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Chapter Four: Surprises

Carlos and I were now an item. And Carlos loved to make sure everyone knew it. He would kiss me in front of guys he said had wanted me back when I first arrived at the Palm Woods. The only two people he didn't dare show it to were my brother and my father. He knew Mike was over protective and that my father hated any boy who liked me. My father might threaten Carlos if he found out he was my boyfriend. When Mike and my dad weren't looking, Carlos and I would sneak kisses or loving glances at each other. Eventually Kendall, James and Logan found out, to their disappointment. We were all still friends though. I had told Kendall and Logan about Jo and Camille having crushes on them and they were interested. Well Kendall was anyway. Couldn't blame Logan. Camille is cool but she can be a nutcase at times. Logan admitted he still liked me, which got Carlos jealous when I smiled and said it was ok. Everything was going great.

I touched my locket my mother had planned to give me before she died. My dad found it among my mother's things with a letter with all her love in it. The locket was heart shaped with small diamonds outlining the edges. On the inside was a picture of my mother holding my brother and I. But instead of looking at the camera we were all looking at one another. I was five and Mike was six when this was taken. I remembering telling her it was my favorite picture. The other side was empty. Just touching it made me feel like my mother was with me. Everyone who knew me knew that this was my only connection to her now. Carlos kissed my cheek when he saw me touch the locket.

"I'm here for you" ,he whispered into my ear.

"I know", I whispered back.

Three months later

Big Time Rush had to go to their album release party and I was invited but I couldn't go. I had to stay and record more songs so Gustavo wouldn't get fired. 'Jerk' I thought. Him and Griffon were both jerks for making me stay here instead of being with my boyfriend and my friends at the party. Griffon is rich and wants more money and Gustavo is using me to keep his job. He only picked me since Big Time Rush has to be at their own party and he couldn't tell the 'dogs' to get in the studio. I sighed. I began to wonder what Carlos was doing at the party when Gustavo yelled at me for slacking off.

After a few hours at the studio I finally got back to the hotel and dropped on my bed. "Ugh" I groaned as my face fell straight into the pillow. Then I felt my phone vibrate. I got an incoming call from Carlos and I answered.

"Hey", I said happily.

"I left the party, wanna hang out?" He sounded weird. He normally sounded happy and energetic, but now he sounded off and a little groggy.

"Carlos are you okay?" I heard the worry in my own voice.

"Why are you screaming?" He sounded angry this time.

"Carlos where are you?" I asked concerned.

"I said stop screaming! I'm outside the Palm Woods" I hung up on him and ran downstairs. I didn't care that I was barefoot. I looked around and there he was, laying on a bench. "Carlos? " I sounded a little scared. He sat up and looked at me. After a few seconds of staring at each other he smiled at me. "Carlos?" Now I sounded worried. I sat beside him.

"What did I tell you about screaming Mia?" His eyebrows got closer together, making him look angry again. Then I smelled it. That horrible stench I despised. The stench of alcohol. The stench that killed my mother.

"You were drinking?" Now I was really screaming. I wondered what that did to his brain. I hope it hurt. The same way it hurt me. Like a knife to my heart. The boy I trusted was drinking just like that sicko that killed my mom.

"Carlos…", I started to talk but I noticed he wasn't listening.

"Carlos…Carlos…CARLOS!" My voice got louder each time. "How could you do this to me?" Hot tears filled my eyes as I spoke. "You know how I feel about drinking! I thought you would never to do this to me! I trusted you completely!" I had just realized I had my hands gripped into his shirt and I was shaking him. His eyes that were usually chocolate brown were black as midnight now as he looked at me with a blank stare.

"I don't know if you'll remember this in the morning, and I don't think I really care, but we're over Carlos", I was lying. I did care. I just couldn't be with someone who could drink. My mother died because of a drunk driver so I cant put heart through that misery. I was nice enough to help him to his room. I knocked on the door and James opened it.

"What happened Mia?" he asked.

I kept my face low so he wouldn't see my tears. "He was drinking…and now it's over.. I have to go", James put Carlos' arm around his shoulder and dragged him into the apartment and I left to mine.

"Where are you been young lady?" my dad asked with a stern voice.

"I'm not in the mood to talk dad, I'm sorry." I then escaped to the comfort of my own room. I layed on my back on my bed, touching my locket. I closed my eyes and all I could see was Carlos' smiling face, hear his warm laugh, remember our first kiss. 'Mia enough!' I told myself, 'if he cant respect the fact that you don't want him drinking then he isn't worth it!'

"No.." I said aloud. "He actually is.." Then I drifted into sleep.

When I woke up I felt a presence in my room with me. My eyes were still closed but that presence felt warm and made me feel safe. I finally opened my eyes to see sad chocolate brown eyes watching me. 'Carlos' my thoughts said in a annoyed tone.

