RPOV
I glare at him as I watch him leave and then turn my attention back to my babe. She looks pissed. "Babe I…" "Don't babe me, what is wrong with you, he was trying to be friendly and you were being a complete ass" I put my blank face on and just stare at her, is she serious. "I get that you have bad communication skills and I'm not asking you to change that, but didn't your mother ever teach you how to greet someone. I mean if looks could kill… what is your problem." "I just didn't like the way he was looking at you, like he wanted you for dessert."
She had this look of shock on her face and then it went to anger, I have a feeling she is going to go in rhino mode. "What does it matter to you if he wants me, its not like you do." What, how can she think I don't want her? "Babe, its not that I don't want you. My life is dangerous. People that want to hurt me can go through you to do that. When I tell you my life doesn't lend itself to relationships, I mean it. I know that I can never feel for a woman like I do for you, but I don't want to take the chance that I might hurt you" I know that I could never hurt her; at least I know that it would kill me if I did.
She looks at the ground and shakes her head and then looks back up at me. "Ranger… Carlos, I love you" I love hearing my name come from her lips, and hearing her say she loves me in the same sentence, is almost enough to break me "We both know that I tend to live in denial land a lot, but now you are to" Sometimes I hate how she can read me "I know that you are saying this because you think it's to protect me. At least that is what you want me to believe" Not even Tank can read me this well "It's not me you are afraid of getting hurt, and it's not your life that doesn't lend itself to relationships,… its just you" she says that and walks away. I want to yell out and stop her but I'm too shocked at what she just said to speak. I know she is right, and I know that I have to do something about it. I love her, and Tank is right, and I will never forgive myself if I let her walk out of my life. Now I just have to figure out how to show her how I feel. I can't lose her.