Its been a while since I last updated. About a week or so, but its winter break and I just thought I would update for those readers that aren't off somewhere cool for winter break.

Anyways, I was thinking about a Christmas themed chapter, but I decided against it so here you go!

WARNING: VERY VERY AU KANDA! *FLASHING RED LIGHTS*

DISCLAIMER: I don't own dgm.

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When I woke up, the first thing I thought was, I'm gonna get that sonofabitch back for what he did. The second thing I thought when I awoke was, oh my gosh, I'm tied up in bandages from head to toe, I can't even turn my head. This was true because I couldn't move my head, much less my arm because something soft and bristly was tickling it. I tried as hard as I could to look somewhere other than the white ceiling, no such luck. I sighed, what is that? It was so annoying! I wanted to push whatever was tickling my hand away, but I couldn't, so I spoke. "Um," assuming it was another person. "Could you move?"

The immobile thing moved, I couldn't see what, or who it was, but I was pretty sure.

"You're awake." Was the first thing that came out of my never-was-fiancée's mouth. I snorted, "Yes, I'm awake, how else would I be talking to you right now? If you want to talk to me, could you stand up so I can see you?" I asked pathetically. I heard the squeaking of the chair moving back. I saw Kanda's face looming over me. "Alice, I can explain."

I would have raised my hand right then and given him a good hard slap. "Like hell you do. Thanks for the lie, could I have fries with that?"

"I know you're mad at me,"

I snorted again. "Stating the obvious aren't we now? I thought you were smart?"

"Please, let me speak." He looked away from me for a minute. "I wasn't ever planning to marry Lenalee," He stopped and murmured to himself. "No, I have to start before that." He started again. "When I was very young, my family and Lenalee's family were very close. We were family friends and business partners. So the whole time I was growing up, we were pretty much destined to get married. And don't get me wrong, it's not like she wasn't pretty or smart, she was, but I just didn't love her that way. The problem was, she did love me that way and I didn't want to risk ruining the family name, so I agreed to marry her, under one condition."

"That being?" I raised my eye brow as well as I could, my entire forehead was covered in bandages.

"That we get engaged two years before the wedding."

"Why? That's so pointless."

"Well, like I said, I didn't really even love her, maybe as a sister, but not as a lover. I told myself that I wanted those two years before the wedding to get to know her better and maybe I would just grow to love her. But that was all bullshit. I knew that wasn't true. I wanted that time just to get away from her for a while before I had to get married. It's pretty terrible, but it's true. Our parents agreed that it wouldn't be fair of them to just force each other's children to marry someone they didn't love, so they said that during those two years, if each of us could find someone that was better than each other, then we could request to marry that man or woman." He licked his lips. "Lenalee, of course, didn't like that idea. She love me, and only me, so she didn't even bother to go and look for someone, I didn't want to hurt her, so I told her that I was going on a business trip to England, not to find someone else, just a business trip." He sighed. "And so I came, hoping that my being in England would weaken her love for me, but it didn't and she came looking for me. And that brings us to today." He sat back down.

"Do you expect me to believe that?"

"I hope you do."

"How do I know you're not lying to me like you lied to her? Judging from what you just said, I have every right to say that you are a liar and a cheat."

"How else can I convince you?" I could hear annoyance and aggravation in his voice. "If I told you I loved you, would that make you happy?"

"Kanda, this isn't about being happy or not, this has nothing to do with me being happy, if you told me you loved me, but you didn't mean it, how would that make me happy? Don't kid yourself Kanda. You're just playing me like you did Lenalee."

He was silent. "If I didn't care about you, why do you think I stayed by your side for the past two weeks you were in a coma? Why do you think I even bothered to ask you how I could make you happy? If I didn't care about you that much, I never would have taken two weeks off from my job to care for you. If I didn't care I wouldn't even have taken the phone call from your parents saying that you had been badly injured."

"Why did they call you?"

He didn't say anything for a moment, then his voice came out barely in a whisper. "Because you kept calling my name. That's what they said."

My eyes widened.

"I'd never lie to you." He added quickly.

"You stupid, stupid, stupid…"I sniffed as tears betrayed my eyes and dripped down the side of my face. I couldn't wipe them up, but Kanda did. "Why do you love me? I'm ugly, I'm ugly!"

He took out a soft handkerchief from his pocket and wiped my eyes. "No, you're not. You're beautiful! And don't let anyone tell you any different, because they wouldn't know any better than me." And then, he did something that I never would have suspected.

He kissed me.

And I cried. "You're kidding."

"Tch. You're hard to please Alice."

"So are you, Kanda."

"I love you Alice. There does that make you happy?"

"Say it like you mean it."

"I love you, Alice Walker."

I didn't want to believe him, but there was nothing I could do, I was another hapless victim to love.

"Me too."

Uck…I didn't like this one…it was really short. I guess I'll try and make the next one better.

I know I keep saying that. :P

Its not my fault I'm not a really good writer…or it is.

It was also a five minute thing.

I'm off to Colorado! Yay!

~byrdie