Scarred Chapter 14, a twilight fanfic

A/N I'm so sorry that it took me so long to update. It's probably a good thing I did say after the New Year that I would update. I had a bit of an incident involving a full cup of water and my laptop and was freaking out that I was going to have to replace it. Lucky for me, my laptop still works! Woo hoo!

As always, thanks to you, the readers and those that review/rec this story out. You guys rock my socks.

To my awesome beta Dragonfly336 who puts up with my horrible spelling and punctuation mistakes. You rock meh socks off meh dear! I heart you hard.

In other news...I took second place (well it was a three way tie for second place. Me being one of the three) in the Superhero/Villain contest. My story was WTF! You can find it on my profile under my stories.

OK...enough gibber jabber! It's time to find out whether poor Edward is going to live to see graduation or if he dies...So with that...I leave you this...

SM owns all things Twilight. Me...I just happen to own Just Dance 2 of which I am the reigning champion amongst my family and now friends as well...**takes a bow** lol.

Chapter 14 Missing

BPOV

I sit on the chair in my room, looking out the window. It's been a month since "The Incident" where my father found Edward in my bed. A very long month at that. I have been nothing but a zombie since. As I look outside, I see the branches that used to be up near my window, are now missing. Well, they're not really missing, per say. They were cut down by my father moments after he threw Edward out of the house and told him never to set foot in this house again. Yeah, it wasn't pretty, but for some reason, I find myself thinking about that day that made me who I am now...

Flashback

I was having sweet, Edward-filled dreams, and enjoying the feel of his weight on me when all of a sudden, I felt nothing. No heat of his body. No weight of him lying on top of me. And worst of all, no arms around me. As I become fully awake, I heard a crash and then yelling.

I bolted up and yelled, "Dad! Stop!"

My father wasn't paying any attention to what I had to say. He was too busy throwing Edward's clothes at him. He dragged him downstairs and kicked him out of the house. While my father was 'tending' to Edward, I took the opportunity to actually get myself dressed and ran down the stairs. As I was going down, I heard the front door slam. I came down the rest of the way, very slowly because my father was pissed. No...I think pissed was an understatement.

"Um...h...hi Daddy," I said while looking down at the floor. I knew I was in huge trouble.

"Don't 'Hi Daddy' me young lady!" he yelled. "So, tell me what exactly were you thinking, having Edward sneak into the house? How did he even get into the house without me knowing?"

"Well...um...first off, we both had been really busy and hadn't really seen each other much. He wanted to surprise me, so he came over and when I saw him outside in the tree...I let him in through the window." I couldn't just lie myself out of this one. There was no way. So I was hoping if I told the truth, that maybe he would be a little bit lenient about punishment. Instead, I got much worse...

After I told my father how Edward got into the house, he ran outside to the shed. Next thing I knew, I heard the chainsaw. I ran up to my bedroom and saw him cut down every branch that reached my bedroom window.

After he cut down everything he felt needed to come down, I heard the front door open and close. I heard him yell up to me a little while later.

"Bella! Come down here please!"

With a great sigh, I walked down the stairs. My father was sitting at our kitchen table with a cup of tea waiting for me and a cup of coffee for himself. He pointed to the seat with the tea in front of it.

"Have a seat. We need to talk." I sat down and took a sip of the tea. It's just right. Then he started, "I don't want you to see Edward anymore." I felt my eyes go wide with fear.

"No! No...I can't do that to him! Or me! I love him!"

"I really don't care who loves who or what! You are never to see him again! Is that clear?"

"Well...hate to break it to you Dad but you realize I can't really avoid him at school since I have at least one class with him and we share a desk together." I saw my father start to turn red with anger.

"Well, you better figure something out, because you are no longer allowed to see, speak, or breathe the same air as he does. If I find out that you are, then I will have no choice but to call the school myself and deal with it. I'm almost half tempted at putting out a restraining order against him..."

"You wouldn't?" I was so pissed at him.

