Disclaimer: I do not own Big Time Rush or their songs or the characters from the show…I wish I did! Ha-ha

Chapter Six: Forget You

When I first arrived in L.A I never expected to fall in love, meet people who I would become best friends with, fall out of love and then end up with someone else. I felt really bad about all this. Even while I was with Logan, I thought of Carlos sometimes. Maybe because they have the same chocolate brown eyes.

Soon I felt my phone vibrate. It was a call from Gustavo telling me he likes the song I wrote and he wants me to come sing it immediately to record it for my album. When I ended the call I looked at Logan, then Jennifer, then Carlos and finally Camille. I walked to her and put my hands in hers.

"Camille.. I'm really sorry.. But I have to go now", I gave her a hug and to my surprise she accepted it.

I quickly entered the studio.

"Which song did you like?" I asked Gustavo as I ran my fingers through my hair. I tend to do that when I'm stressed out.

"This one," he pulled up a sheet of paper and handed it to me. I quickly recognized my handwriting. I always wrote in script. It was the song I wrote about everything Carlos and I were going through. Well how I felt about everything going on. I dont think I should be thinking of him anymore. Everyone was right. I need to get over him. I nodded at the paper and walked in the recording booth. I put the headphones on and I heard the music begin to play.

"You make me feel out of my element

Like I'm walkin' on broken glass

Like my worlds spinnin' in slow motion

And you're movin' too fast

Were you right, was I wrong?

Were you weak, was I strong? Yeah

Both of us broken

Caught in a moment

We lived and we loved

And we hurt and we jumped, yeah

But the planets all aligned

When you looked into my eyes

And just like that

The chemicals react

The chemicals react"

Gustavo said I was perfect. Maybe it was because I was crying? Gustavo had a heart? He cared? That's odd. Ever since I got to L.A I've been crying more and more. I never cried this much back home. When I looked up I saw Kendall, James and Logan smiling at me. I also saw Carlos with Jennifer. I put my head back down and wiped my tears away. He wasn't worth my tears and I wasn't going to give Jennifer the satisfaction of seeing me cry over Carlos. I guess Logan noticed I was crying because I heard the door to the recording booth open and then I felt his arms around me. He kissed my head, just as he did earlier and began to stoke my hair. When I looked up I saw Carlos watching us. He looked angry, but why get jealous? He moved on and it was time I did as well.

The next day I was at the pool with Logan, Kendall, Jo, James and Camille. Camille wasn't mad at me. She's dating James now so she said she didn't care anymore if Logan and I were together. I like Logan but I don't love him. Will the love get to me eventually? With Carlos, it was always there, I was just afraid to say it. Then he did and everything was right. But he ruined it.

Logan held my hand in his as I sat on his lap. Jo was sitting on Kendall's lap and they were making out. Camille was beside James and he kept kissing her neck. A few minutes later Carlos arrived with Jennifer and she sat on his lap. She rested her head on his shoulder and she had a huge grin. Kendall and Jo finally pulled away from their kiss, for air I guess.

"Look at us, all with the girls of our dreams", Kendall said happily. Jo, James, Camille and Logan all grinned. Carlos looked serious and I was pretty sure my face had no expression.

I sighed, "I'm going to get a soda, anyone want anything?"

"Yeah, get me one too babe", Logan kissed my cheek.

"For you to get lost, we all know you still like Carlos", Jennifer said with an attitude. James made a "meow" noise assuming we would end up fighting. 'I 'm not going down to her level, sorry James.' I thought.

"Play nice Jenn", Kendall said, "We're all friends here". 'Really? I didn't know that' the little evil person in me wanted to come out. I rolled my eyes and walked to the lobby. I went to the vending machine and pulled out the money Logan had given me for the drinks. I then felt a hand on my waist, turning me around.

"What Carlos?" I said staring past him. I didn't want him to have the satisfaction of my stare. He wasn't even worth a glare from me.

"Why did you tell Mike that?" he asked.

