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Chapter Seven: Stuck

"I can't take it any longer

Thought that we were stronger

All we do is linger

Slipping through our fingers

I don't want to try now

All that's left is goodbye to

Find a way that I can tell you

I hate this part right here

I hate this part right here

I just can't take your tears

I hate this part right here"

I sang as I sat and played my guitar on my blanket at the beach. I was with Jo, Camille, Kendall and James. I felt weird. If you played the game "What doesn't belong here" you'd take me out the picture. While the two couples were playing in the ocean I stayed by our blanket and wrote my song. I wrote down the chorus and the part I was about to sing. I started to play my guitar again and began to sing the part I had just written.

"I know you'll ask me to hold on

And carry on like nothing is wrong

But there is no more time for lies

'Cause I see sun set in your eyes"

My heart was in deep pain. It felt as if it were still pumping while a knife was stuck in the middle. I stopped singing and put my guitar back in it's case and zipped it close. "That's what you get when you let your heart win." I quoted from a Paramore song just as I had done before.

The song I was writing now was obviously about Carlos. He's been trying to get me to talk to him. He continued to try telling me that everything will be ok, and that we can start where we left off. I knew we never could. Not when Jennifer was going to have his baby. I took out my iPod and started my play list on shuffle. "I'd Do Anything" by Simple Plan started. It was my favorite song from Simple Plan but all it had now was memories of Carlos. I pressed the button on the iPod to change the song. "That's What You Get" by Paramore started. Was I mentally torturing myself? I changed the song again. "Know Better" by Elliott Yamin started. Yes it's another love song, but I let it play.

"After all that we've been through

You still wanna let me down

I keep givin' it to you

You think I know by now

You would think I know better, better

Just by the way that you get down

You threw my heart like whatever

You would think I know by now

See the lies

See the tears that fall from my eyes

Wouldn't you think? Wouldn't you think?"

You think I would know better by now but I didn't. I just wanted to feel Carlos' strong arms around me and have him kiss me and tell me this was all in my head, that it wasn't real. But I had to wake up, because it is real and I had to accept it weather I liked it or not.

"Mia, stop moping around, c'mon let's go for a swim." Jo said while tugging my arm. She knew I loved to swim, just like Carlos does.

"I don't want to." I said, digging my toes in the sand. I don't need more reminders of him. He got Jenn pregnant. I didn't hate the baby she was carrying. I hated the baby's parents.

"Please", Camille begged. Then she did her fake cry. 'Drama queen'

"I don't want to. Camille you know that doesn't work on me." She shrugged and they all went back to the shore.

I put up my beach umbrella in the sand. I was getting too much sun. I was wearing a blue two piece bikini Jo had bought me when she told me we were going to the beach. I didn't want to get tan lines on my stomach from the bikini. This is why I always wear a tank top to the beach but the girls wouldn't let me. I closed my eyes as my music blasted in my ears and soon I felt water shower my body. I opened my eyes angrily to see Carlos standing there holding a now empty bucket. He has his goofy smile on his face.

"Hi Mia!" he said cheerfully.

"Get away from me", I muttered, "I don't know if you noticed but Jennifer isn't here." I closed my eyes again. I heard him drop down on the blanket beside me.

"Mia, please, talk to me", he begged.

"I said get away, didn't I?" I said sarcastically.

"Carlos, c'mon… What're you doing with her?" I heard Jennifer's annoying voice. I opened my eyes to look at her.

"He was just leaving", I answered for him.

Carlos got up, "Yeah.." he said sadly. Yeah I hurt him, but he should be with Jenn, for the baby's sake, not hers. I could care less about her.

Camille and Jo went to their rooms when we got back to the Palm Woods and left me alone with her. Jenn and I got in the elevator and got off on the 5th floor. She got in her apartment first and I heard her and the other two Jennifers talking happily. Why would she be happy that she's going to be a teenage mother? I looked down the hall both ways and saw no one around. I got closer to their door and listened.

"He's so stupid", I heard the brunette Jennifer say, "but so hot."

"So he doesn't know?" the blonde Jennifer asked. Where they talking about Carlos?

"A total idiot," the dark skinned Jennifer said. 'He is not a….okay maybe he is…sometimes.'

