This could not be happening. I was supposed to come here to do a job, not become some shape shifter's imprint.
The rest of the Cullens and the wolves filed into the living room. Some of them gave me sympathetic looks. Others just smiled. Embry came over and sat down next to me on the love seat. He held out his hand and not wanting to be rude I shook it. I looked up and he smiled at me, but when I did not smile back he looked heartbroken.
"Guys, Lily has something she wants to tell us." Alice announced. I took a deep breath to compose myself and started.
"I was born May 14, 1893 in the small French town of Reims. It is just northeast of Paris. Even when I was a little kid I love learning new things. My parents, Anelise and Nicolas, bought me all kinds of books. I got accepted to one of the best Universities around and everyone was happy for me. One night after I had just finished up in the library, I decided to go for a walk," I took a shaky breath and continued, "A while later I came across a man. He called himself John. I got so caught up in listening to him talk that I did not realize until it was too late that he was leading me further into the forest. He said it was so no one would hear my screams." Esme looked like she wanted to cry if she could and everyone else was anxiously waiting for me to continue. "I woke up alone, naked, and still human. Eventually I learned that I was pregnant. My son Nikolas was born October 23, 1913. The doctor I had deliver my baby was a vampire. I was not strong enough to deliver him and the doctor had to turn me. Nikolas is like Renesmee, he has not aged since he turned seventeen. We split up after I raised him, I thought I would never see him again. Then about two months ago I came across him in Scotland. He was so handsome. We spent a whole month together and then I heard about a family in Washington who only fed on animals. And here I am."
The room took in everything for a few minutes and then Leah asked, "Why did you leave your son?" I merely smiled and looked down.
"The Volturi were after me because of my power. They thought I would be a great addition to their guard. I did not want my son to be seen because I did not know what they would do with him." Leah smiled at me. "Here I thought you just didn't want him."
"No. I loved my son. I just wanted to keep him safe." I could fell Embry rubbing my arm, trying to show that he wanted to comfort me. I only pushed him away. He needed to get over me, this would not work out. I didn't want to hurt him anymore than I had to.
The wolves cleaned out our food supply for Nessie. She wouldn't eat it anyway, but we kept some here for emergencies. Everyone seemed to like me. Leah was talking to me all night and so was Sam. I tried to stay away from Embry as much as I could. I just sat back and admired him. His short black hair, the deep brown eyes. His muscles. I stopped myself right there. I needed to keep a clear head. Edward picked up on my thoughts and smirked at me. I just glared at him asking him to keep quiet.
Eventually the wolves started to leave and I went outside for some much needed fresh air. There was someone behind me and I turned around to find Embry leaning against the door. "Edward told me you were thinking about me." He smirked. I was going to kill that evil, no good, vampire. I could hear Alice and Edward laughing inside the house.
"Don't listen to him." He just looked at me and sat down on the step. We sat in silence for a few minutes and then he spoke.
"I couldn't help what happened. I can't control the imprint." Embry sighed. I wanted to tell him it was alright. That we would find a way to work it out, but I knew it would make no difference. We could never be a couple.
"It won't work out anyway, Embry. I know it won't." He stared down at me for a moment.
"You don't know that, we can try and see what happens." Embry looked helpless, like he wanted me to say it would be okay.
"I'm sorry, but I can't." He started shaking and I knew what was going to happen so I ran back inside. Heading upstairs before the Cullens could question me. My mind was numb, I wanted to tell him that I would try anything. I felt like if I tried hard enough maybe I could love him, but I had a job to do. My feelings could not get in the way. My eyes were burning, meaning that if I were still alive I would be balling my eyes out. I had hurt him and it was for the better, but I didn't expect it to hurt me too.
I stayed in my room the rest of the night with my eyes stinging and my mind trying to process everything. Alice tried to ask me what was wrong but I just blew her off. Not wanting to go through it again. Even Bella came up to see how I was.
The next morning I made my way downstairs to find my new family gathered around the dining room table. They were talking about a trip to Alaska to visit the vampires in Denali. This could take my mind off of Embry. We agreed that it would be good for all of us and started packing. I was looking forward to the trip. Maybe when I came back Embry would have moved on to another girl. Someone who wouldn't say no.