AN: first: secretlife2010, thankyou for noticing the joe/taylor/demi joke thingy i did there lol :D now I had 4 lovely reviews during the weekend and i'm really happy, so here is another chatper :)

I was staring at the ceiling and listening to music all by my self. That was something I did a lot these days, maybe it was because for the first time in my life I had felt loved, and I had loved someone, even when I didn't realize it at first. And then someone took it away from me. The story of my life.

It was two weeks after the band camp had ended, and the school was about to start the next day. For the first week I had tried calling at her cellphone but she hadn't answered to me, no surprise there. Then I called to school to ask her address, too bad no one was there either. Though I was quite sure I saw Amy looking at me trough the window, it was just for two seconds though.

After a week being avoided by Amy I decided that she would come to me when she was ready to do it. When I received no calls from her I finally gave in and called Adrian. It wasn't the same with her though, I used to feel something, passion, but now I didn't feel even that. I wanted to feel something, someone to replace the hole Amy left in me, but it seemed nothing worked.

So I stayed in my room, the only times I left from my room for the last week of summer was when I needed to go to bathroom or eat something. Today was different though, today was the last day of summer and tomorrow I would see Amy, maybe even talk with her? No I suppose she doesn't want to talk to me, why would she have changed her mind?

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She was even more beautiful than I remembered, she was the most beautiful creature in the world. She was glancing towards me and talking to her friends the same time, it seemed she was really upset about something. Adrian was next to me and talking something, but I didn't really pay any attention to her. At that moment I realized how I had to get Amy back to my life. Then Grace came to us trying to convince us to go to party at the church, supposedly there was free food and 'real fun times'. I wasn't really hyped about it, especially when she invited us as a couple, but Adrian kind of promised we would be there.

As the rest of the recess went over I saw a dark haired boy looking at Amy with a way I didn't like. I was going to walk over to him and smack him as he made his move towards Amy. Right before my eyes I saw a random dude talking to my Amy, how dares he do something like that? Doesn't he realize that Amy was my girlfriend? I moved my self next to them so that I could hear what they were talking about but they wouldn't see me.

"..So would you like to go to the basketball game with me?" Oh, he was asking her out, fuck him.

"Emm, I.. maybe?" I loved hearing her voice, I didn't love hearing her thinking about it. Did she not care about me at all? "I mean, yes, I'd love to go with you?" That hurt me so bad, it felt like someone had stabbed a knife trough my chest. I started feeling totally numb, but I wasn't there, I couldn't take control over my actions. I grabbed the boys shoulder and turned him to face me.

"Leave, now." I said with a voice that could kill.

"Oh, I'm sorry, but I am having a conversation here." What a fucking twat, does he not understand that I want him to leave, like right now. Amy was just standing there, like she was afraid of moving.

"Yes, with my Amy, with my girlfriend." The boy looked very confused now, I can see why. She had just agreed to go to the basketball game with him.

"Amy?"

"No, Ben I'm not with him. He's just having a hard time getting over some old things. Ben would you excuse us, I have to talk to him privately. But I'd love for you to pick me at my house 6 pm, could you? I'll see you then, bye Ben." Was all she said before she dragged me from my shirt to outside.

"Ricky what is wrong with you? How can you just come like that and start telling people I'm your Amy?" She asked from me, clearly very angry.

"Because Amy, I love you and I want you to forgive me for everything I've done." It was my first conversation with her after the band camp, and these were the words I had to get out of my heart.

"Ricky, I thought I made myself clear as I didn't answer to your calls. And even if I did consider forgiving you, you just quit calling me, and then I hear from my friends that you are dating some girl called Adrian. And then I think, wow I guess he really was playing me? So then I'm like yeah I will move on from him, because it's just wrong that I make myself suffering because some guy, who would put me trough something like these last few weeks have been. So Ricky, could you please, just please stop. don't tell me that you love me, just leave me alone. And don't you dare tell anyone that I'm your girlfriend, because I definitely am not your fucking girlfriend. You get it?"

"OK." After her pouring her heart out, I didn't have anything else to say. I had messed this one up pretty well, even for me. She was turning away to walk back inside, but I took her hand and turned her back to me. I slid my hand to her neck, as I did so many times last summer. She was staring at my eyes, waiting for my next move. I caressed her cheek with my fingertips and then pressed my lips to hers. It was quick and peaceful, it was like saying goodbye. as our lips parted we just stood there looking at each others eyes for seconds, feeling the connection between us, but knowing that there was just too much happened between us for us to just forget it all. I turned away from her saying the last words for her.

"Goodbye Amy." I couldn't stay at school, I had to get away from there, I had to be alone and wallow at my self-pity. I felt her eyes staring at my back as I walked towards my car. I glanced at her and our eyes met. It was a special kiss, we knew that. We didn't have to talk, we knew each other so well that there wasn't any need for more conversations.

That day, I truly, deeply believed that I would never ever hug or kiss Amy, ever again.

AN: sorry it was short, AGAIN. I was supposed to write the basketball game and the dance to her as well, but this felt like a great place to stop. I hope you enjoyed it and you'll review :) xxxx