'Thoughts'

[Russian]

"Talking"

Shiro's P.o.v.

Once we were in Urahara's shop, Urahara looked at me with a curious gaze but did not say a thing until Rangiku glared at him.

"Is there something you have to ask me Captain Kisuke Urahara?" I asked using his full name and title making him wince a little and take out his fan to hide his face.

"Yes that friend of yours is very interesting."

"My brother and you shall not harm him or lay a single finger on him at all nothing not even a hair all you can do is look." I made sure to get it across his head so he had no chance at all to do anything. I looked at my cell phone and saw a couple hollows heading towards Kaito but I left it knowing he would take care of them and no one questioned my actions at all not even going against my behavior and sending someone out towards the area.

"Hey Toushirou when did you get here and how come no one's going after the hollows?" asked the orange haired Ryoka named Ichigo Kurosaki and I felt my self get annoyed but I squashed down my retort.

"Because Kurosaki someone is going to take care of them and unless you want to watch I suggest you don't go. As for me I want to see how far he's gone…" I used flash step and arrived quickly at the warehouses. I caught sight of Kaito as he used a binding kidou on all the hollows and burned them all with his reitsu.

"Kaito you show off, you knew I was here didn't you?"

"Of course I did Shiro. I wanted to show you how much stronger I got since the last time we met and fought. Oh who is this here?"

"Ichigo Kurosaki the Ryoka and substitute soul reaper."

"Substitute and did you say Ichigo Kurosaki was a Ryoka? Hm things sure do get interesting the more I spend time away from you… and Aizen?" I looked at Kaito and then away from him making sure not to meet his gaze.

"That bastard got away and so did Gin and Tousen didn't they? I don't understand Ichimaru for one second… I mean I bet I look real strange to them right now. I mean I'm talking to thin air along with some orange haired kid. How low I've sunken and come to think of it when did they get here?" I saw the people who I knew were following Kai around since he was small and then a few years ago standing behind a box of crates watching him.

"Oi look out Toushiro there's a hollow behind you're friend!" Ichigo shouted and Kaito was scooped up by a hollow and was being squeezed.

"I would put him down if I were you." I told the hollow but it squeezed harder and Kaito smile dangerously at it before licking his lips and cutting the hollow's arms off.

"Do you want to die the easy way or the hard way and please do choose the hard way it's been so long since I last played." He taunted the hollow drawing it into a crazed frenzy. He drew his swords and cut the hollow into many pieces.

"Not even worth my time… Shiro you want to fight me for old time's sake somewhere not here because of those rules of soul society."

"Kai what the hell did you just do and what is up with talking to the air?" some boy with red hair asked and Kaito looked at me with a pained expression that I thought I would never see again.

"Kurosaki how fast can you run in human form?" Kaito asked and Kurosaki looked at him strangely.

"Pretty fast why?"

"On three we make a break for it and you better follow me. Ready THREE!!!!!!!!!!" Kaito grabbed Kurosaki's hand and took off in our style of flash step. They took off quickly and we Rangiku and I followed them to the Shoten shop that Urahara owns.

"Kisuke Urahara it's a pleasure to meet you here." Kaito greeted when the door opened to reveal the ex-captain holding a fan and his signature cap.

"Well I would like to ask a few questions if you don't mind Kaito."

"Sure but let's go inside because my uh… people I know somehow caught up to us." He responded nervously and I didn't like it so I grabbed my gigai and so did Rangiku.

"I hate these I have to stretch and it isn't me. You're lucky Kaito that you have your own." I said as we stepped inside and he giggled a bit before sitting down and taking a cup from Urahara.

"The first is when did you remember your past life?"

"Well I was born into the family of the last name I took which means that because I went under the name of Hiwatari I was reborn with them. So I remembered when the first hollow attacked when I was around five. I was in the abbey at the time so it was nothing new getting hurt. I destroyed the hollow with just my reitsu at that time, and well when I got Dranzer and Black Dranzer back my soul reaper powers awakened and my Zanpakto were created again. So I began sending the spirits of the kids back to soul society and I discovered something strange. While I could use my soul reaper abilities while in my human form my powers got stronger when I left my body when I was killed on accident. Though I always went back to my body afterwards because I was still connected to my soul chain, the usual power limiter on Captains didn't affect me at all. My powers grow with every year that I age so if I aged in soul society I would be stronger. Right now I surpassed myself as a captain from back then. We're about even now Shiro, before I could never beat you and now I bet I get a draw with you." He smiled sadly as he rubbed his left wrist I stared at the jacket and cargo pants he was wearing.

"What are you hiding Kaito?"

"I'm glad that I took your name and you took mine. The Hitsugaya is a good family so if you die you'll be taken care of. The Hiwatari family has many dark secrets and one of them was the abbey… if I die I won't be a soul reaper this time… I'll go to hell." I spit out my tea and stared at him he smiled sadly at me and shook his head.

"The Black Hyorinmaru and Hyorinmaru along with Black Dranzer and Dranzer will no longer be a team." I looked at him as he got up and left to go out back I followed after him to see him wiping his eyes.

"Kaito what's wrong and what did you mean by that?" he looked at me the tears in his eyes glistening and the look of pain in his eyes hurt me. He looked to the left and I knew that those people were back and I didn't want him to deal with anyone.

"I'll answer your questions just ignore them." He whispered as we sat down on the wall watching the sun set.

"I changed from the way I used to be. The way I was isn't me anymore because I've killed so many people, and so many things happened to me. For one I'm not human anymore they did so many things down there in the abbey. It was always dark and cold Shiro there was never anyone who could stay warm. You see while I was the grandson of the owner of the abbey I was trained harsher, experimented on more, kept in isolation cells, I couldn't even stand to look at myself when I got out of the dark. I was afraid of myself and still am. I don't want you to go through what I did so keep the name Hitsugaya please Shiro I don't want you to suffer because I know that even though Voltaire has changed he will go back to being that way. Or someone else like me, Ace, and Boris one of us will become like that whether we want to or not. I just wanted the pain to end but it never will not for me not now not ever Shiro!" He sobbed out I pulled him into hug rubbed his back for comfort.

"It'll be okay Kaito I'm here for you now. You're big brother's come back and everything will be alright again. I promise not to let anyone hurt you ever again not while I'm around." He nodded as he sobbed but other wise did nothing else. I held him until he cried his self to sleep which was something he used to do when we were kids.

"Kaito… I don't know what they did to you and I don't like what they did to you. But I will never turn away from you or leave you when you need a hand. And neither will Black Hyorinmaru and Hyorinmaru. Don't worry I will never allow what happened to us when we were kids in Rukongai happen ever again." I made sure that I caught him when I jumped off and noticed that we were still the same height and still looked like children.

"Shiro thank you but you can't help me so go home."

"No Kaito I can-" Purple rose petals began falling down on me and I began to feel tired. 'No Kaito you can't be using the Kidou Haku Fugu!'

"I'm so sorry Shiro but I don't want you to watch me suffer because my pain will be far worse… see ya later frozen gator…" that was the last thing I heard before I finally lost the battle to it.