They had been getting as close as they possibly could. It didn't even matter when James and Peter were around, they'd still cuddle. Remus loved being close to Sirius, he loved how their hands would brush as they walked, cuddling in one of their bed, and most of all waking in Sirius' arms after the full. He felt love everywhere usually he'd be fretting over his future and the repercussions of being a werewolf, but now all he thought was Sirius; When Sirius got out of class, how sirius would react if he were to kiss him, what he looked like naked.

"You look like a french poodle." Sirius laughed as he and Remus cuddled on his bed, watching James get ready for his big date.

"A bloody Handsome one!" James ran his fingers through his thick black mess.

"Maybe wet it a bit." Peter offered, taking the liberty to do it himself.

"Thanks mate."

"Now you look like a black lab."

"I'm quite impressed by your knowledge of dog breeds, Padfoot." Remus looked up to him, Sirius responded by nuzzling his nose into the others soft blonde hair.

"Why did she agree with this again?"

"I threatened her first born-anyway I need you wormtail, bring the cloake."

"So that's why she said yes? Because of a threat?"

"You're just jealous! Don't worry you two have all night to hug each other while talking about your oh-so-hard lives."

Remus mumbled "We're quite happy, actually" while Sirius yelled, "Fuck you Prongs!" and stood in a haste.

"I got a date tonight too and I know she'll put out, unlike the bloody nun you're dating."

"What? I thought you were hanging with Moony tonight."

"No, sorry Moons you'll have to hug yourself tonight."

"You're an asshole." Sirius' face softened for a moment at the sharp edge to Remus' voice.

"Let's get outta here, I'll walk with you." He grabbed the cloke from Peter. "I'll be needing this more than you, Jamesy, I'll be back after hours."

Remus found himself left alone, and suddenly all of his worries coated with insecurities came back full force. He felt so used and betrayed, more by himself then by Sirius. "I should've never let this happen. I can't do things like this, I have to stay to the background forever." BULLSHIT! his brain screamed, as a tear fell to his cheek. 'Remus Lupin doesn't cry, you've been through too much shit to cry!' He fucking hated Sirius Black, loathed him. "I fucking love him!" He shouted to the silence of the room, and that was the retched truth.

He fell asleep at eleven forty, waking at two fifty to sirius coming back from his date. He walked over to the boy, who was quietly undressing. He had her scent all over him, and it was absolutely disgusting to the wolf.

"Did you have sex with her?"

"Yes." Silence. "Oh, come on Moony we don't sex, you and I."

That was it Remus would not be the back thought any longer, he wasn't a toy. Hardly thinking, based only on anger and lust with a hint of love, Remus kissed Sirius hard on the lips and walked away. Sirius was left utterly confused, guilty and aroused.