Chapter 6-

Bella POV

Wow!

I couldn't process what had just happened. The two people I loved more than anything else on the planet, the two people who I had thought would never come back to me, came back to me!

While they were here I was in a state of shock, but my face didn't expose my feelings and neither did my words. Somehow I was able to keep from screaming and jumping up and down with joy.

Me and Alice caught up on everything. Well her everything as there was nothing new with me. While they were in the room I suddenly felt complete and that was surprising since I didn't even realise I was empty.

Edward. He came to me! I had long ago, too long ago really, accepted my feelings for him. I love him. I love him with everything in the universe combined. I never told him.

I never got the chance. And I won't tell him now because I'm pretty sure that he's dating some amazing actress, singer or super model.

I took in a deep ragged breath and willed myself not the shed the tears that I knew would fall. It was useless.

But, while he was here, he was completely quiet. He didn't say a word to me while me and Alice talked. It simply strengthened my opinion on not telling Edward about anything, not my feelings or my disease.

His silence told me what I didn't want to know. He didn't care anymore, so much that he couldn't even care enough to say even a few words to me.

My feelings of melancholy soon turned into anger.

I was angry at everyone and everything.

How dare he not care anymore? I helped him through everything before he was famous. I knew him before he was this...thing. If this was the new Edward, one who didn't care, then why should I?

I was angry at God. I was religious, but not much. I mean, what did I do to deserve this? I didn't do anything. I was never rude to people. Whenever anybody had needed help, I helped.

If God supposedly controls everything, then why did he rob me of my parents, my friends and now, my life?

My face was red from anger. I had never felt this before. The need to smash something. The need to hurt someone.

I jumped up from the couch and flew into the kitchen. I grabbed the first thing I saw and threw it into the wall.

For a brief moment I felt better that something else, like my life was ruined.

But the anger came back, stronger and faster than before and I did it again to feel better. It just continued like that till the whole kitchen was covered in broken glass and ceramic and wood.

I looked around me and saw disaster.

I nearly fell onto the floor and didn't care about the glass that pierced my skin. I sat there and cried. Cried for my lost love, my lost parents and my lost life.

It was then that I realised that I was in no way ready to die.

Alice POV

Me and Edward had just left Bella's house and I was sitting in the car while Edward drove. She was Bella, but different.

There were so many things different. Her hair was darker and longer. She filled out her curves and her breasts were slightly bigger. I knew Edward had definitely noticed the last one.

Talking to her, laughing with her, telling her about myself was different that when I talked with my friends back home. She knew me on a different level. She understood what I was feeling without having to ask.

When we talked, we only talked of me. I didn't want to tell her I knew and kept waiting for her to say it to me, but she never did. That hurt me so much. Me and Bella were sisters, or we used to be before I left her and ignored her for the few years.

I was such a horrid person. I pushed her away and now she couldn't tell me she was ill. To her I was probably just somebody who she knew in high school and drifted apart from.

I took a deep ragged breath.

I promised myself then and there that I would prove to her that I never forgot her. I always have and always will love her.

I smiled when I thought of ways to make her realise that again, when I remembered all those little glances she made at Edward while we were talking.

I would be in the middle of a sentence and she would turn her head and look at Edward. I could tell she was hoping he would talk to her. He didn't, he stayed quiet.

I knew why.

He was waiting for her to tell us. He wanted to hold her and hug her and never let go. But he stayed quiet.

She must think that Edward thought she wasn't worth his time. He should have realised.

'Edward' I said breaking the silence that had plagued the car since we left Bella's house.

The irritation on my voice was clear as crystal so I wasn't surprised when his voice sounded defensive when her spoke,

'What?' he said

'Why didn't you talk to Bella?' I demanded.

'I...I couldn't, not with her pretending everything's alright when it's not. Every time I tried opening my mouth I felt like screaming.' He said, his voice breaking at every point.

'I know' I said and sighed. 'It's just she kept looking at you with these wistful little glances. You two were so close back then and now, to her, you couldn't even be bothered to talk to her.' I said.

I saw understanding dawn over his face. He was quiet for a moment and then he said 'Alice, how about Bella comes over at the evening tomorrow, instead of you taking Jasper to her. That way I can go and we can catch up.'

I thought it through, yeah, it was less time with Bella, but they would both feel better. I mean they were madly in love with each other; they just didn't want to tell anyone.

This might push them closer to a final goal.

'Yes, it would be fine, we could have a family dinner and it would be just like old times.' I said and I wasn't able to keep the excitement out of my voice.

Edward looked at me curiously, but smiled all the same.

I can't wait till they get together.

But, if they did, she would die eventually.

That thought alone was enough to wipe the smile right of my face.

Bella POV

I sat and looked around me. All the broken glass was just sitting on the floor. All this was the stuff my parents had bought and I had kept safely for them, all these years. And now they were broken.

I cried harder and harder. Just for the sake of crying.

I cried too much these days, a voice in the back of my mind said. But I ignored it.

It must have been 5 minutes later that the phone started ringing and I stood up, not caring about the glass that pierced my skin.

I picked up the phone and said 'Hello.'

'Hey, Bells, I was...'

The second I heard the voice my heartbeat gained speed.

'Edward' I whispered

'Um... yeah.' He said, sounding awkward. 'I was just wandering if you wanted to hang out with me tomorrow. We can do whatever and catch up. Then I can take to our house for dinner where you can meet Jasper.' He said in one big rush.

A whole day. ALONE with Edward.

I wanted to scream 'YES' at the top of my lungs but instead I sounded calm and sure when I said 'I would love to spend the day with you'.

'Oh, that's great' he said sounding relieved 'I'll come over around 8 in the morning, is that ok?'

'That's perfect, I'll see you tomorrow. Bye' I said

'Bye' he said and the line went dead. I put the phone down and a smile played 'round the edges of my lips. I gave in and grinned like an idiot.

I feel like a teenager who's just been asked out by the guys she's been crushing on for ages.

A/N- So, an apology is in order.

I am completely and shamefully disgraced at myself that it has taken this long for me to update. I'm so sorry.

I've been busy with school work (excuse). My mum thinks I'm dumb and now I have tutoring and homework with it (better excuse, but still excuse) and I'm really lazy (fact).

I am happy to say that I achieved my goal of 15 reviews. Thank you soooo much.

I would like to say thank you to 'necromancer girl' for her (I think it's a her) helpful suggestion. And to 'Wolfpaws' who reviewed and to everyone that reviewed. They meant soo much to me. Thank you.

Have you noticed how Bella has mood swings? She's depressed one second and then all happy the next. I've changed the rating to 'T' because I think it is more approaite. There is strong language.

Till next time

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