"What're you doing here?" my tone was clearly angry but on the inside I was glad he was there.

"Mia I'm-"

"Save it Carlos", I didn't want to lose him but I couldn't let my heart suffer. But aren't I suffering without him?

"Mia, no," his eyes were serious, and determined. "I wont let you end it like this."

I raised my eyebrows and placed a hand on my hip. "Let me?"

He shook his head, "Mia, I love you please don't do this."

I was shocked, of course. How could he say he loved me when he had gotten drunk?

"No…" I shook my head like a child as I walked into the bathroom. I brushed my teeth and returned to my room to my surprise to find him still there, glued to the same spot.

"Mia.." he said softly.

I found myself beginning to sing a song from The Pussycat Dolls.

"I don't want to stay another minute

I don't want you to say a single word

Hush hush; hush hush

There is no other way I get the final say

Because

I don't want to do this any longer

I don't want you

There's nothing left to say

Hush hush; hush hush

I've already spoken

Our love is broken

Baby, hush hush"

He looked at me in shock. And I knew it wasn't because I was able to hit those notes.

"That's how you really feel?" he didn't look at me. I cleared my throat.

"Carlos, you know how I feel about about drunks. I cant be with someone who drinks." I couldn't look at him either. This time he did look at me and laced his fingers with mine.

"Mia, it was a mistake, I've learned it was a mistake, please forgive me.." I looked up into into brown eyes and he leaned down and kissed me slowly. I broke the kiss and buried my face in his shirt. I started to cry, soaking his shirt in my tears.

"Carlos…I'm sorry.." I said walking away from him. Carlos was quiet for a few seconds then he left.

Two months later

Soon everyone knew Carlos and I were over. Some girls said I was over reacting. I knew I wasn't. What if their mom died in a car accident from a drunk driver and then their boyfriend got drunk? Still think I'm being over dramatic now?

Kendall was dating Jo now, but Logan and James starting going after me again once Carlos and I were over. It's been two months now and Carlos staring dating the brunette Jennifer a month ago. I, on the other hand stayed single these two months. I saw Carlos a lot with Jennifer and it seemed like he was trying to get me jealous or he really liked her because whenever I happened to walk by they were making out. Whatever. I've been spending more time with Logan. Once you get past the whole 'stealing my first kiss' situation, he's a really great guy. We went to Baskin Robbins a few times again but I made him promise to never let us sit in the area he stole my first kiss. He had a condition. I had to go to dinner with him. I agreed, not like I had anything else to do.

I put on my green dress that had spaghetti straps and green heals. They were short heals, I hated shoes with large heals. My hair was in dark curls. Logan said we were going somewhere fancy and I had to get dressed up. He knocked on my door at eight and we got in the limo. One thing Logan hadn't told me was that Carlos would be coming too, with Jennifer. The evil inside me wanted to take off my heals and attack her and smack him for making me hate him. Did I hate him?

We finally arrived at a restaurant who's name I couldn't pronounce even if I wanted to. I was already irritated with Carlos. During the first half of the car ride he looked at me with those adorable eyes, during the second half he was making out with Jennifer until I said "Get a room" and she glared at me and to my surprise Carlos laughed.

We all sat there eating in silence until Carlos spoke.

"Y-you look really pretty tonight, Mia" he said quietly.

I nodded, not wanting him to get the pleasure of hearing my voice again. Jennifer made a sound that sounded like clearing her throat but was really a "ahem" sort of sound.

"Oh you too Jenn", was all Carlos said to her. 'Yeah, you know your mistake' the evil person inside me said. 'But he's hurting' my good side said. Whatever. He deserved to be hurt.

Some people were volunteering to sing on stage and soon they were looking for one more volunteer. Carlos jumped out of his seat like a monkey that found it's first banana. And he went to the stage. The song he sang ruined the whole mood the place had. It had a classy feel and he sang a song from Simple Plan. "I'd Do Anything" That stupid monkey knew it was my favorite song from Simple Plan. When he got to the chorus he held the mic in one hand and walked to me while extending the other.

"I'd do anything,

Just told hold you in my arms"

He sang while holding my hand. Did he really think he'd win me back by singing to me? Yes. Did he really think this was going to work? Yes. Well it wasn't working. Yes it was. I'm here with Logan, and Carlos had hurt me.

"I close my eyes

And all I see is you

I close my eyes

I try to sleep

I can't forget you

And I'd do anything for you"

Right when I was going to hug Carlos and forgive him I felt Logan pull my free hand and pull me into his arms. Confused I looked at him and mouthed "What are you doing?" He just smiled.

"This" he said and pulled me into a kiss.

Well was that enough drama for you? I hope it was! ^-^ Chapter 5 will be up soon! I hope my readers enjoy this story. The song Mia sings to Carlos is called Hush Hush; Hush Hush for those who are interested in the song.