Dear Diary
Chapter 5
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A/N: The Christmas holidays are here so I'll have a lot more time to write :D Emily x
DISCLAIMER: I don't own Grey's Anatomy or have any medical knowledge. I did a teeny bit of research on burns, but I have a low attention span (well, I don't...but come on, it was 4 am)!
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"So, if you're up and talking, why are you an 'unidentified male'?" Addison asked as she re-entered the room with a pot of lime jell-o. She sat on the chair she had moved into a comfortable place and put her legs up on the bed.
"Interns are stupid. They didn't recognize me so I refused to talk."
"Mark!" Callie was half-laughing, half-frowning at him.
"Anyway, where's Robbins? Why isn't she crying by my bedside?" Callie rolled her eyes as Mark acted out his pain melodramatically.
"She's on call tonight."
"And my shift begins in," Addison checked her watch, "3 minutes."
"But Addie! It hurts! Oh, it hurts so badly!" Mark was really getting comfortable now. It had been a week since the fire and the blistering on his left side had began to go down. He was lucky, the burn hadn't gone too far into the dermis so it was likely to go in a couple of weeks. So Mark Sloan, not including the sex and the surgeries, was almost back. There was only one thing missing. Despite his man-whore exterior, Mark wanted a family. He wanted a wife and a kid; a house and a dog. He'd made a lot of mistakes, he had betrayed his best friend. Mark had 3 best friends: Callie, Derek and Addison. They all visited, but they were in surgery so often. Callie had suggested taking her holiday days and staying with him, but he protested. He knew how much she needed that holiday and besides, she'd been planning to go to Spain with Blondie.
"I gotta run!" Addison hugged them both and hurried out of the room. As soon as she had gone Callie looked expectantly at Mark.
"What?"
"Spill!"
"Spill what?"
"What's with the tension between you and Addie?" Mark sighed; Callie never missed a thing.
"I slept with her." He mumbled ashamedly.
"You did what?" Callie's voice was surprisingly high. If he hadn't have been lying in a hospital bed, Mark would have taken a step back.
"I know, I know this is terrible Cal! What was I thinking? She's married. She's married to my best friend! Whenever I see her with Derek, I feel so guilty."
"You've known and been in love with Addison for 20 years. Who initiated it?"
"She did."
"Well then that's one thing for your defence."
"I didn't stop her, Cal! She kissed me and I didn't push her away. She unbuttoned my pants and I didn't object. Oh, Callie! I am a broken man. People like me are not made for secrets!"
"You are not broken. You are one of the strongest people I know and no-one cares about their friends more than you. You've built yourself a family, you have me, Derek and Addison. We are family. And people make mistakes, but only the strongest can admit it. You are strong, Mark Sloan, and you are loved for it."
"Love you, Cal."
"Love you too, Mark."
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"Arizona!"
"Oh, hey Addison!"
"Do you have a minute?"
"Sure." Arizona smiled and followed the tall redhead to an on-call room.
"OK, this is totally weird and I would usually go to Callie about stuff like this, but she can be judgmental and you're as much as a friend to me as anyone else and…"
"Addie!" Arizona cut her off, she knew she had too when Addison started rambling, she did exactly the same thing, "what is it?" Addison sighed and sat down on the bed.
"I did a terrible, terrible thing! Arizona…I slept with Mark."
"You…and Mark…you…how?" Arizona sat down next to her friend.
"Derek was out and I had a little bit too much eggnog and it just…happened."
"Eggnog? Addison, it's November."
"I know! I'm a mess! Derek is perfect, he's so lovely to me and we just had one fight, one fight and I potentially threw away our marriage!" Arizona wrapped her arm around Addison's shoulders. Addison was shaking with sobs; she rested her head on the blonde's shoulder.
"What was the fight about?" Arizona then realized that might have been a little insensitive, "you don't have to tell me. I mean, you can, if you want to. I'm not saying you have to, but you can trust me." Addison stifled a laugh.
"He kept picking up extra shifts at the hospital and I felt that he wasn't at home enough. He got really angry when I told him and he started shouting that he did it for me, so we didn't have to live in a trailer and we could build a house and start a family." hot tears were rolling freely down her cheeks now, "I feel so guilty, Arizona, I doubted my husband. My husband, who I love. What sort of a wife am I? I was so certain that he was trying to avoid me that I jump into bed with his best friend!" Addison spat disgustedly. Arizona sighed,
"Did you really believe Derek was avoiding you?" Addison nodded, "well, that still doesn't justify what you did, but it's a start. I don't think you really can justify it, Addie. Whatever your reasons, you still committed adultery. I think that the first thing you need to do is accept what you did. Then you need to consider what you want? Do you want to keep living a lie? Or tell Derek and see what plays out? It's your call. And I, as will Calliope, will be there to back you no matter what." Addison sniffled,
"Thanks, Zona, you really are awesome!"
"I know!"
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Callie and Arizona were walking out of the hospital,
"We live in a sitcom."
"I know."
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A/N: The next chapter will ber MerDer, the Maddison-ness is key later on so I had to do this. Thoughts? 10 reviews = immediate update!