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Bitter Embrace
Chapter Ten: Exhileration
Jane heard a soft voice calling her name, a voice she recognized. Warm hands stroked her cheeks, rousing her from her dark haven. Fluttering open her eyes, Jane looked into wide concerned green ones and a pair of gray eyes gazing down at her from a few inches away.
"Uh, what happened?" Jane muttered, reaching up to rub her forehead with a hand and blinking in confusion.
"Darling, do you know where you are?" Maura asked in a cautious tone, not wanting to scare Jane in case she does not remember the reason she ended up ass over heels on the floor.
Jane gazed around the room, still laying down and noticed the hospital gown Maura wore.
"OH the hospital. You collapsed at the scene, and I rode here with you. MMMM."
Jane's eyes widened as the next thought came, "you told me you are pregnant."
She shook her head in confusion and then sat up, beginning to get off the floor, an uncomfortable feeling settling in her gut that had nothing to do will her collapsing. Maura eased back up onto the hospital bed, sitting and watching Jane skeptically. The Doctor backed up from the couple, hoping to not have to referee yet another domestic dispute in her Emergency Room.
"Hey, you need to be careful." The pair of gray eyes, belonging to the Doctor cautioned Jane as she stood up, albeit a bit unsteadily.
Jane, now eye level with the redheaded Doctor, looked at her and then over to Maura. "Hey Doc do you think Maur and I may have some privacy. I think we need to talk about some things." She glared at the Doctor, leaving no option for the Doctor to refuse.
"As soon as I determine you are alright and calm, I will leave you two alone. We are going to admit Doctor Isles for observation tonight and to make sure everything is alright." The Doctor said glaring right back at Jane. She continued, "While you were resting on the floor, Doctor Isles explained your situation."
The Doctor made a back and forth motion between Maura and Jane then said, "I realize you may be upset, but please just stay calm, Detective."
Jane scowled at the Doctor and uttered in disbelief, "are you worried I might HARM Maura?"
"Just please, do not give me cause to have security remove you. Okay?"
Jane nodded and agreed to stay calm.
The Doctor took a step towards Jane and asked, "Now, how do you feel after your mishap? Are you feeling dizzy or nauseated?"
"Maybe a little dizzy, but not from the fall. I am just overwhelmed." Shaking her head Jane continued, "I think I will be fine, so you can leave and give us a few minutes alone." Jane walked over to sit by Maura on the hospital bed and reached for her lover's hand, encasing the clenched fist in her warm fingers and continued to scowl at the Doctor.
"All right then." Turning her attention to Maura, she said in a firm voice, " Doctor Isles, we will be by in fifteen minutes to move you to a room where you will be more comfortable. Also Detective, visiting hours will end at ten." She glared back at Jane and got a stubborn look right back.
"Thank you Doc, I will be sure to have Maura tucked in way before." Jane uttered sarcastically.
"Be good you two." With a wink and a shrug, the Doctor headed off to the nurse's station, situating the curtain around their cubicle for a bit of privacy for the couple.
Jane kept her head tilted down, avoiding Maura's gaze.
"Jane baby, please look at me?" Maura pleaded with the despondent Jane.
Brown eyes lifted from the floor and met green, gazing for a few minutes in silence.
"Maura, I am at a loss for words." Jane kept gazing into Maura's eyes then continued, "Babe what do you want me to say." She drew in a deep breath then averted her gaze, "Congratulations Mom."
"No need to be bitter Jane."
"Maura. I am soo not ready to be a dad."
"Did I ASK if you are?"
Maura stared at Jane, then picked at her cotton hospital gown in frustration and fear over Jane's flight or fight response.
"What exactly does that mean? And please spare me any bullshit." Maura said, tears shining in her eyes.
"I'm just not sure Maur. I. . . .don't know." Shaking her head, Jane got up from the hospital bed to pace, and to think for a minute. Maura followed her every step with her eyes.
Maura opened her mouth to retort only to close her mouth again as the Doctor moved the cubicle curtain and stepped inside.
"Doctor Isles, the transport is here to take you to your room. Are you ready to go?"
"Yes I am as ready as I will be." Maura responded with a hint of dread lacing her tone.
"Will the detective be accompanying you to your room?" The Doctor looked at Maura then to Jane, and back to Maura awaiting a response.
Neither Maura nor Jane responded right away. Finally, Jane said in a soft voice and looking at the floor, "I think perhaps it would be best if I did not stay."
"If that is what you want Jane." Maura responded in a flat emotionless tone. Looking at the Doctor and ignoring Jane, she continued, "Please send in the transport and would you escort the Detective out of my cubicle on your way out."
