This chapter is pretty short, and sorry for the wait! Chap. 7 is on the way so no worries!!!! R&R
Chapter 6- Simply Love
Alice's P.O.V.-
The pounding voice of Jacob was now a muffle since I slammed the door shut. I leaned against the door for awhile hearing the mumbles of Jacob. I leaned against the door, while staring into space. Thoughts of what happened were crammed into my head.
I sware this wasn't the Jacob that Bella loved. When Bella heard his voice, I wanted to help her, but this is between them.
I pulled myself off of the door, and sat down on the pedestal that stood before my mirror. I slowly placed makeup on to my face. Every now and then my thoughts would travel back from last night to this morning. I finished, turning my face left to right looking to see if I messed up while my mind drifted. It looked fine. I took off my nightgown, and slipped on my corset.
"Trudy!" Trudy was one of the maids that Jacob brought along with us. She entered the room. "Can you help me tighten my corset?" I grabbed the poles that lifted the canopy over my bed. I looked back behind my shoulder, she grabbed the lace, and pulled tight, very tight. I couldn't breath at all, I was gasping for air. "Trudy, too tight! Too tight!" My voice was becoming high pitch, and raspy.
She dropped the lace. "So sorry, miss." I was still crying out for air while my head throbbed with pain. I felt the pulse of my heart racing inside my ear.
I caught my breath,"It's okay. So is everything alright?" She loosened the lace at parts and pulled tightly.
"Yes, miss. Why do you ask?" Wasn't Jacob still yelling, I listened closely. Nothing besides the stretching of the lace, and the short breaths of Trudy.
"How long has it been since Jacob stopped yelling at Bella?" I couldn't have become lost in my thoughts that long. Could I?
"Umm…" She was questioning herself, "For about forty-five minutes." I was.
Bella's P.O.V.-
"Bella! I have to talk to you now, I know your here!" Jacob came out of the door that led into the promenade that viewed the ocean. I stared at the ground tilting my head down, and followed Jacob. I stepped just a step away from the door ready to run once the tears came.
Still staring down at the flooring. "Bella! Why?!" His voice was strong yet gentle. I glanced up at him, with my face fully facing his tall, muscular body. "Why did you try?!" He knew! How?
I lied,"What do you uh.. mean?" My voice cracked. I was always a terrible lier.
"James told me!!" His voice was filled with pain. He took a few breaths, calming down. "Please don't lie to me Bella." His voice was comforting, calm yet still a command. I walked up to him, wrapping my arms around his hard chest, and laid my head on it. He yanked his arms out from under me and laid them against my back, with his hands playing with the loose curls from my bun. A tears were about to burst from my eyes, I held it in.
I can't be this vulnerable near him. I crushed my eyes together holding the tears in. I opened my weak eyes feeling hot, and timid. I glanced up at Jacob, a tear escaped, he lifted a hand from my back, and caught it.
"Do you understand how much I care for you? How much I love you Bella?" His voice was soothing in my state of vulnerability, almost closing it. He wasn't going to yell at me anymore, he was simply telling me that he cared for me over everything else.
"I understand how much be-" I wasn't sensing the same love I usually felt for him. "because I love you the same way, and care for you." This seemed like a utter lie right now. At least he couldn't tell it was.
"Then why? Why did you have to do that?" Jacob should know why, he knew how my mother often upset me.
"Mother, I don't understand why she can't except our dreams. Every time-" My voice was becoming deep, I was on the verge of sobbing. I let my hands travel to his chest, and grip his shirt with my fists.
"Sssshhhh, Bella." He kissed my forehead, he understood. The tears vanished. He stepped back, having me drop my hands from his chest. Jacob cupped my faces into his hot, warm hands.
He stared straight into my eyes,"Promise me that you'll never do that. No matter how much your mother angers you." I nodded my head.
I entangled my hands with Jacob's as he escorted me to the sitting room. I sat down on the love seat right next to the piano. Lifting my hand from our entanglement. Jacob took a seat right next to me, wrapping his arm around me to my shoulder. I leaned against Jacob, pressing my cheek to his shoulder closing my eyes. Images of Edward were immersing me into my mind, especially the image of my favorite crooked smile. My conversation with Alice while she was fixing my hair and makeup went throughout my head. Especially her description of her love towards Jasper.
I'm engaged, I can't really love Edward! Do I?
I questioned myself this for most of the time that I sat next to Jacob. I came out of my thoughts, and glanced at the piano. It reminded me of that paper I saw that Edward wrote on when I first saw him. A music sheet. He must be a composer.
I glimpsed up at Jacob, and met his gaze. His gazes always comforted me, reminding me that there was no one else that could protect me like him, and that I had to marry him to insure my family's survival. It also discouraged my feelings for Edward, with my heart skipping its beats, and the thoughts of him filling my mind.
Edward's P.O.V.-
Do I really love Bella?
I have been asking myself that all day. Jasper's thoughts reminded me of the way Bella appeared to me. Every time I thought, I thought of only her, her face would appear. Bella's warming chocolate brown eyes always touched me the most. Her scent would fade in and out of my nose. My throat burned with thirst, while the monster inside me begged for her blood.
But I have to protect my Bella. That sounds so right. I want her to be my Bella forever. I am, the answer is yes. But what about the monster within me, begging for her blood?
I wanted to scream begging for someway for her to find a different person, a human. She needs to be happy without worrying about me killing her or taking her humanity. She can't ever be damned to my life, this life as a vampire. Yet, I still loved her as my Bella, my only one. The other complication was that she was going to marry Jacob Black, and I would lose her forever.
Bella's P.O.V.-
"Bella?" Jacob stopped the silence,"I have something to show you, go to your room, and I'll be right there." I went off into my room, sitting down in the seat in front of the mirror. My makeup wasn't messed up as I thought it would be. I sat there for about 5 minutes, then Jacob came into the room holding a big black velvet box. He kneeled right next to me opening the lid to it.
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