AN: Sorry for not updating for a while, but I've been finishing my high school. Just got done with my final exams (believe me, in Finland those are way too hard and you have to study so hard) and my result were quite good :) now I have a few classes that I have to attend to before I can promise I'll get my diploma next December. And also I'm starting my job in a new place today, it's going to be awesome, well except the fact that my best friend is my boss but also my other best friend is working with me too! But yeah, I guess you don't want to hear all this boring stuff about my stupid life so here's the new chapter:
I turned away to leave, I couldn't see her anymore, it was too hurtful to see her and think about her being pregnant. As my hand touched the door handle, I heard her quiet voice behind me.
"Ricky, Ben isn't the father, you are."
Hearing those words made my head spin, it couldn't be, I couldn't be. How could I be the father? We had sex one time and one time only and it was over three months ago. She would've known earlier if I was the father, why was she lying to me? I knew Amy wasn't like that, Amy didn't lie, why would she lie now? Why would she want to ruin my life? I had thousand questions in my mind, but I couldn't even look at her.
I had two options, either look at her or leave the room. I heard her crying but I didn't want to look at her, but I knew if I left the room I'd probably lose her for good. She'd have to understand though, I convinced myself.
"Amy, I.. I can't process this right now, I'm sorry." I left the room but heard her sobbing even more as I left her alone. I knew I just raged about Ben not taking care of her, but that was before I knew I was the father. My life was too messy as it was before, how was I supposed to take care of a kid.
As I walked trough the hallway I felt like I was living on slow-motion, everyone seemed to be looking at me but I couldn't focus my gaze at anything particular. I heard someone shouting my name, probably Adrian, but I couldn't turn around. It was like I wasn't able to control my own body. And then everything went black.
The Song About Promises
"Ricky darling, can you hear me?" I heard Margaret's voice. "Ricky, I need you to open your eyes." She ordered and tried to open my eyes, but the the light was too bright. "I see you are awake, you got me scared mister." I heard the smile in her voice and smiled a bit.
"What happened?" I asked with hoarse voice. The last I remembered was that I was kissing Adrian and then saw Amy crying. A thought of Amy released the flashbacks in my head as I saw Amy crying on my lap and her telling me she was pregnant. And that I was the father.
"You passed out, but you'll live." She laughed at me as I gazed around and saw that I was in a hospital. Did I mention I hate hospitals?
"Oh.. well if I'm fine then we can go now, right?" I started to get up from the bed.
"Sure, we just have to wait for the doctor to release you. Now tell me, did you not eat well today? Or were you too tired? People don't usually just pass out." She asked me with a worried look on her face. She looked like a really caring woman, like a mother.
"Just somethings happened. I don't wanna talk about it." I usually told her everything, but this I just couldn't. It would break her, she'd be disappointed. And I hate disappointing people, especially the ones I care about.
"Fine, if you don't want to talk about it." She knew me well enough not to ask too much. That's why I loved her.
The Song About Promises
After I got released from the hospital, I decided that I'd take some vacation from school and Margaret thought it was a good idea. I explained her that I was stressed out with all my school work and needed to just rest for a few days. Adrian called me and texted me, wondering where I was. I just told her not to worry and that I'd be in school in no time. Actually I didn't want to go back to school at all.
As two days passed, I started to get over my first shock about Amy being pregnant. I started to understand that it wasn't necessarily something that would ruin my life, it might just be something good, something better. Then when I finally understood that I would just have to get used to the fact that I was going to be a father I realized that Amy probably wouldn't ever talk to me again, not after the way I reacted. And I don't blame her for it, I was a jerk. Making Ben look like the bad guy and then actually reacted like that myself.
I looked at the school building, kind of scared of walking in. I would have to face Amy and she had probably already told her friends what kind of a asshole I was to her. I got up from my car and sat to it's hood, I wasn't quite ready to go in yet.
I saw someone looking at me from other side of the school yard, like they was trying to decide whether to come to me or not. I didn't notice who it was until he started to walk towards me with. He had planted a smirk on his face and looked absolutely too self-confident for my liking.
"Hi Underwood." He greeted me with nodding at the same time.
"Hi Ben, what do you want?" I asked, rolling my eyes. This should be good.
"I just want to make sure you understand, that Amy and I are dating. So just stay away from her, we don't need you in our lives." He stared at me narrowing his eyes. He looked so dorky I wanted to laugh at him, what in the world made him think his threats would ever have any impact on me?
"Woah that's rich, okay let's just forget you ever tried to tell me what to do with my life. Bye Ben." I got up from the hood to walk into the school but he grabbed my shoulder.
"Look Ricky you don't understand. I know all about Amy's pregnancy and you have to understand that she would have better life with me than with you. Let's just look at the facts, for example I have money and you don't. I can support her while she can still live up to her dreams." He pleaded to me, he was now more desperate and made me realize that maybe his feelings for Amy were real. But what gave him the right to say I couldn't take care of my child and my Amy.
"I don't think this is a conversation for you to have. Actually this does not concern you in any way so why don't you just get the heck away from me." I didn't have time for this shit.
Walking trough the hallway made me feel like every one's eyes were on me. It didn't make any sense to me until I saw Adrian.
"Ricky! How are you baby?" She shouted and kissed my cheek.
"I'm good, look is it just me or is everyone watching me." I asked her whispering.
"Oh it's just some stupid rumour flying around.." She looked awkward, like she didn't want to tell me what the rumor was.
"Well? What is it?" I was eager to find out what people were saying about me.I guess because there was always some rumour that didn't make sense at all.
"Well, it's Amy, supposedly she's pregnant" She looked at me and laughed. "Yes it's stupid I doubt she has even lost her virginity yet? But the thing is, people are saying that she told you that you are the father and then you passed out and that's why you have been away from school. So stupid, right?" She laughed but I was dying inside, feeling dizzy again. I don't know how people got it right.
I forced a smile to my face "Completely stupid. Hey I'm sorry just ditching you like this again but I got to talk to some teachers before the first class starts, I'll see you at lunch, okay?" I pressed my lips against hers. It wasn't like kissing Amy, but she was my girlfriend after all. And if I wanted to get Amy to take me back to her life, I should start acting like the good guy. And being nice to Adrian was the first step to do so.
I saw Amy taking books from her locker, she was alone and I decided that I should just talk with her right away. Apologize for the way I acted and all.
"Amy?" I asked quietly, full aware that people were looking at us.
"Go away." Was all she said, but I knew better than leave her alone.
"No I don't, because I want to apologize, I acted like a jerk, but I just, it was, look I got so terrified." I pleaded, at some point she's have to talk to me.
"I don't care. You told me all those things Ben should do and then you just walked away from me!" She hissed. "And I don't know how I could ever trust you again. You are such a bipolar! First you say you love me and the next day you are walking away, I just don't know.."
"I do what ever to show you that I'll be here for you! I promise, just please talk to me about this, I want to be involved." There was hope again, at least she talked to me.
"I am not forgiving you, you'll have to show me that I can trust you, then we'll think about me forgiving you." She hold her books to her chest and bite her lip in adorable way.
"Fine, I'll take it, I'll do whatever!" I smiled and hugged her, but she backed away.
"I'll see you later Ricky." She took one glance at me and then walked away.
AN: oh my god, so I just realized I got seven reviews for last chapter, that's so much for me :) So what did you think? Do you think Ben is gonna cause trouble? What do you think Adrian's gonna do when she find out that the rumours are true? And what do you think Ribky will do to make Amy trust him again. Okay let's say I'll update this when we have passed 40 reviews :) so after 9 reviews there's gonna be new chapter, so start reviewing :)
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