It's just another war
Just another family torn
Falling from my faith today
Just a step from the edge
Just another day in the world we live
I need a hero to save me now
I need a hero, save me now
I need a hero to save my life
A hero will save me just in time
I pressed my hand against the earphones as the words slid off my tongue. Zach, Grant, and Jonas stood beside me, singing the male part of the song, which was most of it. I was more of the backup vocals. But that was fine. The song was amazing; it literally sent shivers down my spine every time we practiced it.
The Death DIEmundz had needed a female tone added to it, so they'd asked me just this morning if I could help. Neither Grant nor Jonas knew of the fight I'd had with Seth yesterday or the fear that I may be pregnant. All they knew was that I might run out while we were recording if I got my "very important call" that I was waiting for.
Suddenly the spell was broken as my phone started vibrating in my pocket. I tore off the earphones and bolted out the door.
Once outside I lifted the phone to my ear. "Hello?"
"Hello, Miss Morgan, this is Doctor Witherspoon, you had an appointment with me yesterday…"
Zach came out as the doctor was speaking to me. I nodded and said "uh-huh"'s, then when the conversation was over I started crying.
Zach's whole expression turned into shock, but I saw it crumple. He gathered me in an embrace and said. "It'll be okay, Cam, we'll be okay."
That's when I let out a short laugh. "That's not it, Zach." I pulled back to look him in the eyes. "I'm not pregnant."
He paused. "What?"
"He said that that happens sometimes, but I'm not pregnant, Zach. I'm not pregnant!" I started smiling, wiping at my eyes.
Again, he was stumped, but then he laughed in relief and kissed me hard.
He was right. We were going to be okay.
Play it safe, play by the rules
Or don't play at all - what if you lose?
That's not the secret, but I know what is:
Everybody dies but not everyone lives
I watched the fans shriek and scream as I sang. Every time I saw their faces I knew that this was what I'd always wanted. That I'd fulfilled my dream. That the day I'd left with Seth was worth it. But now a pang hit me as I thought about Seth. He was always somewhere backstage, waiting for me, but this time he wasn't. I'd tried calling him but he didn't answer, so I left him a message telling him the news.
What was I going to do? I couldn't just leave Seth for Zach. I loved Seth…. And I loved Zach. I loved them both.
Which got me nowhere.
Once the song was over I went backstage and was greeted by… no one. I almost felt sorry for myself but then remembered that this was what I deserved. Hell I probably deserved worse than silent treatment from Seth. I sighed and sat down in front of my mirror. Then I gasped and turned around.
"Seth?"
He leaned against the wall behind me, arms crossed. "I wanted to apologize for freaking out earlier." When I was about to start talking he held up a finger, signaling me that he wasn't finished. "But that doesn't mean I take anything back. You and I are history now, I wish it didn't have to be this way, but it does."
I shook my head, tears stinging my eyes. "You can't just give up-"
"No, Cammie, I didn't give up on anyone." He interrupted firmly. "You gave up on us when you slept with him."
I had no idea what I was supposed to say, so I told him. "I'm not pregnant."
He stopped. I could practically see all the gears in his head freeze when he heard that. Then he exhaled deeply. "That's good I guess."
I sniffed wiping my eyes. "Why are you here, Seth? I know it's not to recap what I already know."
He ran his fingers through his hair uneasily. I noticed that he kept glancing at his watch. That wasn't good. "Cammie, I'm leaving town."
"For how long?"
His eyes met mine, long and hard. "For good, Cammie. I'm leaving for a concert tour and I'm not coming back. I'd say I'm sorry, but I'm not."
I blinked and felt myself on the verge of crying. "Have I really ruined everything between us that bad? We can't even work it out?"
His gaze fell to the floor. "No." He sighed and started walking to the door. "I have to go pack."
"When are you leaving?" I asked. He couldn't just go. He couldn't.
"Tonight."
And then he was gone.
I still remember the look on your face
Lit through the darkness at 1:58
The words that you whispered for just us to know
You told me you loved me so why did you go... away.
I sat in front of the fire, strumming my guitar, singing lightly. The flames crackled in front of me as I blinked back tears.
I'd gotten what I'd wanted. I'd gotten my dream job, I'd gotten Zach back, I'd gotten a successful life. I'd gotten everything I should've ever wanted. So why wasn't it enough?
The clock on the table across the room showed that it was 1:58. Past midnight. The night was still busy, the nocturnal crowd out and about like nothing was wrong.
I imagined all those people getting their hearts broken right at this moment and reached out to them. In my words, my feelings, my song, any way I could. I just wished I could let them know that they weren't alone.
And I wished someone would let me know that I wasn't alone. That someone was out there going through the exact same thing as me.
My phone rang. I glanced at the caller ID. Zach. I wanted to reach out and listen to his voice, listen to him tell me that everything would be okay. I'd believed him before so why couldn't I now?
I ignored the call.
I thought about calling my brother and talking to him. We talked everyday since he had moved to LA to become an actor. He had finally chosen to follow his dreams two years ago and he was happier than ever.
I chose otherwise, it would be too late there since his time was 2 hours forward.
I flopped onto my back absent-mindedly staring at the ceiling, my fingers stroking the strings. Words popped into my head, continuing my song. I'd written it 3 years ago for Zach.
But now I'll go sit on the floor wearing your clothes,
All that I know is I don't know,
How to be something you miss.
Never thought we'd have a last kiss
Never imagined we'd end like this
Your name forever the name on my lips
But now the saddest thing was, I didn't know whether it was for him, or Seth.
I finally updated again! Sorry for those of you who were hoping that Cammie WAS pregnant. I was never planning it to be true =S I also wanted to say that I really don't like how this story is going so far cuz it's too depressing. I want to make it fun and crazy like The Future Past, so those of you who are thinking along the same lines as me, bear with me! I'll get there!
So does anyone feel bad for Seth? Will anyone MISS him? I know I sorta will =S Not the best character, but still nice
Remember, GOOD reviews! Do it for Cammie's breaking heart, it'll make her feel better =P
~Ivoryyy
Of course I don't own ANY of these amazing songs or lyrics, so here are the true creators of this wonderful music
SONGS:
Hero by Skillet
http:/www. youtube. com/watch?v=uGcsIdGOuZY
Cross The Line (Box Office Remix) by Superchick
http:/www. youtube. com/watch?v=d-EbHzkxGqg
Last Kiss by Taylor Swift
http:/www. youtube. com/watch?v=-yZmRAF0DeI&feature=related