"He wont ever think of leaving me for Mia now," the brunette Jennifer said. It sounded like she was patting something. "He honestly thinks my stomach is going to get fat and his baby will pop out of me." She laughed. 'Bitch'

"What will you do when it's time for you to start showing?" the dark skinned Jennifer asked.

"I'll tell him I got in a fight with Mia and she punched me in the stomach", the brunette Jennifer said in a 'duh' voice. Did she really think she could use me to get Carlos? Talk about desperate.

"He'll hate her for killing his 'first child' and love me." she finished. 'Not if I get to him first.'

I got in my apartment and called Carlos. He answered before the first ring could finish.

"Mia I-"

"Carlos, shut up, meet me in my apartment. I'm alone don't worry." I hung up. Within two minutes Carlos was here.

"What's wrong?" he put his hands on my shoulders.

"Nothings wrong with me. I over heard Jennifer and she's terrible and awful. Carlos we can fix everything." I was excited. Jennifer was going to be exposed as the witch she is.

"What're you talking about?" he asked. I told him everything. I spoke fast but I got everything out.

"Mia.." he shook his head at me with disappointed eyes, "sure she's mean but she wouldn't lie about that. This is too big to lie about. I slept with her and now we're having a baby. Maybe you're feeling what I'm feeling now but I need to be with Jenn. She needs me."

You know maybe the dark skinned Jennifer was right, he is an idiot. I was hoping that he would believe me and hold me and say everything would be perfect again but that would be to simple. Things in life were never simple. Love is anything but simple. Love is complicated. I stared into his beautiful brown eyes as he put his hand on my cheek. I closed my eyes as I felt the electricity. He leaned down and kissed my cheek. Warmth spread around my body. I felt his hand move away but my eyes remained close. My hand moved to where he had kissed my cheek and my fingertips could still feel the warmth of his kiss. I opened my eyes and he was gone.

That night I cried myself to sleep in Jo's room. She told me to stay with her. She's my best friend and I really needed a girlfriend right now. Jo comforted me the way my mother had, by rubbing my back as I cried.

"Don't worry Mia, he'll see Jennifer is a liar soon enough", she said. 'At least one person believes me.' I thought.

Even though Jennifer was a evil little liar, it was still too late for Carlos and I. There was no baby, Jennifer was just desperate. Desperate enough to steal the only guy I ever loved.

I heard Jo's voice as she talked on the phone. All she said was, "Mhmm," and "In my room", she paused then spoke again, "that's so sweet." I assumed it was Kendall. I sat up and wiped my tears. No more tears for this boy. I don't need to cry over him anymore. Damn love for being so painful.

"Mia", Jo called out from the balcony, "Come here please."

I got off the bed and looked in the mirror first. I took a tissue and wiped the remaining tears away. For a girl who was just crying in a pillow, my hair was surprisingly straight. Not that it mattered anymore.

I walked out to the balcony where Jo waited. I felt the soft breeze of the night flow through my hair and caress my skin. I walked next to her and put my hands on the railing.

"Look", Jo pointed down.

"It's the way that I feel

When you say what you say to me

Keeps you running through my mind

24/7 days a week

And if you've got the time

Just stick around and you'll realize

That it's worth ever minute it takes

Just wait and see

And I would scream to the world

They would see, you're my girl

But I just...

Keep gettin' stuck, stuck

But I'm never givin' up, up

In the middle of a

Perfect day

I'm tripping over

Words to say

'Cause I don't want to keep you guessing

But I always end up gettin' stuck, stuck

But I'm never giving up, up

I'm over the chances

Wasted

Tell me it's not to late, it's

Only the nervous times

That keep me bottled up inside

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

Keep gettin' stuck, stuck

But I'm never givin' up, up

In the middle of a

Perfect day

I'm tripping over

Words to say

'Cause I don't want to keep you guessing

But I always end up gettin' stuck, stuck

But I'm never giving up, up

Yeah, yeah

Oh, oh, ohh, oh, oh

'Cause I don't want to keep you guessing

But I always end up gettin' stuck, stuck

But I'm never giving up, up "

Chapter 7 is complete! I'm writing Chapter 8 right now so I really hope you've been enjoying the story so far. Much love to my little brother Victor who has been reading this story the second a new chapter is posted. Thanks for your support, I love you little bro.