Chapter 4-

Bella POV

I took in a deep breath as I looked out of my bedroom window. A few more weeks now, just a few more weeks till this is all over.

A tear escaped from the corner of my eye and a small voice in the back of my head said you're not ready yet, you have things to do.

I decided that I wasn't going to tell Alice or Edward, it would worry them, when they had their own lives to live. I felt bad at first when I thought about them coming to my funeral, but then remembered that they had both moved on. They wouldn't hurt much, and if they did, they would move on very fast.

Another tear ran down my face and I hastily wiped it away. But not a second later another came. Soon, I was sitting in my empty house crying, just getting it all out of my system.

Half an hour later, when my tears had dried up and I my eyes were red and puffy the door bell rang. I decided on just going down there. I mean, it was probably only the postman or something, why would I want to look good for him?

I ran down the stairs and opened the front door.

I almost fainted!

There in my doorway stood Edward and Alice Cullen.

Edward POV

After mom had told us what had happened with Bella, we all went to bed deciding that we would get to Bella's house first thing tomorrow morning.

I had a restless night. My nightmares had me tossing and turning. I kept seeing Bella's face losing consciousness and the lights leaving her eyes. I saw that her porcelain face had no colour to it and I screamed

I sat upright in my bed and felt sweat beads on my forehead. I took a deep breath and felt moister running down my cheek. It took me a few minutes to register that it was not the sweat, but my own tears.

Someone opened my door and turned my bedroom light on. 'Shit' I almost shouted as the light temporarily blinded me.

After a second it all came into focus and I saw Alice standing there with a worried look on her forehead. 'Are you alright?' she asked me. I saw dried tears on her cheek and her eyes were red.

I understood why. There really is no way to cope with the fact that someone you love is going to die and there is nothing you can do about it.

'Sorry, did I wake you?' I asked, not bothering to answer her question, she knew I wasn't alright.

'No, I couldn't sleep' she answered. I took a deep breath and saw her come closer to me until she sat on the edge of my bed. 'I won't be able to sleep until I see Bella'.

I nodded my head in understanding. She suddenly got up from my bed and walked over to my cupboard and opened it. She took a black leather book out and sat down again. This time next to me.

'What are you...?' I shut up as she opened the book and I was left captivated by the first picture. It was one of me, Bella and Alice. We all looked young. Alice was sticking her tongue out and Bella was looking at her, laughing. My arm had been snaked around Bella's waist and I was smiling too, looking at her face.

I stared at it for a long time, just looking at her face, her smile, and her eyes. I remembered how her smile always made me feel better. That picture must have been taken around the years that me and Bella toyed with the idea of being something more, until I moved to L.A.

Alice turned the page and I saw a picture of me Bella and Alice at our senior prom. Alice had dared Bella to say yes to Mike when he asked her and she did. I went with Tanya and Alice had gone with her then boyfriend, Glenn Parker. I had felt so angry that Mike was the one who held Bella during the dances and he was the one she held on to and at midnight, he was the one she leaned into and kissed.

The next picture was one of me and Bella, we were sitting out in the back garden on the swinging bench and we were holding hands, talking. I remember it like it was yesterday...

FLASHBACK

I walked through the back garden, not surprised to find Bella there. She was sitting there reading a book. I quickly sat next to her and she looked up startled.

'Wuthering heights, really' I asked arching one eyebrow.

She smiled before she said 'Is there something wrong with it?' She asked. We had these little arguments all the time on what kinds of books were good and which ones weren't.

'No, no, not really' I said just because I wanted to talk to her about something else right now.

She looked at me for a second before deciding to let it go. We sat in a comfortable silence before she said 'I love this, the beauty of how nature works' she almost whispered.

I turned to look her in the eyes and we sat there. I stared into her chocolate eyes and saw her soul, pure and kind. We stared into each other's eyes for an immeasurable moment before I decided it was now or never.

'Bella, lately I...' I was cut off by the sound of Alice screaming.

She ran out into the garden and shoved a piece of paper in front of my face.

It said that I had gotten the role of Andy in 'Live and lies'. Andy was a main character and I had auditioned almost 3 months ago. I had forgotten about it. It also said I had to fly out to L.A. for 6 months.

I looked at Bella and sadly and thought; I can't tell her now and then leave her hanging.

FLASHBACK END

I never did get to tell her, because when we finished filming I had to get an agent for the premier and then I got asked to do a few more roles. Soon I moved to L.A. to make movies and that was the start of my career.

I sighed and Alice turned the page again. This was a picture of Alice and Bella. They were standing next to each other smiling like crazy.

We went through the pages and soon Alice started to drift. It was almost 3am, so she left and went to bed. I stayed up and looked through the pictures over and over again.

In the morning, I was the first awake so I listened to some music until I got a call.

'Hello' I answered

'Edward, where the hell are you? I wake up and call your home only to hear the maid answer and say that you packed your bags and left. You should be here. You have a ton of interviews and at least 6 scripts to review. On top of that you have to be on set in an hour. You need to get back from where you are right now.' The voice of my very pissed agent said.

I rolled my eyes and said 'Shut the fuck up, now. You work for me, not the other way around. I am at my parents' home and I have some important things to do.' I said

I heard my agent, Andrew, take a deep breath. I had never spoken to him like that before, but with everything with Bella, I had no patience.

I took a deep breath and said 'Look, I'm sorry. I'm just a little jet lagged.' It was a lie but I didn't want to tell him about my personal life.

'It's alright; I'll cancel it all for today. People are going to be really pissed when I talk to them. Someone better be dying.' He joked.

'Someone is' I mumbled quietly before saying goodbye and hanging up.

A/N- It's been almost 2 weeks since I last updated. Sorry. I want more reviews. I'm not going to continue unless I get at least 15 reviews. I just don't see the point if people aren't reading it. But there will be a chapter 5. After chapter 5 is up though, if I don't get my reviews, I'll stop. Sorry to those who are reading and enjoying this.

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