"Oh, you bet your ass I will. So you better take care of this situation yourself or you will see what I'm really capable of." He left me by myself with my tea. I sat there and finished it up, then went upstairs to my room. Not too long after I set foot into my door, I heard my phone ring. It's Edward's ringtone. I sighed and picked up the phone.

"Hello." I tried to act normal because I was figuring out if I should tell him in person or do it over the phone.

"Hey...is everything OK?"

"Well...let's just say I'm still alive," I told him.

"I'm so sorry, sweetheart. I didn't mean to sleep in that long. I hope I didn't get you into too much trouble."

"Well...as much trouble as a teenage girl being caught in bed, naked with her teenage naked boyfriend can be." I tried to keep myself together because I knew what was going to come for our future, where he didn't have a clue. I felt the onset of tears as I thought of what my life was going to be like without him in it. I couldn't keep going on with the conversation, "Um...I need to go. I'll talk to you tomorrow."

"OK. I love you." I almost lost it. I wanted to say I loved him back but I couldn't. If I told him, I wouldn't be able to let him go.

"I...I have to go." I hung up. I knew he was going to know something was wrong. I always tell him I love him. It's the first time I hadn't. I couldn't keep the tears and sobs away any longer. I knew what I had to do. I had to make him believe that I didn't love him anymore. That's the only way that I would make him understand that I could no longer be with him. Not my choice of course, but my father is the only parent I have left. I had to listen to what he says. He's my dad. With the thoughts of what I needed to say to Edward to make him believe I no longer loved him I cried myself to sleep.

My alarm went off the next day. It was Monday and I had to get ready for not only school, but for the worst day of my life. I decided that I was going to drop Biology since I didn't need the class. I just took it for a filler. When I arrived at school, I walked into the office and talked to Mrs. Dooley about dropping the class.

"Sweetheart, there's only a few more months of school left. You've come so far, why don't you just stick it out for the last few months and then you will be graduating anyway," she told me.

"Yeah, you're right. But are you sure you can't just let me drop the class? It's not like I need it to graduate." I really hoped she would let me.

"No honey. I'm sorry. I just can't do it. All the study halls are booked up that period and there is no reason to take another class for only two months. I'm sorry, but you're just going to have to stick it out till the end." I sighed and nodded my head.

I went to all my classes that morning and then it came time for lunch. I had forgotten all about lunch and panicked slightly as I thought about what to do. I decided to go eat in my truck. It was the best place to avoid people. As I was eating, I thought about what it was going to feel like, eating alone every day for the rest of the year. I was already starting to feel lonely.

After lunch, I started to walk to Biology. I was not looking forward to it, at all. I sat down next to Edward and tried not to make eye contact.

"Hey. Why do I have the feeling you are trying to avoid me today? I haven't seen you all day until now. Then I hear through the grapevine that you tried to drop Biology? Why?" That was the moment of truth. I had to tell him that I no longer loved him and he needed to leave me alone. God, it was going to be so hard. I hoped that I could keep up the facade.

"I can't do this anymore," I said so low that I didn't think he could hear me.

"Wait. What?"

"I'm sorry, Edward. I can't do this...us...anymore." The hurt I saw in his eyes nearly crushed me.

"You...you...don't...want there to be an 'us' anymore? But, I...I...love you, Bella." I silently begged him to stop, he was killing me! I loved him so much but I just couldn't tell him.

"I'm sorry, Edward. I just don't love you anymore," I said, thinking the whole time for him to not believe me and not to give up on us. I looked into his eyes and saw that he was in pain as the tears started to pool. The next thing I know, I stood up, told Edward I was sorry and ran out the door. I didn't know where I was going to go at first, but my feet ended up taking me back to my truck. I hopped in and made a beeline for home.

Lucky for me, my father wasn't home yet. I went up to my room and just sobbed. I did it. I made him believe that I didn't love him anymore and that he was a free man.

Once school was actually out, Edward called me. I let it go to voicemail. Once I heard the voicemail alert, I listened to it...