"Maura…." Jane pleaded in a soft voice to Maura and walked over to take her hand.
Maura held up her hand in a stop gesture and shook her head. "No Jane, you said you should not stay. So do not stay. Go, runaway like you have before. Please leave, I need time to think."
Ignoring the observing redheaded Doctor, Jane walked up to take Maura's hand anyways and leaned in to whisper, "Maura I'm sorry for what I said. I just am confused right now and scared. I am so scared Maur. Please don't push me away." Sucking in a deep breath she continued, "I ran away once, I'm not going to again. I promise. I thought I should leave so I don't say something and stick my foot in mouth, but I seem to already have."
Reaching her arms out, Maura encompassed Jane in her arms once again, her anger dissipating with each breath full of Jane's scent. The fear she felt of Jane running away from her also leaving with each exhale. She blinked away her tears. Maura snuggled her face into Jane's strong shoulder and whispered, "Jane, we will discuss the baby later when I have had some rest. I feel really tired."
"Okay Doc, I will call you later and update you on the case while I'm at it." Jane smiled and placed a gentle kiss on Maura's forehead then backed away from her embrace, schooling her face before turning around and looking at the Doctor. Brown eyes met gray. A pale red eyebrow lifted in challenge and a plump mouth smirked up at the corners. She probably thinks I'm so whipped and a fool.
The orderly appeared around the Doctor and wheeled a wheelchair up against Maura's bed, motioning and assisting her to step down and sit down for the quick trip down the hall to an observation room.
Jane reached out and grasped Maura's shoulder as she was wheeled away, walking a few steps with her before letting go and watching her disappear around the corner.
The Doctor still stood off to Jane's right, watching her every expression and move. She took a few steps until she stood right by Jane and reached out to grasp Jane's bicep in wordless comfort, grounding the swirling thoughts in Jane's head. She said in a low voice into Jane's ear, "I know this is all a lot to take in, but she loves you and running away from her and the baby will be the biggest mistake you could make." She leaned away from Jane, turned on her foot and left the now quiet cubicle for the mayhem of the Emergency Room.
Jane gathered her thoughts and remembering the dead couple from earlier, muttered to herself, "Get your ass in gear Rizzoli," and strode out of the ER like a woman with a purpose. On the drive to the station, she continued her one-sided conversation, "That damn nosy Doctors right. I shouldn't run from Maura. I need her too much."
"So what if she's knocked up. It's not as if she said she was going to keep it for absolute sure. Maybe I'm just jumping ahead of myself here. Yeah right. Moreover, Garrett will not be stopping by for his fatherly rights any time soon. He's going to rot in Jail, that stupid prick. I hope the baby is Garrett's. Yeah Rizzoli be a detective why don't you and figure out who knocked up your lover, hmmm."
Pulling her car into her spot in front of the station, she quit muttering for fear of being overhead.
Jane got out of her car and decided to take a stroll down to the coffee shop on the corner and grab a triple mocha for comfort and caffeine. The cool Boston breeze blew through her hair and billowed out her leather jacket, flowing through her thin blouse and sending a chill down her spine. With each step Jane took, her thoughts flowed back to Maura and her news. My lover, pregnant. I bet she will look beautiful with a big belly. Too bad, it will not be a Rizzoli; we are such a handsome lot.
Feeling incredibly better then when she left the hospital, Jane winked to the counter girl, got her coffee and took a corner table to mull things over in silence before facing the inquisition of Frost and Korsak. I will so punch Frost if he even thinks about making jokes about my studish strap-on somehow impregnating her. Besides how would he even know we use a strap-on. Hmm. I better text Maura later, make sure she is okay in her room.
Grabbing a discarded magazine and taking a sip of her now cooling mocha, Jane felt her cell phone vibrate in her pocket. She removed it from her pocket and looked at the display. A text message from Maura: Baby, I love you. Go get the bad guys. Junior and I need to sleep now. Good night.
"Damn I love that woman." Jane practically shouted to the other shop patrons. They briefly looked at her then went back to their own business. She sent a text back and looking sheepish, she put her phone away with a huge smile gracing her face.
Jane finished her coffee and got up from her table to go back down the street to the station house. As she walked by the woman at the counter, she got a return wink when their eyes met briefly. "Hmm. must be 'family,'" Jane whispered as she stepped out onto the sidewalk, buttoning her jacket closed against the now raging wind and strode towards the station house, humming under her breath a nursery rhyme.
Almost finished with the next part, will post later today.