A/N: Thanks to everyone for the great response to this story. The pacing of this one is quite a bit different than my other stories. I usually like to draw it out but that isn't the direction this story is going in. Hope it doesn't put you off… just wanted to give you a warning. Also this story is rated M so if you're under the age of 16 you probably shouldn't read it… but if you do remember not to print it off and hide it under your bed. Jenna… I'm talking to you. ;)
What Do You Suppose Would Happen?
Chapter Two
"You want to kiss me … " Although it was phrased more as a statement than a question, it still held an element of disbelief.
"Are you sure you're alright, Kurt?"
"Actually, I'm not sure," Kurt said, feeling a little light headed. He thought he might be delusional. After all it seemed impossible that Finn not only wanted to kiss guys, but he wanted to kiss him.
"I kinda get the feeling you just don't want to kiss me," Finn continued, looking a little sad.
"No, Finn. That's not it at all," Kurt reassured him. "I just… I guess I just want to make sure you know what you're doing."
""Umm… But I don't know… that's why I wanted to do this…" He gave Kurt a duh! look.
The boy was just too adorable.
"No, Finn," he said. "I mean there's a difference between being gay and just being curious."
"Well I don't really know right now, Kurt. I mean that's the problem. I've been thinking about how it would feel different kissing a guy and then that got me thinking about how it would feel to have a guy… touch me. Like would it feel rougher cuz his hands would be calloused…?"
"My hands aren't calloused, Finn." Kurt knew Finn was still thinking about those cowboys. He held up his hands to show Finn.
"Oh, right," Finn said as he reached for Kurt's hand and ran his thumb over the pads of his fingers. "They aren't rough, but your hands are definitely bigger than a girl's," he added, almost to himself. "Big enough to wrap around my …" Finn suddenly stopped, dropping Kurt's hand as he realized what he was saying. He stood up nervously, not looking at Kurt.
Finn's touch had elicited a tingly response that traveled from Kurt's hand right to his groin, but it was nothing compared how he felt after Finn's almost words. He needed to get control… of his body… of his mind.
Kurt looked up at Finn. He appeared to be having much the same problem because he was standing there with his eyes closed, and he seemed to be counting.
"Finn?"
"If you don't want to kiss me, Kurt. I understand. Let's just forget I even brought it up."
The other boy was clearly embarrassed, and Kurt didn't know what to think. His mind was still having difficulty… not surprising considering the thoughts Finn was putting there.
"Maybe I should just go," Finn said miserably.
Kurt realized then that he needed to say something.
"Your mom drove you here, Finn."
"Oh, yeah."
Finn sat down again, away from Kurt, and tried to retrieve the remote. His plan must have been to lose himself in TV land, but Kurt grabbed his arm.
"Finn. Stop. It's okay. You can kiss me." He took a shaky breath. "I want you to."
Finn stared at him for a moment unsure… and then seeing that Kurt was sincere, he smiled in relief.
Kurt smiled back nervously. Was he really going to kiss Finn?
"Well, I guess… I should just… umm…" Finn shifted on the couch uneasily. Then he leaned in to kiss Kurt. Unfortunately they both moved their heads in the same direction. Kurt responded by moving in the opposite direction but found that Finn had the same idea. It was just… awkward.
"Wait, Finn," Kurt said breathlessly. "I won't move… you kiss me."
"Okay," Finn said and leaned in once more.
This time Kurt was still as Finn's lips touched his softly. The kiss was very gentle and not nearly enough for Kurt. What was Finn afraid of? That he would scare Kurt away? How was he going to know if he liked kissing boys if he didn't actually kiss him?
Finn moved back watching Kurt's reaction.
"My turn," Kurt whispered before reclaiming Finn's lips. Kurt knew if he came on too strong, it might scare Finn off, but he no longer cared. This might be his only chance to kiss Finn. And if Finn really wanted to know what it was like to kiss Kurt… well, he was going to show him.
Unlike Finn's kiss, Kurt's was not as gentle. He put all his feelings into it, coaxing Finn's lips apart. It didn't take long for Finn to start participating fully. Their kisses became heated as their lips pressed tightly together.
