List of things to do before the year 2011:
1. First of all, get Amy to forgive you.
2. Break up with Adrian.
3. Get a job.
4. Get your own apartment.
5. Get Amy to trust you again.
6. Get back together with Amy.
I looked at my list, with desperation. It was a lot of things to do, and I only had four months to accomplish them. Well I wasn't sure I needed to get all of the things from my list done before 2011, it was just like a metaphor. It would be a new year and new Ricky. New Ricky who would be responsible, lovable, good father and boyfriend.
Only problem was that I didn't know where I should start. Maybe I should start with breaking up with Adrian, that felt like it was easy enough, it was the easiest thing in my list at least. When I'd be done with that I'd make a plan how to get Amy trust me again. But if I got Amy to forgive me first I could just tell Adrian I was going to be a father and I couldn't see her anymore, now I would have to give her some kind of explanation and I couldn't think of any. I doubt she would understand if I just told her that I didn't like her.
I picked up my phone and dialed Amy's number.
"What do you want?" She answered after awhile.
"For you to forgive me?" I told her straight forward. I tried to make it sound funny, but it didnt'. Neither of us laughed and we stayed silent for a minute or two.
"Look Ricky, I really have things to do so please if you have something to say just say it and don't waste half of my afternoon." She declared and waited for my answer.
"I just wanted to talk to you." I tried again, I didn't really have any good reason to call her, because I had nothing on how to prove her my love or my regret. I just needed to hear her voice, I needed to believe that there was something to fight for.
"Goodbye Rick." She hung up the phone and I sighed, throwing my phone to my bed and kicking myself mentally. Why did I call her? I should have waited, stupid me. Everything just seemed to hard, I should just forget this and stick with Adrian.
I jumped on my bed and picked up my phone again, this time calling to Adrian.
"Hi baby." She answered to her phone as usual. "You wanna come over?" Tempting, I toughed. But no, this time it was time to end it for good.
"Adrian I think we should talk, I could come over but it's just for a serious talk and nothing else, alright?" I made sure she understood that I wasn't about to jump her and get her pregnant too.
"Okay, I'll see you then." I heard her smiling while saying goodbye to me and it actually hurt me that I had to hurt her. No I didn't love her, but when you are with the same person on and off for two years you grow up caring about them. And I didn't really have people like her in my life, she was always there, no matter what.
No matter how hard it would be, it was something that I would have to do, so I just got up from my bed and ran to my car. I drove straight to Adrian's and saw her waiting for me outside. I had decided that I would have to tell Adrian the real reason I was dumping her, but before I did I should make her promise not to tell anyone.
I hugged her walked inside with her. She sat on a couch and I nervously rubbed my neck, trying to find the right words to say. There really isn't any right ways to dump someone. Thankfully she made it real easy for me.
"You are breaking up with me, aren't you?" She asked. "It's alright, just tell me why.." A tear fell from her eye and I wiped it away.
"I.. I'm in love with someone else and it just feels wrong to be with you while there's someone else that my heart really belongs to." I caressed her cheek and she laid her head rest on my shoulder.
"It's true isn't it? That the Amy girl is pregnant, and you are the father." I didn't say anything, I didn't have to, she already knew.
"Please don't tell anyone, look it's her business and I don't want to be the one who is telling everyone the truth, okay?" I pleaded hoping she really wouldn't say anything. If she told anyone it would ruin my whole life.
I gave her my final goodbyes and left her alone.
A Song About Promises
The next day I leaned against my locker in school and watched people walking by. Everyone seemed to be looking at me and whispering something, I figured that it was only because they heard about me and Adrian breaking up so I didn't give it a second thought. People always found something to talk about, so if they talked about our break up then at least they wouldn't talk about Amy.
As I started to walk to my next class I felt someone jerk me from my shirt and poke me against the lockers.
"What the hell Ricky? You told EVERYONE?" Amy shouted and slapped my chest.
"What.. what are you talking about?" I was taken aback by her sudden outburst and really didn't understand what was happening. Then I realized her wet hair and her spread make up. "Amy I didn't tell anyone, I swear." Only Adrian. I added in my head, the fear spreading in my head.
"Okay so people have called me the school slut for no reason the whole day, huh? And I guess Adrian just happened to have a bad day when she throw a smoothie on me like five minutes ago and told me how I was a home wrecker and a slut, and how I should never come to this school and just disappear because I ruined her life by making you believe this was your baby while it wasn't." She cried and leaned against the fall.
"Amy, I'm sorry. I really didn't believe she would do that.." I whispered while she tried desperately wipe away her make up and tears.
"Ricky, I don't know why you told her, but you just ruined my life. Everyone knows I'm pregnant and I don't think I can handle all the mean things they say about me." She sobbed and played with her hair. I took her hand and raised her head, making her to look me into my eyes.
"Amy, I'm here for you, I'll always be here for you. And I'm going to make sure no one says one bad thing about you, okay?" I assured her while thinking ways to make people stop gossiping.
"What if I don't want you here? You've just made everything so much worse than what it was. I wish I had never met you." She snapped and turned her head away from me. My heart felt like someone stabbed me and all I wanted to was ran away, but this time I wasn't going to do that.
"You can hurt me with whatever words you want to, but trust me Amy Jurgens, I will never leave you again. No matter how much you hurt me I will stand by you until you trust me again." I squeezed her hand and she looked at me. I saw her eyes shining for just a second, and it made my feel hope again. I felt like maybe I didn't do all this for nothing, just that one look that she gave me made me feel like there was something to wait for.
"Thank you." She whispered and hid her head behind my shoulder, because people were starting to cluster around us. "Please take me away from here." She begged me and I lift her to my hands and started to carry her in a bridal style. But before I left I just needed to say something.
"C'mon people, what's you problem? She's clearly not feeling well and you all just gossip her when she's right here crying, you guys are sick. So what if she's pregnant, that's not your business it's hers so why don't you just butt out and let us deal with this on our own. Thank you." I half told them, half shouted. They looked at me with shocked eyes and I knew they would respect me for telling them what to do, they wouldn't talk about it anymore, at least not so that me or Amy could hear them.
I walked out of the school with Amy on my hands and carried her to my car.
"Ricky, thank you for saying that, I really appreciate it." She smiled at me, when I put her back to ground. "Look, I know I've been harsh on you, but it's only because I need someone to blame, and I know it shouldn't be you. I think right now you are the only person who's really here for me, so thank you." She looked at my and played with her hair, hiding behind it in the cute way that she did.
I smiled at her widely and hugged her tightly. "Thank you Amy, and I'm so so so sorry for everything, I really am." I tried to assure her that I really was sorry.
"Outch, Ricky you are hurting me." She whined and I quickly let go of her. "And I'm thankful for what you did, but I can't just truest you like that. Sorry." She awkwardly looked away and I frowned. Of course she wouldn't trust me like that, what was I thinking.
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