seconds, I really am frustrated, then finally, the door opened. "Well hey there," Eddie said with a grin.
"Yeah, long time no see," I grinned back. Seeing my old friend eased some of the frustration I felt within me. Without waiting for an invitation, I walked into Eddie's room. He didn't dispute against it the action, which was wise of him, because if he had, with my current mood, he would've ended up unconscious for a week with a black eye and a broken wrist, and that would be kind. "So what's up?" He asked.
"Nothing much, I'm just in a really bad mood and needed to cool off, so I'd keep your distance if I were you," I joked.
"I'll keep that in mind," he laughed, "I heard about Lissa. What happened?" I tensed at that. "Never mind, we don't need to talk about it," he quickly backtracked. I took a deep breath, "No, that's okay. I should probably talk about it anyway, it might help."
MEMORY
As I woke up, I felt strange, like a piece of me wasn't there. "Come on Rose, it's nothing," I said to myself, but I still couldn't shake the feeling. Getting up, I had to use both of my hands, I felt a piece of paper. "Strange, I don't remember doing homework," again, I spoke to myself as I unfolded the paper.
Dear Rose,
I'm leaving. I'm sorry, but I don't want anyone getting hurt from spirit. Maybe if I leave for long enough, the bond will break and you won't have to take away the darkness.
This probably won't make you feel any better, but Christian is coming too. I wish I could take you but I know you'd try to stop me, that's why I hid my thoughts from you last night, so you wouldn't find me and stop me.
Please Rose, don't come after me. I don't want you or anyone else getting hurt anymore. As a last request, please don't follow.
Your best friend,
Lissa.
I stood still for what felt like years, but then I felt a rage take over me. I threw things, I kicked, I punched, I screamed, until someone finally came in and restrained me. I don't know who it was; all I know is that they're strong. I kept fighting, though, because it's not in my nature to give up without a fight, but eventually I calmed down and stopped struggling. The person let me go, I wasn't going to fight anymore. Instead, I fell onto my bed and cried.
I cried for the whole day. No-one came. I was all alone. I didn't eat for the next three days, and I didn't leave my room. I slept and cried, and nothing else. Eventually, I felt so hungry I had to eat, and I felt that I was neglecting my Guardian duties.
MEMORY ENDS
"Everything returned to normal after that, but I still feel alone," I explained. I looked up at Eddie. His eyes were wide, and he wasn't talking. He just gave me a hug, which I quickly broke off, hugging was not something I was comfortable with. "I'm sorry," he said.
"For what?" I asked, "the hug or what happened?"
"Both I guess," he replied.
"Oh," I said shortly.
"Well, I have to go now, Guardian duty calls," he smiled at his joke.
"Oh, yeah," I got up and walked out with Eddie, "by the way, that was a really lame joke."
He smiled. "Always nice seeing you Rose."
We parted and I walked back to my dorm. I felt better, like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders and I could be myself again. So I changed course towards the office-place. I reached the desk, "Hi, I'm Rose Hathaway, and I'd like to sign up for Guardian duty again." The secretary and I quickly talked out a schedule, which was really flexible. Apparently word had spread quickly about my "mental condition" so I wouldn't be on full Guardian duty until I was better. I felt relieved though, like my life was finally getting back on track, and I could set my reputation straight.
I am Rose Hathaway. Shadow-kissed Guardian who punches first and finds out who I hit later, not a soft girl who cries for days and stays holed up in her room, and I'm not crazy.
AN-There we go, sorry for not updating in ages, but I was busy with school, I was writing some of another fanfic and I had no ideas for the next chapter. Hope everyone liked it! Remember to review!