Kurt was surprised by the Finn's response. He thought the other boy would be hesitant… uncomfortable… instead the kiss seemed to ignite something in the other boy.
Encouraged by Finn's enthusiasm, Kurt grew bolder. He swept his tongue in Finn's mouth educing a low moan from the other boy as he responded. The kiss was incredible, and Kurt didn't feel as if he could get enough.
Finally they parted with both boys breathing heavily.
Finn looked dazed…
"You okay?" Kurt could tell Finn enjoyed their kisses, but he was worried that he might regret it later.
But Finn gave him a half smile. "Yeah, that was… amazing, Kurt."
Kurt couldn't help but smile back. He knew they were just experimenting but still. So far Finn seemed to be into it.
Finn placed his hand on the side of Kurt's face. Unable to control the impulse, Kurt closed his eyes and leaned into the contact, as Finn rubbed his thumb across his cheek bone.
"Finn," Kurt whispered.
Finn kissed the other side of his face softly as he moved his hand down to Kurt's neck. Kurt's eyes were still closed but he could feel the heat through his Gucci shirt as Finn's hand moved to explore his chest.
He felt Finn unbuttoning his shirt, and his eyes flew open.
"Finn," he stammered. "What are you doing?"
Finn looked like a child who had been caught being naughty, and Kurt had to resist the urge to laugh at the look on his face.
"I… I just wanted to feel you… your skin … I'm sorry."
"No, it's okay… I was just surprised," Kurt said. "Go ahead."
"Are you sure?"
Kurt smiled at him reassuringly, but his stomach was going crazy. "Yes," he said.
Finn kissed him again as he unbuttoned the shirt until it was wide open. Kurt was not wearing another shirt underneath, and the cool air felt good on his heated skin.
Kurt held his breath as Finn touched him. The intimate contact was both wondrous and torturous. He closed his eyes again to savor the sensations. Finn's hands wandered all over Kurt's chest and stomach. As Finn leaned in closer, one hand moved around to Kurt's back. As Kurt realized what Finn was planning to do next, he tried to brace himself.
He couldn't prepare himself for the amazing feeling of Finn's lips caressing his skin. The other boy trailed kisses down Kurt's neck and on his collarbone. He went further still, kissing Kurt's chest as he moved slowly downward. He licked at his nipple before taking it into his mouth.
"Oh, God Finn!" Kurt moaned. If they continued like this for much longer Kurt was going to end up really embarrassing himself. Reluctantly, he placed his hands on Finn's head and pushed him away.
"What?" Finn said looking up at him.
"My turn," Kurt stated simply.
Finn still looked a little confused as Kurt kissed his lips sweetly.
Then he took the end of Finn's shirt, indicating that it needed to come off. He could get forceful if necessary, but Finn seemed to catch on and took his T-shirt off willingly.
Kurt just stared for a minute. Of course he had seen Finn's body before in the locker room, but really he had tried not to look, afraid that he would get caught staring. Now he had the luxury of being able to look and no one would say anything. In fact, Finn was grinning at him like a fool.
Kurt smiled seductively at him and ran a finger down his chest barely touching him. Finn's smile faded as he closed his eyes and tried to remember how to breathe.
Unable to tease him for long, Kurt ran his hands eagerly over Finn's chest and stomach. He wanted to memorize every muscle… every inch of his flesh. He then pushed Finn back on the couch and straddled his thighs. He knew he was probably going too far too fast but he didn't care. Finn needed to know what he wanted, and Kurt was more than willing to help him find out. Leaning into him, Kurt kissed Finn's neck. He sucked on the other boy's skin but not enough to leave a mark. He didn't want to give Finn any reason to regret what they were doing, later.
Although he'd always imagined what Finn would taste like, there was no way he could have known it would be this amazing. His skin tasted salty but in a good way.
Finn put his hands on Kurt's thighs as if he needed something to hold on to for support. Kurt could feel the heat even through his skinny jeans. Finn's hands felt so strong, and Kurt couldn't believe how aroused he was at that moment.