"What?" I had no idea what he was talking about. I haven't spoken to Mike since our argument.

"You told him you couldn't be with me. That I wasn't worth it. At first I didn't believe him because I know he doesn't want me with you. But then he said you couldn't deal with dating me, recording your album, and taking care of your family." he looked to the entrance of the pool area, then he looked back at me. "The last part sounded so much like you. I know you care a lot about your family. So I told Mike it was ok. That I'd let you go, that I would make you hate me.." he looked to the entrance of the pool area once again.

"Mike… he what?" I was so angry. My brain wouldn't even let me form any words.

"I cant take it anymore Mia.. I need you.." he whispered. I didn't know what to do. My heart was racing so fast. So fast, I felt it could beat me in a race. He put his hand on my cheek and I felt that bolt of electricity I had secretly missed.

"You feel that? That means we're meant for each other." So all this time he felt it too. "Don't try to deny it Mia. The first time we touched I felt it. Please don't hate me anymore.." From over his shoulder I saw Mike approaching with a red head. Boy did Carlos have bad timing. I felt rage fill my system. I walked around Carlos and stopped in front of Mike and the girl he was with.

"You know, you really need to stay out of my love life from now on", I said poking a finger at his chest.

"I told you not to see him anymore Mia", he said while looking at Carlos. "He's dating Jennifer and you're with Logan, get over him already."

"You only approve of Logan because he could stop singing and be a doctor if he wanted to!" I yelled.

"Oh my gosh, are you Mia Montez!" the red heal squealed.

I looked at her and nodded.

"Oh my gosh! I loved you on Big Time Rush's album! I cant wait until yours gets out!" she pulled out a notepad and a pen from her purse. "Can I have your autograph?" she looked desperate. I gave her my autograph and looked at Mike. He looked annoyed since I was getting more attention from the girl than he was.

"You know, if you loved me as much as you say you do, you would accept the fact that Carlos makes me happy."

Two weeks later

Mike had finally accepted Carlos. I broke up with Logan but I was glad he understood why. However Carlos and I weren't together. He was still with Jennifer. She never gave him a chance to talk. Every time Jennifer saw me around she was now the one who pulled Carlos into a kiss. She knew this angered me. Jennifer loved making me angry. She knows I love Carlos. Jennifer never once tried to hide the fact that she wished I would disappear. She wanted me to crawl into a black hole and cry and never return. When Carlos wasn't looking she would give me evil glares. She knew if she tried while Carlos was looking he's be upset.

Whenever Carlos got away from Jennifer, which didn't last long, he said she never gave him a chance to talk.

I went to the pool, our usual hang out spot. Jennifer was crying as she sat on Carlos' lap. Carlos was wiping her tears away with his thumb gently. Did he break up with her? I walked over to my friends.

"What's going on guys? Why is Jenn crying?" I asked. Everyone was silent. I turned to look at Jennifer who was still crying. Carlos looked at me with sad eyes. He mouthed "I'm sorry"

I spoke aloud. "For what?" Still it remained quiet. Jo got up and she walked me to the other side of the pool where it was louder.

"Mia.." Jo began. Her voice was sad. What did Jennifer's crying have to do with me? "Jennifer is pregnant.." she blurted out in a whisper. It was as if Carlos shattered my heart a second time, but now he used a hammer. 'He slept with that bit-'

"Mia, Carlos feels terrible." Jo said. 'He should'

"No, no, no, its ok. Remember, Carlos and I are just friends Jo", I tried to sound like it didn't bother but my voice cracked.

"You know you don't mean that Mia.." she said.

"You're right, I don't.." I wanted to cry, "I lost the only boy I ever loved. And now it really is too late to get him back." I looked over to Carlos, who was looking at me. He was rubbing Jennifer's back, who was still sobbing.

"It's too late.." I said while walking inside. "I wish I could forget you.."

I hope you like Chapter 6! Thanks to my brother Victor for helping me when I was stuck. The song I had Mia sing is "Chemicals React" by Aly & Aj. Please Review. ^-^