"Um...hey...it's me. I don't understand what is going on. One day you make love to me and tell me you love me...the next...*sobs*...I just don't understand...*sobs*...please call me so we can talk about this...*whispers*... I love you...*click*"

I was a sobbing mess. I never thought in a million years I would ever hurt him as much as I had. I kept the voicemail since it was the only thing I would have to remember the sound of his voice by. Needless to say, I didn't call him back. I just couldn't.

I called the cell company and changed my number. After I did that, I called my dad to let him know that things were all taken care of and gave him my new number, just in case he needed to call me.

Every day in Biology was so painful, more so for me, I'm sure, than him. I would see him sneak a peek in my direction every so often, but I was sure that it wasn't a look of love he was giving me. I never talked to him unless I had to. It was easier that way.

One day, as I was coming back from my truck after eating lunch, I saw Edward in the hallway with, of all people, Rose. She was whispering in his ear about something and being all touchy feely with him. I even saw her lean in for a kiss, but I couldn't take anymore and walked away, tears streamed down my face. This is where 'Zombie Bella' really started to take over.

End Flashback

So, here I sit a month later, listening to his message for the millionth time, alone, looking out my window, more like a zombie everyday because the love of my life is missing. Deep down inside, I hope he wouldn't give up and that he would fight for me. For us. I knew it was no use though. My dad would make sure to put a stop to him ever setting foot on our lawn. That and he has Rose now.

I hear my dad's cell ring and hear him pick it up. I don't pay any attention to the call because I'm sure it's work related. I continue to look out the window. It's actually a really nice day out. I stand up and open my window to let in some fresh air. It's a nice warm breeze that blows in and circulates through my room. It's wonderful. I end up falling asleep in my chair.

I get pulled out of my sleep when I hear an acoustic guitar. The song sounds somewhat familiar, but I can't tell why. Then I hear the most beautiful voice start to sing...

Open up your heart to me
And say what's on your mind, oh yes
I know that we have been through so much pain
But I still need you in my life this time

No freakin' way! I run to my window and there he is...Edward! He's standing there with his guitar, singing to me.

And I need you tonight
I need you right now
I know deep within my heart
It doesn't matter if it's wrong or right
I really need you tonight

I can't believe that A) he is here risking his life like this and B) that he chose my most favorite song ever. It's at this moment that not only do I know just how much that I missed him this past month, but how much I really, truly love him...and I'm beginning to think that the feeling is mutual.

I figured out what to say to you
But sometimes the words they, they come out so wrong, always they do
And I know in time that you will understand
That what we have is so right this time

And I need you tonight
I need you right now
I know deep within my heart
It doesn't matter if it's wrong or right

All those endless times we tried to make it last forever more
And baby I know
I need you
I know deep within my heart
It doesn't matter if it's wrong or right
I really need you, oh

I need you tonight (I need you, oh I need you baby)
I need you right now (It's gotta be this, it's gotta be this)
I know deep within my heart
No, it doesn't matter if it's wrong or it's right
All I know is baby
I really need you tonight

"Go to him," I hear from behind me. I turn around to find my father standing in my doorway.

"What?" I ask, barely a whisper. I've already been crying because of this sweet thing that Edward is doing, but now I feel more tears pool and fall at my father's words.

"Go to him. It appears that he has been just as zombie-like at home as you have been around here according to Esme. You both are miserable without each other." That's when it hits me.

"That phone call you got, that was Esme?"

"Yes. She made me realize how wrong I was to keep you two separated."

"Oh my God!" I run to my father and wrap my arms around him.

"I forgot that I was young once." He lets go of me, "But this doesn't mean that I condone what you guys were caught doing. I don't ever want to catch you guys ever again. Got it?"

"I promise." I go to walk out my doorway and turn around, "Thank you, Daddy." Then run down the stairs to meet up with the love of my life.

A/N And yes...that is where we stop for today. Not as bad of a cliffy as before the holidays, but still I leave ya hanging just a bit. Got to make sure ya all come back ya know...lol. Just don't forget to leave me some luvin loves. Because we all know that leaving a review is like having Edward serenade you outside your bedroom window. **wink**