Kurt swirled his tongue around Finn's nipple before taking it into his mouth. He sucked on it for a second and then bit down. Finn gasped out loud gripping Kurt's thighs tightly.
As Kurt continued his exploration of Finn's body with his mouth, Finn's hands wandered up his legs. Kurt was so intent on his task, that he didn't notice Finn had moved one of his hands until it lightly brushed against his erection, causing Kurt to jump in surprise.
Finn grew bolder then and cupped Kurt with his hand, squeezing slightly. Kurt could no longer think as he instinctually pushed back against Finn's hand.
And then the contact was gone, and Kurt whimpered in protest until he felt a tug at his waistband. Looking down he saw that Finn was undoing his belt. Realization of what was happening finally hit him, and he ignored what his body was telling him to do.
Sitting up quickly, he knocked Finn's hands away.
"No Finn," he said shakily as he redid the clasp and sat back on the couch. Kurt tried to regain his composure, but it was difficult.
"I… I don't understand, Kurt," Finn said. "I thought this was what you wanted."
"It isn't, Finn."
"Oh," Finn said sadly. "I'm sorry. I guess I got carried away."
Kurt sighed in frustration. "Finn, It's just… I don't want my first time to be an experiment. I want it to be because I care about that person."
"Oh," Finn said. Then he seemed to realize what Kurt said. "Oh…" He looked miserable as he stood up. "I should just go…" Then he remembered. "Crap! I can't." He ran his hand through his hair in frustration.
"Listen, Finn. I know how that sounded… but it's not what I meant. I just don't want to be your experiment. I…" he paused. Was he really going to say it? That dejected look on Finn's face had just killed him, and he couldn't bear to see him in pain. "I do care about you… I …" he took another shaky breath. It was all or nothing time. "I want you so much… but I don't want to be with you just because you're curious. I can't do that. I won't do that."
"Oh," Finn said once again. "I get it. I have a confession to make… I wasn't exactly truthful with you, Kurt. In fact… I lied to you."
"Why would you do that, Finn?"
"I was just scared, I guess."
"What did you lie about?"
"I knew what that movie was about… I mean everybody knows, right? When I asked my mom to get it, I acted like I didn't though. Sometimes I act like I don't understand because it's just easier."
"Finn, you know you could have just downloaded it from the internet. Then you wouldn't have had to watch it with your mom."
"Oh," he said, rolling his eyes at his own stupidity. Kurt just found it adorable.
"But, Finn, why did you do that?"
"I have been having these feelings, Kurt. Feelings for you," he admitted. "I don't know when it started. I would just see you… or hear you… or… smell you… and I would have these thoughts. I wanted to kiss you and touch you…"
Kurt was staring at him in disbelief.
"And before making a complete fool out of myself, Kurt, I just wanted to make sure… that I… you know, actually liked guys. And then last night I watched that movie and it was hot … watching those guys … and then I had this sex dream about you and…" His eyes widened as he realized how much he had shared. "Oh, crap. Did I really just say that out loud?"
Finn had a sex dream… about him?
"But, Kurt..." he continued sitting down next to him again. "I want you to know that you're not an experiment. I just wanted to make sure this is what I wanted… and it is."
Finn was looking at him sincerely. His face was a mixture of fear and hope. Kurt was having trouble breathing… let alone talking.
"I understand if it's not what you want, Kurt. But it won't change how I feel about you. I want to be with you and not just for sex… I mean I do want that… obviously… but I care about you. I want more than that."
Kurt just stared at him. He couldn't believe this was happening. After all the years he had been in love with Finn and now the other boy was telling him that he wanted to be with him?
"Please, say something, Kurt."
Kurt kissed Finn softly on the lips. "Our parents won't be home for a few hours yet, but you can never be too careful, so I think we should continue this conversation downstairs in my room."
"Okay," Finn sighed in relief as Kurt got up to gather their discarded clothing.
Finn stood up to follow him. "Wait…"
Kurt turned back around. Finn had a confused look on his face.
"Does this mean we're going to have sex?"
Kurt smiled at him. "That is exactly what it means, Finn."
"Oh, cool." Finn said as Kurt took his hand and led him downstairs.